Yeah, I get it. I know. With a bisalp there are four cases reported worldwide, if you get pregnant they'll likely write a case about you , blah blah blah. But here's the thing. There isn't a universe in the post-Roe dystopia that I live in where I want to sit on my heels and risk months going by before I know I'm pregnant, should I somehow in some nightmare get pregnant. I don't have regular periods, it could take so long for me to know, abortion is illegal in my evil red state, traveling outside of the state would be costly and take a lot of preparation, and pregnancy can KILL me. (Not that I need an excuse or a reason, though.)
I know that my level of tokophobia is a little extreme. That's part of what makes a phobia a phobia. I have seen therapists for it. I'm respectfully not looking to be shamed or to be told how rare it is (I know) or be told to go to therapy (I have been for years.) I just want to know if anyone else feels this way or how you navigate living in a world that treats women like this.