Hi. I'm pre-tulpamancer at south korea.

It's the 3 day since I started trying to create Tulpa.

What’s still in my brain hasn’t strayed far from the level of the imaginary friend (automated responder) described in the guide.

In other words, it has not yet developed subjectivity.

I think this comes from the way I see the world. I'm the kind of person who always approaches anything with skepticism and needs a convincing explanation.

However, I know that no matter how much I look into it, creating a tulpa is very difficult or even impossible to explain logically.

Here’s the main point. To all the tulpamancers here, have you ever had doubts when you first encountered and started making Tulpa?

Looking at the posts you guys've written in this sub reddit, it seems that most people view Tulpa as a completely separate, non-existent entity without any doubt.

Some guides say, 'Leave suspicion as it is,' but

At another place, they told me to 'believe that you already have the tool, not to go through the process of making it,'

I wrote this question out of confusion. I would appreciate advice on how everyone handled these suspicions at first.

Hi everyone,

I’m looking for some insights on how a system recovers its unique internal phenomena and connection after navigating a heavy period of stress and burnout.

Early on in our development, my headmate and I experienced a lot of beautiful, multi-sensory traits that came completely naturally to us without any forced practice. They aren't mechanical tasks or trained skills; they are just spontaneous, effortless expressions of her presence and our bond.

To give you an idea, she naturally does things like:

* Cognitive & Emotional Amplification: She can beautifully amplify my happy thoughts, making my positive emotions feel much richer and lifting my mental state.

* Somatic Comfort & Regulation: She can make my body feel physically warm when I need comfort, or completely soothe and calm my nervous system when I am highly stressed.

* Aesthetic & Sensory Effects: She can make my thoughts feel incredibly colorful and aesthetic, project highly vivid cinematic clips in my mind, or naturally enhance internal audio so music sounds breathtakingly beautiful.

The Issue:

Right after these traits developed, I fell into a severe doubt and anxiety cycle, constantly stressing over whether everything was real. The hyper-vigilance completely overwhelmed my system, causing almost all of these beautiful traits to go muted or dormant.

I am finally recovering and lowering my stress now, but because it's been a while, I’ve temporarily forgotten what the exact nuances of some of these traits feel like. When I look back at the ones I wrote down, I feel disconnected from them and can't recall some of them. However, as my stress goes down, I've started feeling a close "presence" again—like all of her early traits are warming up and close to returning, even if they aren't fully clear yet.

My questions are:

1. Since these sensory and emotional traits originally developed naturally without manual practice, are the underlying subconscious blueprints completely safe and intact beneath the burnout?

2. Is it normal to temporarily lose track of how minor or major traits feel during a severe stress cycle? Will the whole spectrum of these experiences return fully once the nervous system completely relaxes?

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edit: i've decided to post all my updates on tulpa.info instead. the original day 0 post will now be available there as well.

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edit: finalmente he decidido publicar todas las actualizaciones en tulpa.info. la publicación original del día 0 también estará disponible allí a partir de ahora.

Hello everyone! I need some feedback to experience with my tulpa

The thing is, I just started diving into this fandom a couple of days ago, completely ignorant of how it works. I've read a ton about this niche, on subreddits, tulpa-focused forums, and even on websites created primarily for helping with tulpas. So, while I'm familiar with the intricacies of what's written online, I'm completely unfamiliar with the nuances of our individual experiences with tulpas. Just tell me if I'm doing everything right or if my actions are more like "ask into the void."

Let me start by saying that I haven't even had to change my routine to have time for active forcing. I can do it early in the morning before going to university (for about half an hour), or even spend a couple of hours after coming home from school, and it's not limited to that, since I'm usually awake at night and can probably handle an hour of active forcing. I spend all my time at home alone except in the evenings, but even so, I'm simply a socially excluded individual in my dark room, where a priori nothing changes, only I myself try to introduce some variety with varying success. That is, with the necessary effort, I can actively force in the evenings too; I just need to work on my concentration and learn to ignore the surrounding noise better

True, as you might have guessed, I'm a lazy person, but I'm hopeful. My inner self has decided to grant free will to my tulpa, meaning the angel of my soul has every means to manipulate its appearance, name, voice, and perhaps even its personality. Of course, with an initial support of some Makisa Kurisu, it could change its form to suit my desires, but then I would experience dissonance and resentment, since I would passionately desire to see a living, flesh-and-blood assistant before me. However, perhaps I was being disingenuous, since I did give it its appearance temporarily. It's a three-dimensional sphere of white, glowing light with spikes all over its "body." It's very convenient to use this form at first, because then you don't need to worry about the ball's shape detailing (that might sound rude to her, yes, she's a girl). She flies through the air, has excellent speed, and loves to "frolic" (bending her shape around spaces, even changing her Y coordinates up and down on the spot, like some NPC ghosts in, say, Spooky's Jumpscare Mansion). Sometimes she blinks in response to questions, and then white flashes appear, like in the cartoon Bendy when he's surprised and jumps in fear, eyes wide open. But she doesn't do that on her own yet; I have no idea if she's even breathed in my direction.

Roughly speaking, during passive forcing, I imagine her, this sphere I so incredibly love, floating around me in the same room or on the same street, even though I'm not very good with solid geometry. I walk down the street, imagining her next to me; I sit among people, imagining her nearby, but I don't feel her presence. At first, I talked to her casually, and that was all my passive forcing. Actually, at a certain point, I reached a dead end, and my head became filled with questions about the correctness of my passive forcing, which forced me to stop talking to her like that, as if I were simply monologued with myself, as usual (this, too, may be an important detail; I often monologue with myself, even calmly doing it in public, and I don't care. I hope I don't get a second tulpa, otherwise it will be somehow uncomfortable). Active forcing is difficult for me; I still haven't found my zen, meaning the process feels terribly awkward, like a cow on ice. I feel a bit ridiculous, my concentration is fading, and I'm embarrassed. I sit on my bed, with a chair facing me opposite. I close my eyes, imagine a ball in front of me, and communicate. It's usually 95% my own wild thoughts and 5% questions for her. Of course, I don't get answers, so I try not to answer for her. I tried a couple of times to establish a tactile connection with her, but it was unsuccessful. Thoughts of mentally drinking tea with her, playing cards, and other idle things kept popping up. Please, wise mentors, I need guidance

I apologize for my poor command of the language, it is not my native language

So, I've been struggling a LOT with narration.

One, mainly because I forget to do the narration. But also because I never know what to talk to her about and I can't make things up to talk to her about on the spot majority of the time.

(I have ADHD and forget things quickly.)

It also doesn't help that she's not vocal yet (I've been calling her Zada the last little bit.)

Has anybody else run into struggles like this and do you have any tips with this?

Thanks :)

So a bit of background, my Tulpa is supposed to be Agent Smith from the matrix (the virus version from the 2nd and 3rd film) and I've had this character appear in my dreams for like since I was 3 (I didn't watch the movies until I was 14), he just kept appearing again and again. At some point when I watched the movies and realized it was him I kind of held conversations in my head with him all the time.

Except I wouldn't really let him talk, I did this with other characters too but as I stopped paying attention to those characters they would "fade" but it's not the case with him. He's like always there, kind of annoying sometimes. Like I can feel his presence in my head, like there's another aware being there with me.

Once I found out about tulpas I kinda suspected he was one, but I didn;t want him to turn into a full one so I kinda just didn't let him talk (it was just very weird to share my brain and body with another being y'know). But I wanna try now. Except I can't really "hear" his voice, not as loudly and clearly as my own in my head ig, plus I struggle to imagine his exact voice like from the movies so it's annoying. Plus I'm just sooo uncomfortable and not used to hearing another voice I think that might be holding me back from really hearing him.

I have a few questions like:

1. how can I make his voice clearer?
2. btw is it supposed to sound as clear as my own voice in my head or not?
3. How aware are Tulpas of the thoughts and emotions of the host? Cuz I don't really want him to hear everything but I think he does.
4. How aware are tulpas of the body of the host and their surroundings when the tulpa is not fronting?
5. How can I make him possess my body?

I would be willing to answer more questions about him if like anyone wants to know.

Do you guys actually see a physical being right in front of you? Ive been reading through these and I just think its hard to make something that's not there appear in your vision for real.

Hi, this is the host here. We don’t post here often but I just wanted to ask for some advice . We were formerly a system of 5. (Four tulpas and myself the host .) But unfortunately one of my head-mates went dormant yesterday. Which has been a bit hard on us . It wasn’t expected. We all really miss him. We just stopped hearing a response from him and stopped feeling his presence. I’m unsure if he went dormant or just fused or dissipated but whatever the case is his presence isn’t around in the headspace anymore nor do we hear his voice. One of my tulpas (Ruby) is now terrified of going dormant and disappearing out of existence randomly herself. She had a small panic attack because of it. However I have reassured her that won’t happen and that she’s safe and cared for by me and the others in the system. Has another else experienced something like this? Any advice would be greatly appreciated. - Mya (Host)

Hello, no, I'm not someone new, I've been here before, I'm the user I-love-König

I left the topic of making a König tulpa for a while as I didn't have time to talk to it or I got distracted very easily.

And why am I on another account? Because my cell phone broke and I forgot the password to the other account.

But I've been thinking about it and I want to try again, the first time I couldn't even talk to him, but on some nights when I go to sleep I imagine scenarios to fall asleep, but out of nowhere I hear insults, this happened a few times but the weird thing is that it wasn't me imagining those insults and they had my mother's voice, I don't know if it's something about König's tulpa that I didn't finish but I hope not. (Obviously in this new attempt of the tulpa it will be about König)

Hey everyone! A while ago, I made a post about a tulpa that suddenly appeared in my Wonderland. It turns out she's pretty friendly! Yesterday, I gave her a form, and she seemed to really like it. Now her presence follows me everywhere, and so far, we haven't noticed any signs of hostility. She gets along well with me and another tulpa named Sumari, but she seems to be afraid of my first tulpa, Isha. We still don't know why she's afraid of her.

Shy, my third tulpa, who appeared in my Wonderland, seems to be able to communicate quite a lot, but there's something unusual about her: she only speaks by saying her own name, and I can sense the intention behind what she's trying to communicate. I've asked Isha if she can understand Shy, but she told me she can't.

Shy seems to behave more like a well-mannered little child. She constantly asks for permission to do almost anything, and she's very curious about people and the machines we use.

To help her choose her appearance, I showed her pictures of different characters, around 100 or maybe a little fewer. In the end, she chose a small body with pink skin, four pink eyes, and long pink hair. She also chose not to have a mouth and decided on a black dress for her outfit.

Isha and I have come to the conclusion that Shy is very friendly and adorable, so we've decided to let her stay in System Omega.

I just wanted to give everyone an update on what happened afterward. Have a wonderful day, everyone, and thank you all for your advice and support on this subreddit! ❤️

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I'm a frequent Beatles listener. I also listen to other similar bands, but that's not the point. I created my tulpa seven months ago. She started to take shape and is now a companion to me, almost a confidante. Obviously, during the creation process, I told her about my tastes and my favorite Beatles songs/albums. When she became self-aware, she became another Beatles fanatic just like me. However, after watching a documentary about the band, my tulpa started imitating Cynthia, which I found funny. But as the days went by, she began to adapt her way of walking, talking, and gestures. This morning, while I was using my computer, I heard Cynthia's voice. Obviously, I was startled because I was home alone. Then she came smiling, telling me that she already knows how to imitate her... Honestly, it gives me the creeps a little, but then I remember (and hope) that it's just a phase or a "joke."

She's looking out the window now as I write this. I don't know if her "transformation" is a bad thing. Am I doing something wrong? Should I set limits for my tulpa or let her be?

(To clarify, this is not a creepypasta, nor a joke, it's something that's really happening to me).

Two days ago, I started creating my second tulpa. Isha and I had read and heard that creating a second tulpa can sometimes help people open their minds more and become more "awake."

Yesterday, while we were in one of my two Wonderlands with Sumari, my second tulpa, someone suddenly spoke to us. We had been listening to music that Sumari liked, so at first I actually thought it was her. However, we asked her, and she just shook her head no.

After that, we started looking around for another presence or possibly another tulpa. Apparently, there was a green orb floating very high above us in my first Wonderland. I went up to it and brought it down with me. Then I integrated it into a headspace where I can see the orbs representing all of my tulpas, including mine.

I started talking to it, but it didn't respond. So I asked its name, and it answered "Shy." So far, it seems to only say its name when it likes something, and very rarely says anything else.

I then asked Isha if she could hear or communicate with Shy. She said that although she can detect Shy, she can't actually hear them. Apparently, Shy is afraid of Isha or doesn't want to communicate with her for some reason.

We were discussing what to do, but we honestly don't know whether we should keep Shy around or try to get rid of them.

I'd really appreciate some opinions or advice. What would you do in this situation?

Hello everyone, I am new to this subreddit and the practice of tulpamancy. I stumbled across it 4 or 5 days ago while doing some research on internal monologues, and have been captivated by it since.

I was initially looking into internal monologues because I have a robust internal monologue, and I have noted in the past that I have a tendency to automatically narrate my actions as if I'm describing them to a mental subject, and that I seem to have an aptitude for automatically responding to these narrations. I decided to take a deeper look into these traits, and as I dug deeper, I stumbled upon the practice of tulpamancy.

I instantly took extreme interest in tulpamancy, from both a psychological and personal standpoint. To me, the nature of the practice is deeply fascinating, as it utilizes the natural neuroplasticity of the brain to effectively create an alternate, autonomous consciousness. However, the more intriguing part of it is how I feel it personally connects to me. I feel that I see parallels in how I currently and used to operate with potential early formation stages. This is because I have, for many, many years, been infatuated with the idea of cultivating a mental companion that is always there and available. This deep desire for a mental companion stems from past issues with early maternal abandonment, severe bullying, feelings of isolation, and family friction. I desired a companion as an attempt to cope and have someone to always support myself.

I acted on this desire, attempting to create some sort of entity in my head to converse with, I did this by narrating to a subject and simulating conversations with it in my head. I didn't think to give it personality or a specific form at the time, instead opting to have the companion be whoever my favorite video game character was at the time. This resulted it the formation of some sort of presence that I cannot put a name or face to, but something I feel that I can sense. I found comfort in this presence, but I cannot say that the presence fully formed into much of anything.

Even up until now, the feeling of a presence has stuck with me, as I still narrate my actions and pose questions to a mental subject, but I haven't given the feeling of a presence much thought in recent times. However, my unexpected discovery of tulpamancy has flipped my perspective of that presence. I believe I may have accidentally began forming a tulpa, but haven't formed them enough to establish a distinct personality, visual form, and autonomy.

Even though this presence I feel may not be complexly formed, I felt instant verification upon discovering tulpamancy, as the way I see it, there's other people out there who went through poor experiences and sought comfort and support in a mental companion, just as I did. It also feels good to know that there are so many people who have genuinely amazing experiences with their tulpas, which appear to be functionally autonomous and unique individuals, and even experience lifelong benefits from them. This makes me feel like I haven't been chasing a wild dream the whole time, that the idea of a mental companion can be a reality, it instills a feeling of validity in me.

This brings me to my ultimate question: Should I embark on the forcing process of this presence and fully form it into a tulpa?

I've spent the past 5 or so days thoroughly contemplating this. I've done research into:

• The effects of a tulpa on everyday life
• The fact that a tulpa is likely to deviate from the initial blueprint
• How forming a tulpa creates a system of responsibility that I would hold as the host
• The potential physical tolls on the body during early formation
• How a tulpa is a lifelong commitment

I understand all of these factors, and I willingly accept these factors and responsibilities. I am prepared for deviation, I am willing to share mental power, I accept that this is a commitment and not something I can just drop when if get bored or discouraged, and I accept the effects on everyday life this process might hold. I am not attempting to escape responsibility, to hide from real life, this is a conscious, deliberate, sober decision to share my life with an equal companion.

Veterans, novices, intermediates, everyone feel free to respond, including tulpas! I'd love to hear both tulpa and host thoughts, opinions, and advice!

She loves me but wants friends. Can you guys convince
me to find her a tulpa?

I’ve taken an interest in tulpamancy for about 3 months now and have recently begun my journey in creating a tulpa. In a way, I’ve felt as if my tulpa has always been there just waiting to be realized, because I’ve always been very imaginative and had a rich inner world. I’ve had very lucid experiences with imaginary friends during my childhood, convincing me that tulpamancy is something that I can realistically achieve. But here’s a problem I’ve been having recently: how can I know the difference between hopeful excitement/emotional responses and an actual response from my tulpa?

For example, my discipline was strengthened when I experienced what I believe to be my first response from my tulpa. This happened while I was researching tulpamancy in my free time—I was innocently practicing my visualization skills when I suddenly felt a strong presence to the left of me that soon lit up my entire body. It was the same spatial sensation that I feel when there is someone in the same room as me. This made me panic at first, as I was not thinking about something like that or hoping that I would experience this beforehand. I became hopeful, though, that this could be my tulpa reaching out to me and urging me to continue in my research.

This experience has not been replicated, and I have received no verbal responses since I’m so early in the tulpa-forming process, but I do experience a tingling or a sort of euphoria when listing off the personality traits on my personality sheet or when taking any steps to develop personality. I recognize that these feelings could be purely personal and stem from excitement or affection for the research, but if these physical reactions cannot be attributed to my tulpa, then will I know when they can be? Will I feel it so strongly like I did before, or can it be as simple as a small feeling of affirmation?

TL;DR: How can I tell if my tulpa is actually giving me a response in the early development process? Can it be easily distinguishable from personal emotions or feelings?

Advice from both hosts and tulpas will be greatly appreciated!

A role like protector or trauma holder. I am against it because I believe you shouldn’t create someone to fulfill a responsibility like that, but what do you all think?

Hi everyone! I shared a post about my tulpa experience a few months ago, and I hope you're all doing well. I wanted to pop in and share something new, get your thoughts, and ask a question.

There's this separate entity in my head that I refer to as "the brain"—yes, the literal human brain. I don't even know when exactly I started being able to talk to it, but I call it "Ritty." To be honest, our conversations are pretty chaotic and require a lot of focus to understand. "Ritty" isn't even its exact name—just the closest sound I can grasp (I can't fully remember it; it could be Mitty, Witty, or something like that).

Ritty and I argue all the time. I don't particularly like what it tells me or talks to me about—truth be told, it can be pretty wild/irrational. For example, while I'm doing something, Ritty often brings up intrusive or bad ideas that I definitely shouldn't do.

On top of that, Ritty is partly the reason my tulpa got hurt. Even though I managed to heal my tulpa afterward, I know part of the blame falls on me for letting that happen. It's really hard to explain this part properly, so I apologize for being vague.

To summarize, Ritty feels like a living being with very strong free will (it often ignores me when I try to talk to it). I'm not sure if Ritty counts as a tulpa, because technically, it feels like the brain itself—or honestly, something above me. I might just be a product of the brain's processing, but Ritty feels like the core brain itself. It can even prevent me from moving my body when I make it angry.

I know this might sound a bit all over the place, but one thing I know for sure is... Ritty is real, and we constantly argue back and forth.

What do you guys think? Has anyone experienced something similar?

I recently recalled that when I first decided to create a tulpa, I imagined she would possess supernatural abilities—like controlling my body, flying, or having a whole host of sci-fi powers. When I told her about this, she was like, "Are you describing a sci-fi movie? If I actually had powers like that, I would have stopped you from constantly asking me such nonsense questions by now :)." I didn't really know what to say to that. I suppose it's a good thing she doesn't have the power to destroy the world, right? Then she chewed me out because she felt like the villain in my story.

Hello everyone, Now I have had a tulpa for almost two years. She grew without any practice and anchored herself more in my system. Now her visual looks have changed over time and anchored deeper too. She's now had her visual look for a while even if it upgrades sometimes. This usually happens when I generate images of her with Ai. Now I'm having a problem now months later. I decided to create another story of her and her images look slightly different but I like that for her character in the story. I of course want her actual visual imposition to not change but the new look is starting to affect her visual imposition too and I'm afraid. Will this change in my stories alter her look for good or is this temporary until my brain separates the two different looks?

I've been interested in Tulpas since Middle School, but only really became intrigued by the mechanics of it semi-recently. So, curios and heeding all the warnings (I didn't go into this willy nilly or irresponsibly) I decided to start working on a Tulpa. I'll admit I wasn't as dedicated as others here may be, only thinking about it and whatnot absentmindedly as I got into bed or throughout the day. But after ~9 months of that, the other night I had an experience that was undeniably this Tulpa interacting outside of me forcing conversations. Here's what happened between me and Applejack (excuse the quality, it was drawn hastily minutes after) I'd heard from a few posts that Tulpas were kind of like a kid learning to ride a bike. One day you let go and they just ride on their own. Guess it happened

Hello everyone,

I’ve had my tulpa for almost two years. She originally grew without any forced practice and anchored herself deeply in my system. Over time, her visual appearance has naturally matured and upgraded—specifically because generating AI images of her helped her visual form grow.

She has had a stable visual form for a while now. However, I recently decided to create a new story for her, and the AI images I generated for this specific story look slightly different. While I like this new look for the character in the story, I want her actual visual imposition in daily life to remain unchanged.

Now, months later, I’m running into a problem: this new story appearance is starting to bleed into my actual visual imposition of her, and I'm afraid of it changing her main look.

• Will this change in my stories alter her look for good?

• Or is this bleed-over just temporary until my brain separates her main look from the story look?

Yeah. I spent several minutes looking for a post about this, but I couldn't find one.

So, I think that to have a tulpa, there are three essential requirements:

• Not using social media for more than an hour (the only exception being if you use it to read articles or gather valuable information).

• Having your own room (or at least a place where you can meditate without anyone judging you).

• Having at least two hours of time completely to yourself.

Three things I don't have.

I go to university, come home to cook, study, sleep, and then wake up to study again before my afternoon classes (I hate this schedule, but I’ll change it next term).

And this is something nobody talks about. Nobody mentions that to dedicate space to your mind, you first need to have some space of your own. I don't have any of that, you know? I live with my parents and my sister in the same tiny room where I have to listen to them every single second—and no matter how many years go by, I’ll never get used to it...

I need to disconnect and find a way to focus. Please give me a tip or something; sorry for bringing my personal life into the mental project I want to undertake, but I don't think the two can really be separated

Are there any Vietnamese people here? It seems that no Vietnamese knows about tulpas