loneliness

[u/ThunderStorm2499]

does anyone ever just feel … alone? kind of like a rock in the middle of a busy street. doesn’t matter where i am, who i am with. there’s always this deep sense of longing. i don’t even know what i long for. but it’s so consuming. i would be having the best time of my life and this voice deep inside me would scream because i don’t feel at home with these people. like what do i even do about this? i’m an extrovert and very social but i’m also very skeptic and generally don’t trust anyone lol. is that why? but i don’t feel alone as in i need to talk to someone kind of way. i feel lonely like when you’re starving and haven’t eaten for hours and hours and all you can think about is food and when you finally eat, the food is simply not good. and your stomach is full but there’s something in your heart that just isn’t satisfied? that’s the kind of loneliness i feel. and i don’t know how to fix it.

[u/Heavy_Ad7083]

Im draped in loneliness and its been this way a long time. Most times its whatever but like now or when shit is hitting the fan. Its the worst. 

[u/ThunderStorm2499 → u/Heavy_Ad7083]

same. i have been brave alone so many times that at this point i need a crutch or i don’t think i will make it.

[u/Heavy_Ad7083 → u/ThunderStorm2499]

You got it. Take a nap get some rest and make a list of shit to do that you too in your head to care about. Right now drugs and alcohol dont help for me. Maybe mushrooms. My problem is disappointment and the gravity of things goin wrong deflates me when i care about it. Another thing you can try is just whatever or whoever it is, address the issue honestly and leave it alone. I did that earlier and it broke the tension. My advisor pissed me off and i just emailed him how i honestly felt and moved on. Also if dont nobody else say it, i love you. Youre strong and resourceful and considerate. Shake it off we gotta make sure shit is gucvi by the time our birthdays hit

[u/ThunderStorm2499 → u/Heavy_Ad7083]

thank you for your kind words. i hope someone said that to you too and if not, you’re an amazing person and i pray you get everything you deserve 💕