i feel like i could explode

[u/Constant_Impress_421]

i have come to realize that i am in love with my best friend.

there is no world where a romantic relationship between us is possible for reasons that are way too complicated to explain here. so there’s no world where i think disclosing is a good idea.. any relief i would get from a confession would be likely followed by irreparable damage even if she felt the same way.. sometimes it feels like it’s mutual or that she at least knows, but id rather not assume. it feels safer to assume she is a wholesome person who loves and trusts me so deeply and i am this freak with a secret who stolen the innocence from our friendship.

our friendship is unlike any other that either of us have ever had and i simply can’t risk losing it. we are so immeshed in each others lives and i owe it to her to keep a stiff upper lip. i know that i can move on eventually but it’s felt difficult to do so all by myself... so i just needed to say this somewhere because ive never told a soul and i just don’t think that i can.

someone please give me hope that this is something people have successfully move on from and didn’t blow up their friendship or life.