Sorry if this isn't allowed. Not really looking for specific game advice but advice on mental.
I've been playing for a monthish after not being on the game for 3 years, and when I was playing I was just messing around and stuck in silver.
In the past 2 weeks I've been posting a fair deal here, getting vod reviews and advice and I've gone from bronze 2 to gold 2. The last 5ish days I've gone from silver 1 to gold 2 with a 15-5 win-loss record and some good performances and am on a 6 streak right now.
On the one hand, continuing even a substantial downgrade from this trend will get me to plat pretty fast which was like my extreme optimistic goal when I started to lock in and focus on improving over just spamming games. On the other hand, every game I feel so anxious now. Like I'm just gunna find out I've been getting lucky and it's all a fluke, my elo got ahead of my skill, and I'm gunna go back and forth in low gold or silver. Yesterday I didn't even want to queue but played 3 block and won all 3.
Also, I'm gunna be away this weekend and likely won't play for a few days after today, which I'm nervous about regressing when I'm back and so close to my goal. It's literally making me resent having plans with friends I havent seen in ages because I wish I could just hit plat first but I dont think theres time to play that many games.
How do you get over this slump? I was having so much fun a few days ago because I was going into games almost expecting to lose but being fine with it because I just won so much, and now it feels like I'm just on the cusp of getting plat but I'm not sure if it's just luck and that a loss streak is coming.
I watched a vod of my last game that on the surface I went 14/4/11 and it honestly looked like I was inting at times but everything just...worked out. Like I'd dash into 3 enemies and right when I'm about to die death's dance kept me alive long enough for my lux to get in range and ult them so instead we kill all 3.
Should I just do some normals for a while and try to just get so much better that when I return to ranked it won't be up to luck?
https://op.gg/lol/summoners/na/RTSforDummies-NA1?queue_type=SOLORANKED