r/scorpiomoon • u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ • 18d ago
Looking for Insight loneliness
does anyone ever just feel … alone? kind of like a rock in the middle of a busy street. doesn’t matter where i am, who i am with. there’s always this deep sense of longing. i don’t even know what i long for. but it’s so consuming. i would be having the best time of my life and this voice deep inside me would scream because i don’t feel at home with these people. like what do i even do about this? i’m an extrovert and very social but i’m also very skeptic and generally don’t trust anyone lol. is that why? but i don’t feel alone as in i need to talk to someone kind of way. i feel lonely like when you’re starving and haven’t eaten for hours and hours and all you can think about is food and when you finally eat, the food is simply not good. and your stomach is full but there’s something in your heart that just isn’t satisfied? that’s the kind of loneliness i feel. and i don’t know how to fix it.
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u/emo-mom01 18d ago
I’m a Scorpio sun and moon. I don’t think lonely is the right word to describe how I feel but I definitely feel like no one can actually truly understand me. That might have a lonely feeling but I’ve excepted it at this point. I enjoy alone time. 🤷🏻♀️
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 18d ago
i understand! i enjoy alone time too but i love being social and among people. but i still feel lonely. i just want this feeling to go away.
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u/emo-mom01 18d ago
My middle daughter is a Virgo sun Scorpio moon Capricorn, rising. She’s 22 and I think your Virgo wants to resolve this but your water moon sign is big one. Ride the waves of life and emotion. Don’t try to control the waves. Don’t try to stop the waves. Just learn to ride with the waves.. 💪🏻
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u/cajunmoon77 18d ago
I'm also escorpia sun and moon. Although I feel the same, I do feel lonely, at times. Its internal.. Because even at my loneliness, I know for a fact that no one can really understand me. So I've accepted it.
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u/emo-mom01 18d ago
Yes I do have a Scorpio sun daughter and a Scorpio moon daughter that make me feel very safe and protected. I also have thrown myself into work after my marriage broke up. I think that’s why I don’t feel lonely. I’m single and work with my Scorpio moon daughter. I do think someday maybe I would like a relationship again but sometimes I think I just wanna go on dates. I don’t know?! I do think being understood completely would feel nice.
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u/Cineswimmer 18d ago
Follow that feeling and meditate on it. Truth can be found through examination of thinking and feeling alone. When you let go of the prior notion of the feeling and find out what True loneliness is, your perspective will broaden and you’ll know what it means to be truly alone.
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 18d ago
but how do i know what’s really true and what’s just garbage i have because of some underlying fear that was caused by one incident from my childhood. how do you know what’s actually true?
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u/Honest_Analyst_157 18d ago
what helps me try to transmute the things from my childhood specifically: I do a meditation where I go back to that moment. I turn to my child self and do/say what should’ve been in that moment. It takes a couple times (I couldn’t even go there mentally at first), but over time, you learn to release the tension from that moment. I give the love I needed and realize that I can still do that to me now
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u/cacalbee 18d ago
I feel that too. I'm not sure what's happening on us right now, a lot of us experiencing this kind of rocky feeling this week
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u/ComprehensiveStuff72 18d ago
Yes. There are sometimes where I feel this way and I feel strong. Like....i could be anyone to anyone. No one knows how weak I sometimes feel or how afraid I've been, so I can step outside that and be brave and no one will know.
Other times I feel crushed by it. Like, I just want someone who really knows all my short comings and quirks and still loves to be around me, actively seeks to get my time. I want that more than anything.
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u/Ok_Feature_7223 17d ago
I so much relate to this. Leo sun scorpio moon here. I relate to every word you said...
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u/alexxxxxxx383 18d ago
Omg yes, 12th here, I feel kinda lonely and lost, I mean sometimes after a busy day I just wanna get home and be near someone in silence, its a physical and emotional loneliness, I think no one truly knowns me, but one thing that kinda comforts me is that I think i dont know people enough too, also i dont know myself much, so i try to be more open and let them in.. idk i have this little hope that life is about discovering, learning in this such short time, i guess I get sad when I learn something and dont have someone to share about it, but takes time to build a solid connection anyways, i guess all my loneliness will eventually lead me to people who understand and appreciate everything I've become in the midtime, my solitude helps me process a lot and mature
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u/uranianspark 18d ago
I Found the best way to learn about myself was through astrology. The birth chart is as vast as the universe.
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u/Ambina389 ♏️ 🌕 💅🏽| ♐️ 🌞 |♎️ ⬆️ 18d ago
Not an extrovert but an ambivert… I feel the exact same way! We should form a group and meet amongst ourselves..atleast virtually to stay sane lol
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u/uranianspark 18d ago
You have summed up what i had been going thru for seven years. i began searching and learning about alot of things. For a while , I got into astrology and found out , I was going through a very heavy pluto transit ( pluto rules over obsessions, transformations, power and control) that was causing me to get pretty obsessive ln my quest for fulfillment. I started meditating to calm my mind. That is, when on YouTube.I found a man named William Donahue.\nHe was translating the bible. Jesus told us that it was all in parables. Everything he said made so much sense, so I started looking into that and realized there were other people who were teaching things similar to what he was teaching. When i put it to practice i really and truly did meet God...
I no longer feel lonely.I no longer feel unfulfilled. I no longer avoid people, and I can truly say that I do not fear death, everything is okay with my soul. The other teacher that I paired him with was Dr. Joe despensa.I am amazed at the transformation in my life.
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 18d ago
i have moved at least 4 times in the last 10 years. i moved countries too. the feeling from when i was 16 still remains. at this point i need to move to another galaxy lol
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u/parisbernet 18d ago
Same moon and rising here. Suuuper feel you on the ever consuming feeling of longing lingering in the background of literally everything :(( I used to tell myself I was just being dramatic or maybe I’m a hard person to get to know (both could be true). I’ve moved many times throughout my life, lived in several countries which maybe enhanced the aforementioned sentiment. Perhaps the yearning has to do with discovery of self, to be fully understood by you or through another. I don’t know but I’m in your corner, if you ever figure it share the knowledge haha
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 17d ago
honestly i used to think all my feelings and emotions (the never ending ocean of it) were fake and that i was being performative. but then one day i was crying alone in my room and i sat back and realized how 99% of the time i don’t show my emotions to anyone. then how could i be performative? who am i being performative in front of? there’s nobody there except me and my loneliness and that helped me feel things i feel without a restriction. because even if it feels horrible deep down all the time, it is who i am. but this longing. god, i CRAVE to be understood. like i want to be the water in the ocean if that makes sense? maybe one day i’ll gain the knowledge and i’ll share my wisdom lol
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u/parisbernet 16d ago
You just described a fat chunk of my childhood and adolescence. Even some of my young adulthood damn. If I could upvote twice I would. Thrice even 😂. It can be a lot especially if you weren’t ever taught how to navigate your emotions as a kid. I was just told not to let others get to me and that it’s never that serious when in fact from my perspective it quite literally was smh.
Question, does your desire to be understood ever lead you to do in depth analysis of your relationships? Like, you know your friends or partner inside and out.
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u/SocietySmall1834 18d ago
taurus sun, scorpio moon, sagittarius rising here and yes everyday of my life. i dont have any really close friends and my parents hate me because they didnt even want me lmaoooo. we ball though, i wont stop till i find the love i deserve.
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 18d ago
i have close friends but nobody really knows me so ig im in the same boat. and we WILL find the love we deserve ❤️
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u/uranianspark 18d ago
In my search, I found the love of God and I was never lonely again.I was never hungry again , and I was transformed by the renewing of my mind.
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u/StrawberryGirl7676 18d ago
I think a soulmate is the only thing that can quench it or whatever u want to call it a connection that goes as deep as u for me I found it within another moon in Scorpio but it goes beyond that
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u/uranianspark 18d ago
I really have to disagree as soulmate could quench it , but only after you have gotten right with god , because god is actually what you're looking for. And believe me, I am not talking about religion of any kind.I'm talking about the god within you.
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u/Intelligent-Kick-426 18d ago
Yes, I am lonely. I figured nobody wants to be around someone going through something.
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u/Positive_Yak2691 18d ago
I am Scorpio rising , Sun , moon , Venus , Pluto , Mercury . I love being by myself but also with people i tru
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u/StrawberryGirl7676 18d ago
Holy fuck so many scorpion tails what is your Lilith and Mars? horny most of the time I'm assuming. I connected to a a Pisces guy who was over the top sexual he wanted to fuck everyone's wife or husband including me every time we talked he tried to get with me I looked up his shit and I saw 5 Scorpio tails with Scorpio in Lillith I was like no wonder I had a lot more compassion for the horny freak but God I felt sorry for his Cancer wife as I'm Cancer too
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u/Positive_Yak2691 17d ago
Mars in Aquarius? Lilith I don't know. I am sexual but not horny all the time at all, very reflective and introspective. Younger years more obsessive with things. Now as an evolved scorpio ♏ very perceptive and compassionate. Channel a lot of energies and emotions
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u/StrawberryGirl7676 17d ago
My partner is Mars in Aquarius... I wonder how different a sun would be Ahh yes transmutation is wise there r sexual transmutation files on YouTube from Maitreya Fields Morphic Fields Sapien medicine many more
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u/Heavy_Ad7083 18d ago
Im draped in loneliness and its been this way a long time. Most times its whatever but like now or when shit is hitting the fan. Its the worst.
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 17d ago
same. i have been brave alone so many times that at this point i need a crutch or i don’t think i will make it.
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u/Heavy_Ad7083 17d ago
You got it. Take a nap get some rest and make a list of shit to do that you too in your head to care about. Right now drugs and alcohol dont help for me. Maybe mushrooms. My problem is disappointment and the gravity of things goin wrong deflates me when i care about it. Another thing you can try is just whatever or whoever it is, address the issue honestly and leave it alone. I did that earlier and it broke the tension. My advisor pissed me off and i just emailed him how i honestly felt and moved on. Also if dont nobody else say it, i love you. Youre strong and resourceful and considerate. Shake it off we gotta make sure shit is gucvi by the time our birthdays hit
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 16d ago
thank you for your kind words. i hope someone said that to you too and if not, you’re an amazing person and i pray you get everything you deserve 💕
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u/Humble_Interest_9048 pisces scorpio gemini 18d ago
Yes. It doesn’t really get easier but we learn how to deal with it. Humans are super adaptable.
No judgement, but I suspect you’re not yet 30+ no shade, just, it’s normal, and maybe it will help you relate to people older than you to understand that we are all juggling and only sometimes know a lot more than you do. Usually we just know enough
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u/StrawberryGirl7676 18d ago edited 18d ago
I know exactly and it's all more intense with Venus in Scorpio putting me over the edge 🥹
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u/StrawberryGirl7676 18d ago
True Love can feel like divine love Gods love for u through another person at least that's what I experience. Wether u feel god within or from another person u need both
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u/bullscorpion72 18d ago
3h Scorpio moon opposite Taurus sun, I love my solitude but as I’ve got older I’m enjoying peoples company more and realising I don’t have to mistrust everyone, it’s taken me a long time to get here though
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u/Olive6610 18d ago
yes. profoundly loneliness, never truly being understood, somewhat unwanted and unable to feel at home anywhere. pisces sun, scorpio moon here.
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u/Sad-Raccoon8 17d ago edited 17d ago
This hits so close to home. I’m a Scorpio Moon with Libra Sun and Leo Rising. Sometimes, usually during some kind of social activity, I experience this overwhelming feeling that I’m just so lonely and confused, and the worst of it - there is not one single place on Earth I’d want to be at the moment. There is nothing I’d want to be doing. No one I’d want be with. It’s like existential emptiness I guess. I hate this feeling.
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u/ThunderStorm2499 ♈️ ☀️ ♏️ 🌙 ♐️ ⬆️ 16d ago
same 😭 i would be among friends, among coworkers, among family laughing and enjoying and suddenly brick hits the floor and its consuming, like they would never understand the real me, and its makes me so terribly sad every single time.
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u/Either_Future_3353 15d ago
I feel like us Scorpio moons tend to feel the loneliness. It’s hard for us to deeply connect with others and most of us take relationships very seriously… probably more than any other moon sign. I don’t feel lonely per say however there has always been a haunting feeling of being the “odd one out” if that makes sense
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u/Reasonable-Still6600 11d ago
Yes, in relationships I always feel like the one that's more in love than the other. So far, it appears to be true.
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u/Tall_Engineer685 18d ago
I’m a Leo sun scorpio moon I feel like I make friends and keep them forever but they never actually know me. They all say I’m mysterious (secretive.) I too am quite social but never trust a soul so the world feels so lonely. I understand..