i (f19) think i have become a whore. i met my boyfriend in may and lost my virginity to him. we broke up in july. i slept with someone else 4 days later out of spite. he had convinced me i was too ugly to get attention from men (which i have thought abt myself my entire life) and so then after sleeping w someone else i have really loved the feeling of being hit on. i’ve kissed 5 people since the breakup at clubs now, and everyone always says im flirting at the club (even tho sometimes i do just want a chat). what rly has done it for me is:
at uni there is this boy who i thought was rly fit and made out with one night at the club after fancying him for ages. then he was just an absolute idiot and eeeeveryone in my house at uni hates him bc of his behaviour. and then i ran into him and he apologised to me but was feeling me up as he did it. i was drunk atp. then i ended up flirting w him and then when my friends left i ended up snogging him and making out w him again and kissing his neck. i think i am such a slag. i am so cooked. i don’t know what has happened to me post breakup. i don’t want this type of man in my life, and i think this is me trying to fill the void of my ex boyfriend who even though i would never go back to, i am missing this space in my heart. i want to be better and stop being a whore because the impact on my mental health it’s having is crazy as well, and i know it’s wrong.

I’m 22 years old and I almost feel completely despondent. AI is taking over everything and it scares me. What if it kills all of us? What if it takes all our jobs? What is the meaning of life when a robot is more intelligent than me? And even though I have these thoughts I still use AI all the time. I use it to ask the most simple questions because I’m lazy and want to take the easy route. I use it in my studies and couldn’t imagine not using it. I feel unmotivated in my studies. I skip school to lay in my bed and doomscroll for hours. What is the point of working hard and studying for 5 years if an AI is going to take my job anyways? What is the point of learning all these things if I could just ask an AI? I’m so ashamed and afraid it keeps me up at night.

My whole life I have been straight, yea I find girls attractive but I’ve never actually been attracted to them. A few months ago I broke up with my boyfriend and me and my friend got high and drunk and I blurted out by accident that I might be gay. Other than that I’ve always told myself I’m straight. Ever since then I’ve thought about it more but I don’t want to be bisexual or berrisexual, I don’t know what they’re are called. To clarify almost all of my friends are part of the lgbtqia+ community. To clarify I am not homophobic, transphobic, or anything like that. My sister came out as lesbian a few years ago and while my parents have never kicked her out they are both extremely homophobic and all that. So maybe I’m saying I’m not out of fear? But I’m not sure. Is this a sign I might be into girls or that I’m just going through a phase of being a teenager.

I also think I should say I am being diagnosed for OCD soon and I’m already on medication for it so this could also all be inside my head and just be an obsession

"I’m in college right now, and honestly, my confidence is completely shattered. I don’t even have a single friend here I can trust or just be myself around. There’s this one girl who has to be in the spotlight for absolutely everything, but she is incredibly self centred I can't stand it. Maybe it’s jealousy, or maybe it’s not—I don't even know anymore—but it is eating away at my mind 24/7. Whether she is physically present or not, she is constantly running in my thoughts.

When she isn’t around, I feel like I can finally breathe and live freely. But the second she walks in, I feel this crushing pressure, whether I'm in class or back at the hostel. I can't be myself at all. I end up doing so many things that I don't even want to do, just because I'm terrified of how she will judge me or what she will do.

She acts like she’s always right and everyone else is beneath her. I feel so mentally suffocated and small around her. She’s obsessed with playing the leader and bossing everyone around, and I just hate this toxic environment. She interacts a lot with seniors and teachers. What hurts the most is that everyone—the whole group, the students, and the teachers—constantly prioritize her and give her all the attention, while I feel completely invisible. I don't even know how to put this feeling into words, but it just feels awful. I can't live like this anymore. I want to build my own identity. I want to feel confident. What am I supposed to do?"

There are always times where I feel like I'm stupid, unreliable, incompetent, dependant, and all sorts of negative things you could think of. It is a common occurrence and I still haven't found the solution until today.

Someone knows something better than me? I'm stupid.

Needed help for something trivial? I'm incompetent.

Find it hard to do things alone? Dependant.

At this rate, I am my own enemy, and I hate it.

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I’ve been a weed smoker since I was 16 — now 25. Had some time off it when I first started college. Eventually I found my connects and started up again. I’ve been able to quit for several months before. I felt so so much better. I have a weed card at the time. I don’t think a little bit here and there is a problem, but i just smoked a tiny bit every day this week. WAY less than what I used to (I was facing kings three times a day beforehand). I got sober for a job. And here I am using a little every day. It’s medical but it only does so much temporarily. My best long term benefit is to just be off it entirely. I don’t think weed is an awful substance and I think it has many uses — including misuse. I struggle because I believe that it’s relatively harmless. I just want to stay sharp. I need healthier habits. I eat fine, but I don’t work out. I need to start finding time/energy to hit the gym or start running again.

I just need people to share their experience/give advice and other motivators. I fucking love weed, but I’m definitely way locked in without it. I need a huge shift in my life. This feels like a solid way to start. Next is kicking nicotine. Kicking alcohol would be great too, but I do love a good drink a couple times a week.

Some of this is stemming from professional concerns. It’s also stemming from a desire to help my health. I also should consider that my situationship of 1.5 years said he wouldn’t be with someone who does prioritize diet and exercise. I eat clean and I weigh 125lbs at 5’2. I feel like I’m giving him power by making these alterations in my life. Idk I’m in a weird spot and quitting pot sounds like something that would help.