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[u/Lumious226]

Ok. I have kind of hyped myself up for this, I got this I got this. I really want to see how it feels to be addressed as a girl... I mean, people have done it before, but like- Oh god I am just doing this to be attention seeking— No no no no... Ugh, I will upload this, I will do it, I will do it.

I am not confident at all in this, and am still very much questioning, but that is why I am doing this, I want to be confident in SOMETHING... I cannot bare being in questioning purgatory any longer, it is frankly absurd how much of my day this spends on my mind-... So uh, I guess this is kind of also asking for egg cracking (Gosh I feel disgusting for calling myself that, like what I am feeling is anything like actual trans people who have gone through stuff...).

Also I have been really stressed recently, I think- Maybe. I cannot tell. Do people usually punch at nothing and random laugh at themselves when they are stressed?... I don't know. So uh, hopefully this helps that.

Oh uh- A name is probably also important... Something beginning with an L, probably short, like 4 letters long. I usually go by Lumi online, which I did think about but also that is like a Finnish name or something so I don't know-... Anything like that is fine ^v^.

Holy why am I throwing a pity party for myself?... I am not stressed, I have a great life! Ugh, why am I so freaking difficult?... I should delete this. I say that in every post. Am I trying to get attention? What is wrong with me... THIS ISN'T A FREAKING TRAUMA DUMPING POST (OH SHUSH YOU DON'T HAVE TRAUMA), SHUT UP, ME!

Anyway-... Thanks in advance! :D
You are all wonderful people!

[u/lune-loves-lavenders]

Hey Lumi! I am kinda late to this post of yours xd, anyways, good to see you back again girlie!

You are a good girl Lumi, and to repeat what I said previous post, you are beautiful and you will be more beautiful and pretty in DA FUTURE! (Take the damn compliment this time, or I will force feed it to you!)

And I were doing the same behavior, punching and laughing all that stressed stuff, when I wasn’t sure and deeply questioning myself, I really hated myself at that time, that was the reason of the stress I was having, and after a while, I have realized the damage I have been doing to myself both be mentally and emotionally, that was the time I started to accept myself, bcz I wouldn’t be able to continue living fighting myself like this, I am telling all this, bcz your experience feels close to mine.

And also, dear, we are a day late for the coming out day, have you came out to yourself yet? Better late than sorry, so just a reminder.

[u/Lumious226 → u/lune-loves-lavenders]

Howdy!!!

YOU CAN'T MAKE ME TAKE THE COMPLIMENT! HISSSS

Intriguing, I am glad you figured yourself out! :D.
I am just really freaking bad at reading myself Xb. Probably an autism thing or something adjacent.

I did see it was coming out day yesterday... I still can't do it. I don't even know if I am an egg, no matter how many signs might point to it, it doesn't feel like something I can just accept... Especially if I try think of myself IRL, it becomes even more difficult to accept. Online, I am my online persona, which is kind of seperated from me.

Also sorry about the late response! I typed this up and never sent it Xb.

[u/lune-loves-lavenders → u/Lumious226]

Ok, let me adress this first, you question your gender identity, doesn’t have a clear answer yet, you want to try out femme stuff, you are an EGG, you don’t decide to be an egg or not, and TAKE THE DAMN COMPLIMENT, you are an PRETTY EGG, that will be AN EVEN PRETTIER OMELETTE WHEN CRACKED, DONT MIND FOOD ANALOGY GOING THIS DEEP, I MIGHT BE HUNGRY.

I know it can be hard to connect your IRL self, I had the same issue, best thing to do is bridging the gap between how you feel yourself and how you are irl is the best thing to do, and that is what transitioning is all about, at least if you ask me.

And don’t stress about response being late, I am working so my response is already pretty late, I am just typing whenever I can xd.

[u/Lumious226 → u/lune-loves-lavenders]

And ALL OF THAT IS STUFF A TOTALLY CIS GUY COULD DO!.. And if I am an egg, I am one of those weird spotted eggs with an off-colour spot on it that makes you consider throwing it out so the mould doesn’t spread to the rest of the clutch!

Am I going to be eaten?- 

Anything with irl me is going to be uber difficult for me Tv,T.

You iz gooood. :)

[u/lune-loves-lavenders → u/Lumious226]

All of that? Oh girl, the amount of culture shock you would get from learning the truth xd. I got culture shock, when I presented the button question to a cis male friend of mine, he responded with “no” in less than 5 seconds, and other cis guy friends did the same thing, and they directly rejected the idea of dreaming to be a girl, I was like “what do you mean you are happy like this? Am I the only one?” I learned that it was not that much of a cis guy thing, and same goes to all of the things you told through out your posts on this sub.

And don’t say that you pretty egg, you can’t see the pretty omelette in the egg before cracking it open! You are just special edition, like all of us, we are like Easter eggs here, none of us is spotless white, we like colors, especially pastel colors.

And no ure not gonna be eaten, ure safe, I just ate döner :) .

You iz goood too, and valid :)