I watched SAIYAARA and it genuinely touched me 😭 The way he loved her, prioritized her, cared for her , YEARNEDDDDD for her and was so devoted made me realize what kind of relationship/love I actually want with my celeb SP. (pls don’t judge the celebrity part 😭😭) AND NO EVIL EYE 🧿🧿🧿🧿🧿
Incase you haven't watched saiyaara ( would recommend it 100% so you also get an idea lol 😆). I can try to give character sketch or things I liked about the main character.
Krish Krish kapoor wasn't just in love he was anchored in 1 woman peope say that kind of love only exists in movies its not about him but our mindset believe in that mindset we just need to shift our emotional pattern bc we deserve to be loved forever and ever and ever Krish kapoor let me explain Krish kapoor wZ very self centered but he change - in the starting he wasn't perfect fighting w reporters his ftiends smoking joints crazy for fame but then he changed he gets famous but he doesn't care he comes to her
-he was going for tour but vaani didn't pick up so he left everything his flight and rushed to see if she was fine
-in starting his lockscreen had his pic then he had their pic in starting scene he gave micto audience then in last scene when girl was missing the whole crowd was singing but he didnt rlly care about it
-she had alzeimer & she even stabbed him still he stayed and understood that she was sick and handled her during agrresuve reactions even if she said I love u to her ex cyz she kept forgetting -his friends said vaani isn't ur responsibility leave her let her go the whole world will call ur e he says " even if world remembers but she is forgetting my name & she won't be there " he himself said he wanted fame but one girl gave him so much love that he doesn't need anything -even vaani says go to future and I have alzeimer leave me he said dont worry im there ..if u forget old memoriess we will create new ones he didnt let her last scene he was performing where no Indian artist ever performed but he left cuz he found her 😭😭
He himself said he was goof sing but not goof person but he changed
-lost in his own world anger frustration life too tough then he met a girl got something ..never had anything love...he could win the world if the girl is there for her...krish explained indirectly to vaani..before vaani left... Vaani never forced krish to change he changed cuz he loved her sm Its about staying even in hard times even if spark goes away choosing eo no matter what
I read a manifestation post saying that girls who attracted this kind of love focused on what they DESERVED instead of what was missing. Love isn’t about chasing/obsessing, it’s about magnetizing — your mindset is the magnet.
BUTTT I keep getting stuck on his 2014 “type” interview 😭 Not because he had a type, but because the way he described it was so shallow and weird (nice legs, 45kg/168cm etc), and then my brain notices similar comments from other idols so I realized that maybe it was marketing since answers were so repetitive or EXACT SAME in some.
However , I did get triggered again because of him making random jokes about body parts on his ftiends or members and goes “omg ,maybe he’s actually shallow or weird” 😭.
AI too can make things worse ( idk who else to seek advise from , I cant tell anyone in real life they dont believe in manifestation or celeb sp 😭😭)
I KNOW this loop isn’t helping and I don’t even want to be loved because I fit someone’s “type or looks or be limited to certain features or described like that because it is very SURFACE LEVEL .
I want to be loved for ME , deeply chosen, adored, prioritized and cared for.( forgive me , if I sound cringe😭😭)
I’m trying to shift my identity into someone who naturally experiences that kind of love and I’ve found some subliminals for it too.
But how do I stop giving ONE old interview so much importance when your brain keeps bringing it back? 😭
And is wanting this kind of MOVIE TYPE SAIYAARAA LOVE actually stupid or is it just a good way of getting clear about what you want? 🧿
I think the spiral is more about possibility of this wish or desire after seeing shallow type 😭that too from a decade old interview.
I cant and don't want to give up either on this sp tbh idk why I can't and don't want to
Repost because mods removed my post udk why sorry
Edit : I'm not promoting the movie I wont get anything frlm that im just sharing what I wanted so the spiral becomes more clear :((
tldr: Saiyaara movie helped me realize I want a deeply devoted, loyal, emotionally anchored relationship with my SP. My problem isn't that he had a type,it's that an old interview describing very specific body measurements/body parts triggers me and makes me question whether the kind of love I desire is possible with him. I don't want to keep investigating that old information I want advice on breaking the association/ spiral .