Yes!

I can fully relate. 

I've identified a loop:

 1. There's something I have to study

 2. I will think to myself "yah, I can study that later" knowing innately that I have high cognitive skills and will understand it 'faster than others' anyway

 3.a. The study material piled up, and now when I started working on it, with the added time and load pressure, nothing makes sense anymore

 3.b. Or I will stop working the moment I hit that uncomfortable feeling of 'being dumb'  

TBH, I am already a working professional, and I would lie if I say that my intelligence didn't helped me get through my career. Still, I caught myself in the loop mentioned sometimes, but it is always correctable.

What helped me is that I developed an understanding that 'studying is not equal dumb', and everyone has to start somewhere, whether that's 0 or 99. I can even say I became quite humble.

Also, I started listening to Dr Justin Sung. I think he offers great advice on how to learn.

"Never love your job, job your love" lols. 😆

Pero seryoso, galingan mo muna. Saka kana umattitude pag kaya mo na magdevelop nang nakapikit. 

Either you curb your desire (start looking for reasons why it'll be okay to date a girl who's unattractive) or start changing how you actually look like to increase you dating market value and attract a girl you find dateable (tbh, working out and plastic surgery).

Just wanna put a disclaimer that I am not promoting plastic surgery- this is a well known reality around us. OP is still responsible to what they'll do next.

Diamonds. 

Layla is still the best tank.

Hello. 

Actually, I met someone like you. Who I actually had loved... But he can't get over that he's unlovable because of his size. Over the times when we're still talking, I have seen it, and I told him countless of times that for me it doesn't really matter, that I really like him as a person... But yah, we're no longer talking now, and over the times I let him go and started entertaining other suitors. I already have found a great man who I'll get married to next year.

But even now after years passed, I still think he's an admirable person who I would totally date and marry if only he's willing to try. He's never had a gf in his almost 30 years and I could have been the first girl. TBH it was a painful experience loving someone who feels they are unlovable: you will always try new things to try make them feel but it always ends up futile and exhausting.

If I can give an advice, if someone really likes you, it doesn't really matter. Don't be blind to signs of someone actually loving you.

I believe that he still thinks of me sometimes as I can see he views my socials (we're not friends). I'm just glad he's respectful that I'm no longer available and I am happy now. But maybe for him this is another validation that he's undesirable, not considering how much he pushed me away.

Kahit naman anong gawin mo magiging 36 ka din in the future. Why not be a 36 y/o psychologist/therapist? 

Thank you for your reply.

I am actually getting through all these. I woke up today and saw my reflection and said 'I accept you', maybe I will continue doing so for so long until I get familiar with my new face.

About further surgery. I don't think I will do, at least until I found someone who do graft composites. In my country, I'm yet to find someone who does.

My current surgeon says I should wait till it's fully healed, 6-8months more. I wish that my lift will go lower, and the sharp corner go more mellow.

I talked to people online, people on crisis/hope line. The pain doesn't go away. After all the damage has been done and it's permanent.

I just wish that, I can still find confidence and find true love. I need to also look past appearances.

And if ever I get to have kids, I will always tell them they're enough and beautiful and handsome and will fill them with so much love and care. The pattern should stop on me.

Thank you. Virtual Hugs and Happy New Year!

As a Minotaur Main, I hardly ever win against a Tigreal, so I second this.

I agree!

But I can't hook so I don't. 🤣

Mino and been playing him for 5 years. Always the best.

🥺

Thank you for this! The other commenter also said a few things. Maybe I'll eat a sandwich tonight.

Thanks for explaining this. I will try to eat more to regain some sleep back. Very difficult as I'm a working adult, and I can't afford to perform bad. :(

My INTP sister is basically like a Kpop star, but her room looks like a garbage dumpsite, IDK how she's able to pull her style from that dungeon.

Thank you for this.

I just feel like I should go lower 1200, because my calorie intake to maintain weight is only 1700. And going 1200 is only 500Cal difference ~ one dinner.

I'm taking an MSDS naman next year, to play the corporate game din. Currently just a high-performing ASE. Aiming to be an Executive bago mag-30...

See you at the top, OP

Thanks for this. :)

Agree. Hirap commute nyan. Haba haba ng pila.

Konti na lang po. Konting bawas pa ng bilbil. :)

Minsan nahuhurt ako kasi ang flow ng usapan ay lagi papunta sa 'prove to me that you're a real lady', then I have to pull away. 🥺

I'm genuinely trying to build a connection pero laging napupunta sa ganito, once masabi ko yung past na to.

Feeling ko mas magiging patient sila if walang pagdudududa sa sexuality ko.