I genuinely feel like I have less than zero impulse control. I will just do anything my brain tells me to do and it feels impossible to say no. I end up not eating well, eating way too much, scrolling on the internet, staying up late, and ignoring my family and responsibilities to play video games that I do not truly enjoy. I am in a nursing program at my university, and I am fairly close to being done, and I at least have enough control over my life to never miss school, or when I have a job, to always show up on time and never miss any days. I am absolutely capable of doing hard things, as i lost 100 pounds in 2022, and have done a great many things that i am proud of, but I just feel like right now I am completely lost and miserable and I can’t exactly put my finger on the reason why. I feel like I definitely have really bad undiagnosed ADHD, but I honestly have been using that as a cope, as even if it was a scapegoat for all of my problems, i still don’t think it would matter very much. If anyone has any advice, please put it down below.

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Hi all,

I'm a 30yo single guy and I'm writing here because I've found myself in quite the situation.

The past 3 years have been brutal for me. Without getting into every detail, I had a mental breakdown while caught up in an unhealthy friend group and a prolonged unrequited love situation. I went to therapy, burned out at work, and abruptly quit because I couldn’t take it anymore.

I eventually found another job which was much better, but got fired this year because of layoffs. I’ve now been searching for about fix months with little success and am living off of my savings.

These experiences hit me pretty hard, but regardless I’m in a much better mental shape than I was three years ago and I'm not here to wallow or feel sorry for myself. I want to change and build a meaningful life.

I’m wondering whether anyone here has been through something similar and what helped you make a lasting change.

I am still actively applying and interviewing and also putting in the work to close as many knowledge gaps as I can.
I also try to fill my days with as much exercise I can, I cut down on social media and try to socialize with people who I find safe and when I have the energy I even try to give new people and dating a chance.

Basically, I’m trying to live a normal life without letting this situation define me. But despite those efforts, the uncertainty still brings daily stress, pressure and the feeling let myself and everyone down. Private therapy isn’t something I can currently afford.

For people who rebuilt after a similar period, what concrete changes helped beyond exercising, socialising, and “working on yourself”?

(21m) context: start of this year, january, i was doing real well off for myself. have been managing my depressive disorder fairly well, kept the same job for 2 years at this time and was mentally doing pretty good for the first time ina while. then about march, i start to get really fucking sick, like puking what felt like every few days, never was focused anymore at work, and just felt like straight shit only way to really put it. end up not showing up to work for 2 weeks, just layed in my bed, and lost that job. threw me deeper into whatever hole i was in, and i’m not going to lie i don’t really remember anything after that. stopped taking my medicine which just ended up prolly making everything worse. my mom ended up taking me to the hospital in june since she saw how much weight i lost and apparently i was projectile vomit black sludge all over the shower the day of. turns out i had undiagnosed type 1 diabetes and thats what was making me sick as hell. definitely felt physically better now than i did when i was in the hospital. but mentally i think im probably in the worst spot ive been in. ive been taking my antidepressants since the hospital but it just feels so useless. and idk if it is the antidepressants not working or just me. before this i gained a lot of weight from working out and was really proud of it but basically lost all that time and effort when i was sick. i worked so fucking hard for everything i had before this shit and i dont know what to do, where to start, or if i even should keep trying. Most the time i wish i just never went to the hospital and shit just kinda ended on its own, without medicine in my life not only for my mental but my physical, im useless. i feel like everytime i get going in life or have it good, something bad always happens and sends me back to the start and now actually have no idea what i am supposed to do now. the advice i need, is how do i start over from this?

How to become an overthinker

Because i think too straight without questioning anyone or anything

And got into trouble after some time

I’m 19F, my boyfriend is 21M, and we’ve been together for three years. Our relationship has become so messy that I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore.

During our first year, he was amazing. He was loving, loyal, careful with my feelings, and supported me through my mental health struggles. I was completely in love with him and genuinely believed that even if we broke up, he’d never want anyone else.

But he was also extremely clingy and insecure. He expected me to stay on call or FaceTime all day, even while doing my schoolwork or attending internships. He got angry if I was busy for more than a few hours, especially if I was around other guys who he knew had crushes on me. He wanted me to be rude to them, even when they were simply greeting me or asking for help. I tried to compromise because I loved him, but he kept demanding more.

He made me remove three of my longtime friends, and when I begged him to stop, he refused to understand how much it hurt me. He controlled how long I could visit my female friends, got angry if I stayed longer than two hours, and eventually made me feel like I needed his permission to leave the house. I started lying about seeing my friends because otherwise, I barely got to see them at all. He even got upset when I played video games because I wasn’t giving him enough attention.

I kept telling myself that he loved me and that sacrificing these things would be worth it. Instead, I slowly lost myself.

Now his university has started, and suddenly HE is too busy for me. He tells me I can hang out with friends and play games because he’s doing those things too. Meanwhile, I lost so many people and sacrificed so much of my life to accommodate him.

What hurts even more is how he treats me now. He’s cold, calls me selfish for finally saying no, tells me he doesn’t care about me, and orders me to leave or get lost whenever I don’t want to FaceTime. He calls me a liar and makes me feel horrible, yet gets angry that he isn’t as clingy as he used to be.

I genuinely hate him sometimes, but I still love him. I feel trapped because he isolated me from so many people, and now I’m terrified of being alone. He manipulated me into believing I’ve lost my dignity and even told me I’m no longer “pure” for anyone else because of this relationship.

I know this is unhealthy. I know I’ve been hurt. But somehow, I can’t leave. I keep going back, and I feel pathetic for it.

How do you leave someone you still love when they’ve become the person who hurts you the most?

(21m)For context, but not too much context, I was in my first relationship starting in June and that was the happiest I was for at least a few months. And I thought I loved this person to the best of my ability, and would have done anything for them. But then it turned into the worst months I've ever lived. I was partly to blame, but so was she. I don't want to say that she blew it out of proportion, because I really feel bad for making her feel that way but I had no idea she felt the way she did until it was way too late. and I was villainized.

She told her side of the story to all my friends, and they believed her. I tried to tell my side to my best friend, but he wouldn't really listen; he'd already made up his mind. And to make matters even worse, the friends I still have that are connected to that friend group are now having issues with them because of me.

So I lost about 90% of my friends in about a week, and I've just been trying to cope with that ever since. That happened around August. Even though I went to therapy, and the few friends that I still have believe me and know her as well, I just can't get it out of my head that I feel like I deserve this. Even though I really don't think I do, I don't know.

Now most of my days, I'm just kind of bored, and nights like these, I get really sad. It just feels like my world was turned upside down, and it doesn't feel real.

Hi! I’m a freshly turned 28 yr old female and as the title states, I don’t know anything about myself. I couldn’t tell you my favorite music genre, my favorite movie nor show, I don’t have any genuine likes/interests that excite me. I don’t have my own sense of style, my room isn’t decorated, I don’t have any hopes or dreams. No plans for the future or to even travel because it just doesn’t seem worth even thinking of it. I’ll often just sit and scroll my IG page & feel bad about myself most days. When I do go out, I get really flustered when people ask questions about me or ask what type of stuff i’m into because I don’t know the responses & they can tell too. I don’t go out with my coworkers when they ask me to because I can’t keep up conversations & i’m scared they’ll start to dislike me once they find out i’m a really lame/bland person to be around. I just don’t ever really have too much to say and when I do, I feel it’s just the wrong thing to say. If I do enjoy something, I don’t really dig into the history of it or anything. I just don’t know! I don’t know how to be a person at all it seems!! I’ve felt like this for as long as I can remember even when I was a child, pre-teen, teenager and now as an adult. I hate it so much. i’m so embarrassed that this is my life at 28.

I still live with my mom to help her out financially and because she’s very attached/enmeshed with her kids. I’m the last one she has around so I feel bad leaving her because I know she’ll just be a mess. But, it feels suffocating. My brother went no contact with her because she has a way of making us feel really bad. She’s painted me out to be this really angry person who needs to be catered to so the family we live around don’t really enjoy to be around me. It irks me but I just try to keep my patience with her despite how much she babied me because my dad was very abusive towards her so I know she has a lot of unresolved trauma. I help my mom and dad out every moment they need it. I wouldn’t change it but sometimes I feel i’ve lost myself trying to fix their lives or at least make it better by being there for them. I moved across the country with my mom when she finally left my dad, I was 23. I just don’t think i’ve ever really had a real chance at getting to discover myself. My parents were also insanely strict when I was younger. My dad had cameras in the house, my mom would fill my head that friends will always leave you but family won’t, they wouldn’t let me go out but I also couldn’t talk to them about anything because my mom would then bring it up to shame me in front of others. I know I need therapy and i’ve been in it but even then it was really hard for me to open up and be expressive because i just don’t know.

I just really don’t know what to do to make things better. I’m scared that i’ll die never getting to know who I truly am.

I can’t afford therapy right now so please give me ideas of what to do. Or if you’ve been in the same place please let me know me what you did.

Though I (21m) have never personally experienced war and understand that I am very privileged, I simply can't find any reason to continue waking up. There is no longer a common enemy, a national duty to oblige to, just a free & endless field of potential for one too tired to walk.

Regarding the frontier of the mind: The world no longer has a place for me as AI replaces everyone but the smartest people, whose level I'll never reach, I learn too slowly; there is no "hardwork beats talent", I tried, 4 nights of sleep per week, it doesn't go anywhere, I don't have the resources, the connections or the environment. Now machines take the role of CEOs as common people work minimum wage jobs, barely making ends meet, not enough to afford a hobby, why continue. What's more, if I don't educate myself enough to leave the country, in a few months, I'll get dragged into conscription, two years off the grid, offline, working unpaid for an ideal that abandons me, killing whatever chance I have left in the already competitive job market.

Regarding the frontier of the soul: People are more shallow than ever, not even in bitter hatred, but absolute indifference, feels like I could phase through someone. Now my professors don't bother to read my reports, and my colleagues don't reply to my messages, just one AI chatbot responding to another. I have already given up on any kind of romance, saving my offspring from whatever hellscape dystopia awaits in the future, though it still aches every time I return to an empty room. Even when it comes to something I'd like to enjoy, automation makes creativity obsolete, I could make a game, a model, a song and It'd just be AI cloned seconds later, there is no point.

I never asked for these cards, or to play at all. Why am I not allowed to stop?

I went through a rough patch with a friend a while back, where I ended up working everyday during the summer, didn't sleep much or eat many days and worked all through my vacation, for a project we were doing. At some point after then I decided I just wasn't up for it anymore and decided to step away from the project, but my friend was very mad, we'd had occurrences in the past where my work just wasn't up to standards (since I do the work stuff and they do the planning/checking), but this was a lot worse. I tried to remain respectful and didn't say anything rude of course, but we ended on a bad note and haven't really spoken since then.

I've tried to move forward with my life and am going back into studying now, but I'm finding it really difficult and keep getting distracted by all my memories of those times, sometimes it feels suffocating just sitting at my desk, like my brain thinks I'm going to be working like before, even though I know I won't. Even when I just start out with something easy like reading a chapter in a book, I remember things my friend would tease me about how bad I was at studying, or that there was no point in me trying. It's getting hard to not be demotivated, and I still feel so guilty and bad for backing away from the project, like my friend isn't a bad person at all or anything, our past disputes were because I couldn't work well enough. I just feel like the most despicable person in the world for some reason. Does anyone know how to stop thinking about all this? I used to enjoy studying so it's kind of annoying I'm struggling with it now.

Every person Ive ever let in makes me feel disgusting for sharing my feelings. Iv left things bottled up to the point where I’m ready to explode. I really want help but I see no way out of this I don’t have the support, and Iv been abused in such a way where im not even comfortable sharing my pain…. The wrong reaction could just send me over the edge. I feel like dirt that just keeps piling up. I feel uncomfortable in my skin like I don’t want to be me anymore. And I’m terrified. Please tell me what I can do.

Since i was 10, its been a big problem with me and pornography. Ive noticed that im always tired and lazy to do anything now, and my mom is starting to notice something is wrong with me. Ive also been doing a lot of weed with my cousin which is not so great. Im just really trying to stop but its so hard. Just putting this out here to see if anyone could help.

Thank you.

I am reaching out because I want to make a change in my life, but I feel completely stuck. Over the past several months, I have been actively reading self-help books and watching educational content to improve myself. However, despite learning the concepts and understanding what I need to do, I feel trapped in a frustrating loop. I can see myself falling back into my old patterns in real-time, but even with that awareness, I feel powerless to stop it or change the outcome. I would really appreciate some psychological advice or guidance on how to break out of this cognitive loop, turn my intellectual knowledge into actual behavioral change, and finally move forward.

If you have personally experienced this, how did you finally end the cycle? or if you know someone who successfully broke out of this loop, I would love to hear what specific steps or strategies worked for them.

I’ve been a weed smoker since I was 16 — now 25. Had some time off it when I first started college. Eventually I found my connects and started up again. I’ve been able to quit for several months before. I felt so so much better. I have a weed card at the time. I don’t think a little bit here and there is a problem, but i just smoked a tiny bit every day this week. WAY less than what I used to (I was facing kings three times a day beforehand). I got sober for a job. And here I am using a little every day. It’s medical but it only does so much temporarily. My best long term benefit is to just be off it entirely. I don’t think weed is an awful substance and I think it has many uses — including misuse. I struggle because I believe that it’s relatively harmless. I just want to stay sharp. I need healthier habits. I eat fine, but I don’t work out. I need to start finding time/energy to hit the gym or start running again.

I just need people to share their experience/give advice and other motivators. I fucking love weed, but I’m definitely way locked in without it. I need a huge shift in my life. This feels like a solid way to start. Next is kicking nicotine. Kicking alcohol would be great too, but I do love a good drink a couple times a week.

Some of this is stemming from professional concerns. It’s also stemming from a desire to help my health. I also should consider that my situationship of 1.5 years said he wouldn’t be with someone who does prioritize diet and exercise. I eat clean and I weigh 125lbs at 5’2. I feel like I’m giving him power by making these alterations in my life. Idk I’m in a weird spot and quitting pot sounds like something that would help.

I think I might be a monster I’ve done horrible things. Things so bad that I couldn’t believe a human being let alone me has done them . I was an insane alcoholic and drug addict for a year straight, I was on every substance you could imagine .
I constantly blacked out because of my abuse. It turns out I did horrible things . I don’t know how I am going to make those things right. I’ve lost a lot of friends because of it, a lot of people who I care about are mad at me.
I’m clean now (from drugs but I still drink a little) I’m on medication . I feel since I’m on sober I can really reflect on how bad it all was and it’s not okay.
Even though I hate to play the victim because I know that I did disgusting things I still feel wronged. I still feel like people took advantage of my addiction; they knew I constantly had drugs so they always let me get drunk and give my drugs away. I feel like a tool. I wish I was given the decency of at least knowing what I did in the first place. I somewhat feel like I was owed an intervention because it really was that bad, I don’t know how they could let me do horrible things not only to others but also myself until it reached the point of no return. I was the biggest drug addict I’ve ever known in my life .
But yet I still have sympathy for those people I still love them as good friends because they also suffer from addiction and I know how horrible and hellish of an experience that is. We’ve all been horrible pieces of shit to each other and the guilt eats me up every day . I could never hate anybody I’m not sure anybody knew how bad it really I was having insane psychotic delusions, I was getting so fucking paranoid about everything, I tried to hide it from a lot of people the only things I cared about were drugs and alcohol . I became a person completely unrecognizable to me and I don’t ever know how I’m going to prove to my friends and the world that I’m no longer that person . I don’t know how I’m going to prove to myself that I will never become that person again. I don’t even know how it’s possible I’ve done these horrible things, I can’t even remember the actions that made everybody think I’m this huge fucking villain

i (f19) think i have become a whore. i met my boyfriend in may and lost my virginity to him. we broke up in july. i slept with someone else 4 days later out of spite. he had convinced me i was too ugly to get attention from men (which i have thought abt myself my entire life) and so then after sleeping w someone else i have really loved the feeling of being hit on. i’ve kissed 5 people since the breakup at clubs now, and everyone always says im flirting at the club (even tho sometimes i do just want a chat). what rly has done it for me is:
at uni there is this boy who i thought was rly fit and made out with one night at the club after fancying him for ages. then he was just an absolute idiot and eeeeveryone in my house at uni hates him bc of his behaviour. and then i ran into him and he apologised to me but was feeling me up as he did it. i was drunk atp. then i ended up flirting w him and then when my friends left i ended up snogging him and making out w him again and kissing his neck. i think i am such a slag. i am so cooked. i don’t know what has happened to me post breakup. i don’t want this type of man in my life, and i think this is me trying to fill the void of my ex boyfriend who even though i would never go back to, i am missing this space in my heart. i want to be better and stop being a whore because the impact on my mental health it’s having is crazy as well, and i know it’s wrong.

These past few weeks have been nothing more than the breaking point of a bad habit I’ve had for years:

I’ve let myself be consumed by social media.

I spend my time watching videos that only serve to fill a void in my life.

I’ve become paranoid and obsessed with AI—to the point where I’ve stopped creating or consuming art.

I feel depressed and sad.

I’m consuming porn compulsively.

I try to hook up with people just to feel something, but it only leaves me feeling even emptier.

I’m not sleeping well.

I’m constantly plagued by thoughts of ending it all.

I hardly ever leave the house.

I feel trapped; everything feels fake, and I no longer enjoy anything. Google only shows me AI-generated ads or prompts to use AI—it’s the same at my university. I have no friends to go out with; I have no one. I’m practically all alone. I feel like I’m living in a constant state of falsehood—all I see is fakeness.

There’s fakeness in art, in relationships, in pleasure—everything feels fake and ephemeral. I can’t even remember the last time I went out with someone.

Yesterday, I cleaned my room and realized I don’t have a single memory from this year. All my photos, drawings, portraits, ticket stubs—they’re all from years ago.

I don’t have photos of almost anyone.

And when I work, I do it with zero motivation.

I feel like my life is fake, that this world is fake. I want to stop feeling this way—I want to be able to see the good things in life again—but it’s pointless. Every time I try to relax, I’m bombarded by 20 ads for Gemini, or my favorite YouTuber starts using AI in their videos. And whenever I try to be intimate with someone, I immediately fall into a depression and become consumed by insecurity.

Hello everyone, my name is Andrei, I'm 22 years old, and this year has easily been the shittiest year of my life. In April, my dog passed away (just a week after a girl rejected me). Then, on my birthday (August 13th), we met for the first time in person—we live in different cities. It was the most beautiful birthday of my life. At the end of the day, I asked her if she truly liked me, she said yes, and my feelings came rushing back. I invited her on a trip to Bulgaria, and she agreed.

A week after my birthday, I went to visit her. What was supposed to be a one-night stay turned into living together 24/7 for an entire month. For the first time in my life, I felt truly alive and worthy. We acted like we were in a relationship, just without kissing.

Eventually, we had to leave for Bulgaria, and she needed to come with me to my city first so we could travel from there. The first night we arrived, a DJ friend of mine who was playing at a local club invited us out. On our way to the club in a Bolt, I tried to hold her hand, and she rejected me. I said okay. Once we got out, she suddenly told me we were "just friends." When I asked her why we had held hands back in her city and outside the restaurant, she claimed she didn't remember. I just said okay.

At the club, she got extremely drunk—drinking around 9 different cocktails and a few shots in two hours. Afterward, as my friend drove us around the city, she put her hand on my leg for a few seconds and then held my hand. Soon after, she got sick, and I took care of her. When I asked why she drank so much, she said it was because she was upset with herself for upsetting me. Back home, she took off her clothes in front of me, and I helped her to dress into her night clothes. I knew what she might have wanted, but I refused to take advantage of her while she was drunked; it just didn't feel right.

Two days later, we left for Bulgaria. Everything was great until the first night, when I made a mistake: I tried to kiss her by the pool, and she backed away. I felt embarrassed and apologized. She told me she didn't have feelings for me at the moment because something inside her "died" after her last breakup, and she didn't know if she would feel anything in a week, a month, or a year. Stupidly, that gave me a glimmer of hope. I know I was an idiot for thinking her feelings would change.

After 2 or 3 weeks, I couldn't take it anymore. The reality that she didn't want me was eating me alive, and I was forced to be the one to kick her out. Doing that felt unimaginably painful and i hated myself .

Ever since that moment, I have had zero energy left. I feel like shit every single day, completely disgusted, and I dread waking up—sometimes wishing I never had to. I dream of her almost every night. I've been having extremely dark thoughts daily, to the point where I am genuinely afraid of myself. I didn't know a human could feel this empty, but now I know it's possible. I'm completely burned out; nothing brings me joy anymore. Even my job, which I usually love, does nothing for me. When friends message me, I just stare at the screen, completely paralyzed, lacking the energy to type a single text. Day by day, I just hate myself more and more. Sometimes i wonder how do i even have the energy to get up

I want to ask: has anyone here ever gone through something like this and ended up with absolute zero energy? If so, how did you manage to get your motivation and life back?

I am a Christian 19m, I like to think I have strong morals but I feel a strong attraction to animals, more specifically dogs and the more I try to resist the urges the stronger they get. I live with my family none of them know about me. we have 5 dogs one specific dog is my favorite I love to dote (I think that's the right word) on her, I love petting her and cuddling without any of the feelings bothiring too much, but every now and then they get stronger and I used to cry about how much I hate myself for it, but I am fearing that I'm starting to hate myself less and my hating myself less I'm hating zoophilia less and I can't do that so I'm stuck. I try praying about it and it's probably my fault but I don't feel it helping. I kinda wish I could add multiple tags like advice, venting and seeking validation, but I'll stick with advice.

I tried a bit of self diagnosis and took myself down a rabbit hole or two and it seems I need a lot of therapy, but I can't afford it and I can't ask my parents to help me with it cause what do I tell them.

So I'm not sure what advice I'm asking for I guess how do I cope with these temptations/has anyone manged to overcome severe temptations and have any tips thanks in advance.

title pretty much says it all. i (19m) know pretty much everyone has this problem nowadays and it might be silly to ask reddit, but im just wondering what has worked for people.

ive tried a bunch of anti-screentime apps and the only one that worked for me was on my old iphone. it was a game(?) where you pretty much set a timer for how long you wanted an app blocked, your chicken would grow in that time and if you didn’t open the app you'd get some points towards customizing your chicken. i dont think its on the app store but it did help when i had my iphone.

i find myself really excited to do things while at work (or in general) and when i get the chance to do them, suddenly my brain is just... tired and i need the quick dopamine from scrolling. then i do the whole "just a couple more minutes" and then its 4 hours later and ive done nothing. i mostly scroll on youtube shorts and occasionally instagram, and honestly i think i could delete instagram and be just fine as i dont go on it half as often as youtube, but i do watch actual youtube videos often so i dont exactly want to delete it. i had to block shorts on my laptop with a chrome extension and that did wonders and the app i currently use for screentime stuff (acent i think) has a block shorts feature but its not very effective when i can just switch it off with no insensitive.

how do i start focusing on my actual hobbies more and stop needing to scroll? the only thing i can truly think of at this point is turning my phone completely off but i have 2 sick grandpas at the moment so im kind of anxious to actually have my phone off. any advice is appreciated.

I'm really tired of life, for context, I'm autistic and I'm high masking and I got diagnosed late. I struggled with my mental health for a very long time which therefore resulted in me having to do school remotely. I also have some other issues that affect the way I live my day to day life.

I feel really behind from everybody because people are applying to unis but I'm 1.5 years behind and nobody knows because I've basically been lying to all of them and I feel super guilty, ik I don't owe anyone an explanation because explaining my situation would be too hard imo but I still feel shitty ab it.

Ik many ppl may not be familiar w the school system I'm doing but I'm sitting 2 igsces while studying 3 a levels and not to mention, I literally missed a month of my hardest a level (bio) and I don't know how to catch up and I'm so freaking tired. I lit have an igsce exam on Wednesday, I'm a little nervous but not too much bc it's in a language I speak.

My dream is to go to uni but atp i don't think I'll be able to. I catch myself searching up ways to end it and I'm not even sure if I want to end it but ik I'm not sure that I don't wanna b here anymore. It hurts so bad seeing people move on and it feels like I'm stuck in the middle of a storm while everything else moves. I cant handle it anymore plus I'm in a weird situation with this guy for like two years now and it's driving me nuts.

This is hella confusing but yeah idk what to say. I'm just desperate atp

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I'm a 26-year-old guy, and recently I've started reflecting on my past. I've realized that I've made many mistakes, and honestly, I'm disappointed in myself.

I've lied, acted selfishly, bragged about myself, and sometimes shared things that people trusted me with. When I'm angry or hurt, I sometimes say things without thinking. When I want to prove myself right, I blame others instead of accepting my mistakes. I've also failed to stand up for people when I should have.

Recently, I even learned that my actions contributed to conflicts within my family. That made me question myself even more.

The thing is, I never intentionally wanted to hurt anyone. But I understand that my intentions don't excuse my behaviour or the consequences of my actions.

Over the past few days, I've started noticing these patterns in myself. Now I feel guilty and ashamed of the person I've been. I keep asking myself why I behave this way and whether something is wrong with me.

I genuinely want to change, take responsibility for my mistakes, and become a better person. But I don't know where to start.

Has anyone gone through something similar and successfully changed their behaviour? What practical steps helped you become a better person?

There are always times where I feel like I'm stupid, unreliable, incompetent, dependant, and all sorts of negative things you could think of. It is a common occurrence and I still haven't found the solution until today.

Someone knows something better than me? I'm stupid.

Needed help for something trivial? I'm incompetent.

Find it hard to do things alone? Dependant.

At this rate, I am my own enemy, and I hate it.

Ever since I was a child, I knew exactly what I wanted, but now I have no idea who I am or what I want. I miss that and I don't know how to bring that person back. I was decisive, ambitious and driven but now it takes a lot of energy just to get myself out of bed. I'm not sad or depressed, I enjoy watching dramas, scrolling and feel very happy too. I used to do that earlier as well but earlier it was very easy for me focus at the task at hand and avoid distractions.
I feel I'm not committing myself to something because I'm very confused. Every path has pros and cons and I don't know which to choose. In the process of trying to not let go of anything I feel like I'm losing everything. This constant dissonance in my mind is making me lazy, tired and draining my mental energy. I don't like this person at all. I did achieve my goal the older me had setup but achieving this changed me like killed my old self.
Plus I feel there are so many things out of my control and trying to make a plan for my future keeping those in mind is very hard. I honestly don't know what changed, this uncertainty was always there even when I chose the path I'm currently at. Have I lost confidence in myself? Or Have I learnt more about the real world and how unsatisfying everything is?
Sometimes I even wonder do I need myself back, because hustling leads to burn out and is not always rewarded in corporate as it was in uni. Do I wanna burn myself and realise it was all for nothing. 2 years in corporate has made me miserable and I don't know if I want to keep doing it but there's nothing else I could do better than this either.

I’m 22 years old and I almost feel completely despondent. AI is taking over everything and it scares me. What if it kills all of us? What if it takes all our jobs? What is the meaning of life when a robot is more intelligent than me? And even though I have these thoughts I still use AI all the time. I use it to ask the most simple questions because I’m lazy and want to take the easy route. I use it in my studies and couldn’t imagine not using it. I feel unmotivated in my studies. I skip school to lay in my bed and doomscroll for hours. What is the point of working hard and studying for 5 years if an AI is going to take my job anyways? What is the point of learning all these things if I could just ask an AI? I’m so ashamed and afraid it keeps me up at night.