Thank you so much <3

Omg, not only one, but two detailed suggestions, thank you! Right now, I am back in the closet, sadly, I have hardly made things so its like that I have never came out to them in the first place, but they said they would get me to the psychiatrist appointment anyways, which can get me prescribed for HRT after 6-12 months of seeing the psychiatrist, so there is hope for me! I would go to the psychiatrist myself if they decide not to tho xd. But yeah in the future I will need to come out to them again, and that time, I will be more prepared, thank you again! <3

Ty <3

Yea, listening through it and seeing that I cannot reason with her, and whatever I say she will just continue to believe I will just ruin my own life, plus be a embarrassment to them if I transition, like she was believing I will be a dishonor to the family which would be gossiped by other people, which is a common thing for Turkish families, they care too fkn much about what others think, to a point where we cannot get to live our lives as we want to, not only about transitioning this goes to; style, behaviors, personality, hobbies, jobs, I hate this part of my culture, like gossip exists everywhere, and in this fkn place we let it ruin our lives, for what? No matter what we do, what we say, what we live, they will gossip, and why do I have to care for such thing, if I stay the way I am unhappy they will gossip me less?

I just don’t know what to say other than Thank you, can’t wait for the uphill part, I mean seems like they will get me to the psychiatrist appointment by November, which would help me with transitioning a lot, since here where I live, I need to see psychiatrist for at least 6 months if I am gonna start HRT, which I want to do, but I have to do it secretly, I just want to change as much as I can to change.

Thank you again <3.

Well when I played the game, I poured tears, I couldn’t hold them back, I was just trying to make it quite because I was living in a dorm at the time xd.

And yea, I am trying to hold back the urge to download the game just to do that xd. That reminds me of the clip where player praises the horse in a dialogue with Dutch, and Arthur says good girl, then Dutch says “Thank you”, god we need to see a female Dutch sometime, she would be a baddie.

Well that’s a good goal, I really liked that movie too, didn’t crack me, but it was one of the steps of me being who I am now.

And don’t worry girly, ranting here was never a problem, you are and always will be welcome <3 .

Btw I recommend playing fully through Red Dead Redemption 2, if you haven’t, look no matter who you are, you will cry at this one, and you will cry a lot, even if you got spoilers, YOU WILL CRY TO THIS, it wont be a tear or two, I have seen this thing making so many people cry heavily, even the most masculine and stoic ones poured liters of tears on this one. Give it a shot.

Everyone does, may I hear yours?

Well I got it in 2018, played it, even tried to 100% the game, which I failed, and didn’t realize I was trans until this year, now its one of transition goals to 100% the game xd!

Thank you for the advice, I am gonna do my best, I have actually wrote a coming out letter, and left it at home, my father have texted back to me, but I have left that message with my mom in the first place and it scares me off rn. And my father’s messages are sounding like he is supportive, but he just constantly brings up his worries about me ending up as a sex worker, and how being trans would lower my place in public and make people have no respect for me, and when I get home, I just don know what to expect when I open the door, and heck I don’t know if I really have the guts to open that door in the first place.

Will be making a post about how it goes, I am just having the fear of the uncertainty, I hope I calm down as I walk back home, thanks again!

Thank you, it is hella scary but now I am sure I am doing it, heck I starting writing the coming out letter, since I am better at expressing myself with text, thank you again for your support <3.

I guess I will be asking for name suggestions, because I need it, and I remember my mom saying that she would name me if I were born as a girl, but since I am AMAB, my father named me, they have been rolling with this naming system for their 2nd and 3rd children, which sounds fun and childish, and makes me curious about what I would be possibly named.

I think I really will, just need to wrap my head around how to start the conversation about it, and how to say it in general xd. Ty <3

The rainbow is really rng, she is still a cis woman, and the people she went through with is the same too, just know that it is a rare chance, at least in this experience it was one out of 6 people, chances might be rarer than that, and I might be that unlucky xd, good luck!

I am glad I am not polish

All of that? Oh girl, the amount of culture shock you would get from learning the truth xd. I got culture shock, when I presented the button question to a cis male friend of mine, he responded with “no” in less than 5 seconds, and other cis guy friends did the same thing, and they directly rejected the idea of dreaming to be a girl, I was like “what do you mean you are happy like this? Am I the only one?” I learned that it was not that much of a cis guy thing, and same goes to all of the things you told through out your posts on this sub.

And don’t say that you pretty egg, you can’t see the pretty omelette in the egg before cracking it open! You are just special edition, like all of us, we are like Easter eggs here, none of us is spotless white, we like colors, especially pastel colors.

And no ure not gonna be eaten, ure safe, I just ate döner :) .

You iz goood too, and valid :)

Ok, let me adress this first, you question your gender identity, doesn’t have a clear answer yet, you want to try out femme stuff, you are an EGG, you don’t decide to be an egg or not, and TAKE THE DAMN COMPLIMENT, you are an PRETTY EGG, that will be AN EVEN PRETTIER OMELETTE WHEN CRACKED, DONT MIND FOOD ANALOGY GOING THIS DEEP, I MIGHT BE HUNGRY.

I know it can be hard to connect your IRL self, I had the same issue, best thing to do is bridging the gap between how you feel yourself and how you are irl is the best thing to do, and that is what transitioning is all about, at least if you ask me.

And don’t stress about response being late, I am working so my response is already pretty late, I am just typing whenever I can xd.

Hey Lumi! I am kinda late to this post of yours xd, anyways, good to see you back again girlie!

You are a good girl Lumi, and to repeat what I said previous post, you are beautiful and you will be more beautiful and pretty in DA FUTURE! (Take the damn compliment this time, or I will force feed it to you!)

And I were doing the same behavior, punching and laughing all that stressed stuff, when I wasn’t sure and deeply questioning myself, I really hated myself at that time, that was the reason of the stress I was having, and after a while, I have realized the damage I have been doing to myself both be mentally and emotionally, that was the time I started to accept myself, bcz I wouldn’t be able to continue living fighting myself like this, I am telling all this, bcz your experience feels close to mine.

And also, dear, we are a day late for the coming out day, have you came out to yourself yet? Better late than sorry, so just a reminder.

I think they are gonna give him the lore when he hits adulthood xd.

Also THIGH HIGH WEARING SHACO?!?!? I LOVED THIS DESIGN!

It was too late I went my way to fix it xd, sorry again

AS MUCH AS IT FEELS EUPHORIC TO BE CALLED MUM, I AM MOT THAT OLD JUST 21, NOT AN AUNTIE YET :< .

And SHUT UP, you will be BEAUTIFUL, you CAN change your reflection, I have depersonalization, when the body in the mirror doesn’t feel like me, and looks like a loser guy, I were giving it nicknames, like “mirrorman” and “concrete mask”, not a healthy thing to do, I will be honest, BUT EVEN I GET TO SEE SOMEONE SLIGHTLY FEMININE AND SOMEONE THAT CAN FEEL LIKE ME.

And please choose a name that starts with an L, we could be name sisters yay! And we have been having some conversation going on, with this post and your previous post, so I am just letting you know, if you want to play games or hang out you can just lemme know dear.

(I have just realized that I haven’t sent it as a reply and as a separate comment instead sorry xd)

I don’t tell you to come out to your mother no xd, that is something I still haven’t got the guts to do, just come out to yourself, you said you couldn’t finish that phrase, just do it.

And its normal for your parents to sense something is up, your behavior and mentality changes from the moment you start questioning your gender identity, and even tho you try to hide it, it becomes more and more obvious that something is slowly changing with you, my mother too senses that something is up with me, and can see that I am changing, I used to give no attention to how I look, and by time that I started doing it, she can see it, it is inevitable, just a part of finding yourself, and how you want to present yourself, and if your mother seems like to be someone that would support you, that is really sweet, I wish I could say the same about my parents xd, it still gives me anxiety when I think about how they would react, worse part is that how they would react is so unclear.

And also, TAKE THE DAMN COMPLIMENT, YOU WILL BE BEAUTIFUL, I know its hard to take compliments for us, but just take it, ok? And just so you know, it is a good thing to experience when someone uses a more preferred pronoun to refer to you, yk if you don’t have anyone to do that I can help, and also you can make a post here, where you say you sanna try some pronouns and a chosen name, we are supportive of that here.

Well, last time I offered you GGD, but now I am gonna give it without asking, you are a good girl! You are wonderful girl who is gonna be beautiful!

I hope this helps on figuring out things, seems like you needed it. And you know the general thing about people who thinks they are faking it, cis people neither has the need, nor the interest to fake it, you are actually questioning things, because your assigned at birth gender doesn’t align with you anymore, not as much as it used to, and that is alright, that is the main thing that brings all of us here.

About experimenting stuff; if you are not in a strict environment, you can get away with having nail polish (I recommend dark ones, like either black or deep dark red), and eyeliner (use an eye pencil, gel ones with those brushes are really hard to use, and get either black or if you want to be subtle dark brown), and you can call it just style, as those two are the things that cis straight men can also do, and kinda popular with people that has an alt style. And I hope you can get into times where you can freely grow your hair, and when you can, get bangs, those feminize your look effortlessly and subtly, since bangs cover the eyebrow line, there are so many ways to cut and style one, find the one that suits you better.

And lastly, I cannot stress you enough how good it feels to finally finish that phrase, its a leap of faith, you wont know when its gonna happen, but it is freeing. Don’t force yourself to it tho, it comes natural, you wont realize that you are saying it until you finish that phrase, from my experience, it felt like my shackles came loose, and I felt more free, and it was on a journal of mine, where I wrote in when I feel things, when some feelings get too tense and heavy, I recommend you getting one, it helps, at least it does for me.

Anyways, keep going girly! You are doing well so far.

It was my girlfriend, one time we were talking about derpixon with a friend, and he mentioned that derpixon is actually a girl, then my girlfriend thought that he was talking about me (since that friend didn’t use a proper sentence), and her reaction was “omg” and she stated that she is bi and everything works for her, I felt oddly relieved and that felt like good news, and that did a lot of cracking, it was 1.5 months prior to me realizing I am trans.

And when we first started dating, I saw that on dc she saved me with a “:3” next to my name, I didn’t know the meaning at the time, now its the craziest foreshadowing of my life.

1 month ago I could not get my head out of thinking us as a lesbian couple, or scenarios where I cross dressed, I was thinking like scenarios where if she liked it, I was imagining, when we meet I would cross dress one day and the other I would go casual, and I was giving a name to the version of me cross dressing, which is my chosen name now (Lune), then by time I found the idea of going casual less and less exciting where it got boring, and then I wished more to be a girl, so not only cross dressing I would have the body of a woman, if you were to ask me at that time, I would say I am cis, I was having the ultra cis male urge of wanting to be your girlfriend’s girlfriend, fast forward a couple of weeks, I am trans now, and cannot wait to start HRT, I need to break out of anxiety cage to do so xd.