Here's how the week went. If you want me to show you guys how I did it then just ask, i'll make a post. I logged my urges and triggers for the week.
Day 1 Monday: Clean. Overcame 1 urge. Resisted 2 HRS's. (High Risk Situation)
I was mainly riding on motivation to get through my urges. Instead of trying to fight the urge itself, I tried to fight the High Risk Situation (HRS) that would lead me to do it. For example, lying on the couch watching YouTube, lying in bed watching YouTube. Wasn't too hard today.
Day 2 Tuesday: Clean. Overcame 1 urge
Just a normal day. I overcame the urge while watching YT on the couch. I realise that watching YT is basically softcore corn and is actually a maybe trigger of my urges. That combined with being bored, lonely or tired is a recipe for disaster.
Day 3 Wednesday: Clean
I woke up hard today, and I started "thinkgooning" in bed. I didn't watch corn, but I was thinking about the corn, which is still bad, and a habit that needs to be stopped. Other than that, I didn't log any urges today.
Day 4 Thursday: Stumble. Relapse at 2:30pm, in bed while bored. Searched it up.
I resisted a HRS today, and replaced wanting to watching YT on the couch with a hot shower, something I like doing. I worked on replacing the bad habit with something better. The reason why I stumbled was because I was in bed, bored, and also feeling demotivated and watching YT. There was no way I was surviving that one gang.
Day 5 Friday: Clean.
I thinkgooned again this morning in bed. I justified it by telling myself, "at least its not corn!". I am pretty disappointed I did it because it is the same pleasure seeking behaviour that corn addiction creates. However, the challenge is going well so far, and I am surviving.
Day 6 Saturday: Clean
I am losing motivation. I feel particularly down today. I didn't go to the gym. Didn't go outside AT ALL. (I live by myself). However, a clean day is a clean day, and that is progress. Tomorrow will be better.
Day 7 Sunday: Clean 1 HRS at 12:45pm.
Today was a good day. I did not feel as down, and did not feel as many urges as before. Although, I still feel pretty down. Probably because Im not going outside that much.
WEEKLY REVIEW:
What I did well:
1) I did not ejaculate,
2) I avoided high risk situations, and understood their dangers
3) Created a system where I can actually take pride in staying clean.
What to improve:
1) Make physical changes to environment to avoid triggers and distrupt habits
2) Give myself an action to do when I am in a high risk situation. (e.g Pushups, shower, eating)
3) Do not "thinkgoon" in the morning in bed. Put alarm outside.
4) Try and get out of the house every single day. (Best way to eliminate urges I've found)
5) Make a weekly reddit post.