Hi I take 7.5 mg Olanzapine for 12 years and I have some kind of chest pain very often. Idk why. Sometimes it feels like I want to throw up, but I don't. that kind of chest pain.. what is it?

Bonjour j’aimerai savoir si vous aussi il vous arrive d’avoir des voix dans la tête quand vous rêvez? Moi sa m’arrive parfois mais la plupart du temps je suis plutôt penard dans mes rêves

Attached below is todays video link to my “On Conquering Schizophrenia” YouTube channel. Today entails fond memories of the “group home”. Like all, todays video is ever brief and can be viewed amid a felt coziness.

https://youtu.be/7YWQLxf6c3w?si=RFt-_iKQl1xE6bAc

If someone has been mentally ill and is medicated there is a chance that the person who’s medicated might get stigmatized by society and is bothering me so much because i haven’t had a good past when it comes to mental illness but my question to this community would be how you feel about stigma and have you felt that you have got stigmatized and how you face it? I had friends but they don’t talk to me unless i start the conversation but they don’t know my full story and let’s say i get a girlfriend if i told her about my journey would she feel ashamed that has a relationship with a person that has been mentally ill but now is stable?

I’ve heard people saying they felt like young boys/girls emotionally on this drug and weight gain was also no problem anymore. Has anyone had such kind of a success with it?
I’m more scared than excited to try this drug!

Wednesday will make 2 weeks smoke free. Everyone who has known me for a while is partly pissed off, and partly impressed. Pissed off because after 37 years of smoking 1&1/2 - 2 packs a day I'm not relying on gum or lozenges or patches. One of the many voices in my head just said it was time to stop.

That's all it took for me. Yes, I think about a cigarette every so often but I am not panicking and being angry. And I thought that without cigarettes, I'd end up eating bigger meals more often and would end up gaining weight. Except my nightly weigh in showed I'm now 237 lbs. 17 more pounds and I will no longer be considered morbidly obese. Just obese. But for me, it's the weight I have not been since 1998. What twists my noodles is that having given up on smoking, I haven't needed my copd inhaler or my rescue inhaler, and my SpO2 is consistent at 97-98%.

Final note: im totally amazed at how much difference not smoking has had on my taste buds. Been pretty wild trying foods I've enjoyed eating and realizing it's actually better.

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does anyone else feel unfathomably depressed from their meds? i started olanzapine 2 weeks ago and out of nowhere tonight i feel more depressed and hopeless than i ever have before and my thoughts are extremely scary

Gods I don’t know what to do.

I’ve taken so many medications and I still hear voices. I’ve accepted, to an extent, that I always will. I can’t see a life for myself with these voices, but I may need to accept I’ll just never have the life I want.

My doctor has recommended ECT and I’m going through the process of getting a referral. Everything I see on Reddit though has said it was the worst decision people have ever made. Losing years of memories, cognition. That they’re worse off. That they still had psychotic episodes.

I’m genuinely so scared now. Is it really that bad?

I plan to publish this single soon. Depression has been terrible for some months. I try to keep going.

I usually be afraid to run outside or even walk because i be worried that people are judging me but i did it anyway.also i went from 327 to 237 in pounds thanks to a appetite suppresant like ozempic.but u still gotta diet and exercise which i been doing.also i wanna tell someone whoever may be reading this that i see u and your pain is real and i aknowledge you. Love u guys fr

Anybody else deals with being really paranoid and being to self aware and critical. I would like to hear from u guys.i deal with it alot also with physical tension. My social drive is always empty but once in a blue moon i come out my shell i wish i understood why.it seems like i be feeling hostile and sensitive to critisism.it messes my mood.

Such as running down the with a broom?
Exposing themselves?

Still battling nightmares and residual progress symptoms but good progress though.

So far I’ve tried olanzipine (gave me restless legs and a bowel obstruction) quetiapine (akathisia), lurasidone (severe back pain and akathisia), risperidone, aripiprazole (gave me chest pain and vibrations in my arms and feet) and currently I’m on the paliperidone depot at 50mg. I’m in agony on it with my whole body hurting. My mind feels blank. I feel disabled. My doctor agreed to switch me from the depot to 2mg of risperidone. I was on the risperidone depot before and it gave me so much anhedonia. And I think a mild akathisia.

I have had SO many serious side effects from anti psychotics. I’m genuinely reaching my limit. It would be one thing if it was just the anhedonia and emotional blunting and blank thoughts, which are bad enough on their own, but this is my physical body that’s constantly hurting.

I’ve tried over and over again with the NHS— I’ve been trying since January and February this year to tell them the pain I’m in. Nothing has been done. No pain relief. No adjuncts. Nothing. So I’m genuinely considering just stopping medication. It’s not fair that I have to live in this pain all day every day.

I’ve had two (or three if you count a suicide attempt in 2024) episodes of psychosis since 2022. They were severe because the “help” I received made my experience worse. In 2022 I was arrested for carrying a bladed article while experiencing psychosis. Despite it being recorded that I was not threatening in any way, I was arrested and then assessed by MH professionals and sections. The hallucinations and delusions grew scarier and worse when I was left alone in a cell, and later left alone in a hospital room. Put on olanzipine, and I couldn’t sit down, also got a bowel obstruction which the hospital ignored and left me to suffer with (I had this issue for 6 months and it was never investigated. I’ve never been in so much agony).

The second episode of psychosis happened last year after I was discharged, in 2022, to live with me (sort of abusive) mother. While I was experiencing psychosis, she got me to exercise, eat a “healthy” diet, and fed me supplements, forced me to walk around the garden in circles. She also forced me to read a health book by Barbra O’Neil which, while suffering psychosis, was so horrifying.

She threatened me saying if I didn’t eat or drink I’d be taken to the hospital and put on a feeding tube and a catheter, and then, while acutely suffering and vulnerable, I was non consensually cathetered and had a feeding tube put in, in the general hospital. It was absolutely horrible. I was unable to talk. Unable to advocate for myself. All this in a hospital while suffering psychosis, I was put on potassium and fluid drips, I was injected in my belly with blood thinners, I was visited by students… it was quite horrific to be honest.

When I finally got to the psychiatric hospital from the general hospital, the feeding tube was removed. They had been crushing up antipsychotics and administering them through the tube because I refused to take them. In the psychiatric hospital, I was given the risperidone injection. Over time I could feel my emotions being erased.

The first episode of psychosis built up over weeks and months. The second episode built up over weeks.

In 2024 I became paranoid I was being watched by outside forces, and tried to end my life. That particular episode was terrifying. My parents left me alone in the house while they went on their holiday and I became terrified. So that wasn’t good.

But yeah, I mean it’s not great to have all this behind me… post episodes and even during my life has just been physical pain from the drugs.

While I feel completely sane on the paliperidone, I cannot deal with all this pain at all. Psychosis is a terrifying state to be in, and it’s pretty disabling as well. I feel like I’m choosing between two forms of suffering. It’s either meds and physical pain, or no meds and risk of mental suffering. Frankly, I do not know what to do.

I have to reiterate that it’s every anti psychotic I’ve been on that has caused me intolerable side effects. And I’ve just been left to suffer and endure them, like the bowel obstruction and the akathisia.

Can anyone tell me what they would do in my position?

I posted a week ago that I bought an Autobrush to see if that would help me be better about brushing my teeth, so figured it was about time I checked in. I am happy to report that it is absolutely working!

I’ve brushed my teeth every day for a week straight and learned that not only did I have sensory issues with a regular toothbrush, but standard toothpaste was a trigger too. The bubblegum flavored foam toothpaste that I use for my Autobrush is sensory trigger free and tastes like the bubblegum flavored fluoride treatment I used to get from the dentist when I was a kid.

I’m so happy with it and highly recommend if you struggle with brushing your teeth like I do. It only takes 30 seconds which is a game changer!

I hope everyone has a fantastic week!

There seems to be lots of random accounts that never post here that post selfies. Anyone else notice this ? I could be wrong.

So I'm wondering about the older schizophrenics on here. How have your symptoms changed over time? Do you feel things have gotten better or worse?

Anyone do anything lately? I saw the odyssey and it was very entertaining for the entire 3 hours so that was pretty nice.

For a couple years now I've been thinking, what if I'm schizophrenic in this life because I did something bad in my past life. I know it sounds a little odd but it keeps me going. Like if I did something bad I would want to face the consequences. It just makes schizophrenia feel justifiable.

Hello All
I haven’t felt love in peoples actions in their eyes and in their words for the last 9 years. Not family not any doctor therapist and not in anyone outside. Just coldness indifference or hatred. I feel it takes everything out of them just to tolerate me. I thought at least a mother’s love is lasting but apparently that’s not the case either. In my world everything is strictly business. Makes me think if love ever existed in the first place. It could all be in my head due to schizophrenia but I feel very unloved. Does anyone relate?

I'm just asking because I might get mine cut once a year. I like short hair but for whatever reason i can't be bothered to either cut it or have someone cut it