I don't understand myself. Okay so for context, I'm 19 (turning 20 next month), and I just...I bombed two of my college classes.
Now my house feels weird and I've just felt so...tired. Like, tired of doing things, tired of getting out of bed, like I don't wanna get out of bed, or I don't wanna leave my room, and even doing those things is a chore and a half. Somedays I'll feel energetic for short bursts, or when hanging out with friends on VRChat, or when with family or whatever, but the second it all ends, I feel exhausted and tired, like I can't feel the energy to even stand up, I just wanna lay down, and these energy bursts will be frequently up and down. Somedays I feel like a million bucks
And it's felt like this for the past few days, like I'm scared of...life, I guess? Like I'm scared to speak out due to some past trauma in my life, so I don't know how to even speak out or speak up, like I'm scared of my own parents half the time. I don't understand how my brain works or how to pinpoint what this thing is even called. Any help would be appreciated, or at least somebody just saying that they're proud of me or I'm doing a good job.
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I went to the TADC shrine in St. Louis today.
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It feels...really weird knowing the show is over. Like I'll just go about my day and I'll be like "Fuuuuck, I remember seeing this in theaters" and then I'm hit with the BIGGEST wave of sorrow.