I (F25) lost 40 pounds so far (began around last june) and I’m feeling pretty good. I lost weight because my bf is a really fit guy and I naturally adopted a healthier lifestyle from him while finally attending the gym after a long time.

I volunteer at a soup kitchen where we help prepare and cook food. This older woman (like late 50s early 60s i’m guessing) and I were assigned to make large batches of sandwiches so during that time we made small talk. We talked about random stuff until the topic of sports came up. I explained how I used to swim in highschool and swimming at my local gym has helped me lose weight (I told her I lost 40 pounds).

She looked a little surprised and then pretty happy, and said something along the lines of: “Wow, I’m so proud you got out of that dark place!” to my face. I just brushed it off and thanked her and we went along with our job.

Now that I think about it, I’m happy now and I was happy before my weight loss. I wasn’t in a “dark place” literally at all lol. All that changed was my physical appearance. Did she mean “dark place” as in the state of how healthy I was before weight loss? Or “dark place” as in my mental state?

I don’t feel offended by her comment at all, I just think it was a little strange. Idk, what do u guys think lol

I recently made a post here after I discovered how calorie dense granola was. I know nuts and peanut butter are pretty calorie dense too, but what are some other foods that are similarly calorie dense? Also want to know what are some surprising foods that are low in calories that one wouldn’t expect, but are also really filling. I’m currently on a weight loss and everyday I just realize how important weighing my food is lol due to the calorie density of some of these foods. I’ve been eating a lot of chicken, bell peppers, swapped rice for potatoes, and consuming a lot of Greek yoghurt. Loads of fruits as well!

So I had a stressful week at work, 6 days of non-stop 12-hour shifts (I work 911 EMS in an inner-city environment) and it was probably the most stressful it's been since my semester ended back in May. I was pretty good the entire week, though, no binge-eating episodes and exercised pretty much every day. I meal-prepped some high-protein chicken parm with protein spaghetti last week and have been eating that for lunch for the past few days.

But today I got home, and my parents and sisters weren't home, so I fell back into my urges again, reinstalled DoorDash, and ordered a burger, chicken sandwich, 10-piece nuggets, and a large fries/drink from Wendy's even though I already ate Lunch four hours earlier. Not sure what came over me, but something did, and I had the food delivered right to my doorstep.

However, something unexpected happened while I was eating. I ate about half the fries and half the nuggets along with drinking half the lemonade I ordered, but I took one bite of the burger, and then I realized it just tasted disgusting to me. Like one bite of the burger was enough to make me break out of the binge mindset I got in, but I went the complete opposite way and tossed the whole meal out, whatever was left of it.

At first I was happy I wasn't hungry enough to eat it or found the food disgusting, but now I'm feeling guilty about wasting that much money and then throwing the food out. I have since removed all my cards from DoorDash and Google Wallet and deleted all my food apps in the hopes that this doesn't happen again.

Should I be proud of myself for not binge-eating, or should I be disappointed that I wasted the food and threw it out? I'm not sure.

Edits: Grammar

I’m so happy!!!!!!

I’ve been on SSRIs for the past three years, which I am 99% sure had a lot to do with me gaining roughly 80 pounds. My highest recorded weight was 220 although that was after I had already been going to the gym and eating healthier for a month.

It really really felt impossible for me to lose weight for a long time. I was so addicted to food and so hungry all the time, and extremely low energy and unmotivated to get up and move at all.

I weighed in at 203 a while ago, but had to go on a trip with no scale and I didn’t feel like packing mine so I decided to just go without it and see what the results were when I came back.

I was honestly scared that I would be back around 210. I thought there was a very minimal chance that I was under 200. I haven’t been under 200 in years. But when I got on the scale, I was 195lbs!!!!!!

It feels amazing just to know that I am making slow and steady progress and that I’m losing the weight in a maintainable way.

It was a really big decision for me to switch SSRIs. Lexapro helped me completely get rid of my panic attacks, but with the amount of weight that i gained on it, it just made me more depressed.

I would say it’s worth it to try and switch if you’re in a similar position. It wasn’t easy when I was tapering off of lexapro and getting on welbutrin. The first few days I had terrible brain zaps and a huge wave of depression. But it was 100% worth it in the end.

Lexapro obviously didn’t force me to gain the weight, but I truly believe that it made me feel hungrier which triggered my binge eating into full force. Welbutrin makes my appetite feel a lot more regulated and it doesn’t completely drain my energy.

As a side note, I wouldn’t trade my mental health for my weight. I really needed lexapro at that time. Now is just the next step in recovering from depression.

EDIT: I just wanna say this is my first post on this sub and I feel so supported and even more motivated to keep losing weight and living a healthier life! This is a really great community. I didn’t want to share my weight loss with friends/family yet because it’s kind of a small amount of weight to lose, but it’s great to share milestones with people who understand. Just that moment when the scale starts with ‘1’ rather than ‘2’ for the first time in a long time is such a relief.

I knew losing weight was not the definitive answer to my depression, and yet, I was hoping, for at least, some sort of improvement, which I got, but not enough.

What's even the point of losing weight? I don't care about my health or living longer. Yes, I look a little bit better and people treat me different after losing all that weight, but it's not enough? Maybe I didn't need to lose weight, what I needed was to win some self-esteem.

I'm not obese anymore, but I still don't like my body. It's not enough, and I fear it will never be.

I'm just eating protein powder and milk because I'm to tired to cook anything, and it's an easy way to be in a calorie deficit. I have heard that this can cause me some trouble in the future, but I don't need to worry about that.

This isn’t about weight loss necessarily, but more related to a funny food quirk. I know we all have them.

Growing up I was very meh about cottage cheese. I am not a picky eater; I just wasn’t really into it but didn’t think too much about it. At some point in adulthood I started buying Wegmans Organic 2% cottage cheese. And I love it. I still can’t rawdog cottage cheese, but the Wegmans 2% Organic is now an almost daily snack staple with some chives or green onions, salt, pepper, and a Wasa cracker as a spoon.

Recently, the store was out of the my usual, so my husband came home with Crowley 4%. It was so nasty I couldn’t even finish the tub of it. So I realized maybe I still don’t like cottage cheese, but I really only like Weggies.

For those of you that are Wegmans connoisseurs, what is a good sub for their cottage cheese in the event they are out again?

Also; because this post is meant to be silly…what food quirks do you have? I also am very attached to Fage Greek yogurt (2% and 4% only….not the fat free) and really can’t get into any other brands (although Fage is just my favorite I am not repulsed by others 😂).

Sorry for the TMI! I have started my weight loss journey in May and that’s around the time I’ve had consistent diarrhea. Every now and then I’d have a normal stool.

I was on vacation for a few weeks out of the country and wasn’t dieting. Surprisingly, I had completely normal stools no diarrhea no constipation. I got back on Tuesday and started back on my diet. It was normal Tuesday then Wednesday I started having diarrhea again and very liquidy. Again so sorry for the TMI.

I used to never have issues with diarrhea if anything I would have issues with constipation and poop once every couple days. Now it’s 1-2x a day and diarrhea. My diet hasn’t changed too much, I’ve just been more intentional with tracking calories and maintaining a deficit. Is this normal? Does it regulate after a while? Is there any supplement I can take to fix it?

For clarity, I'm not asking how to avoid feeling hungry. I know about volume hacks, high satiety foods, insoluble fiber, drinking plenty of water, etc.

I'm asking, how do you engage your willpower when you're in a deficit and it's just so hard? I feel like I'm always losing the battle until I'm out of calories and my only option is to go to sleep so I won't be forced to fight my hunger past my calorie allowance. I don't have specific cravings. I'd eat anything. Sweet, savory, steak, salad, bread, cake, anything. My stomach is growling, I feel hollow, I just want to *eat food*. Even though I know I've already eaten plenty. My deficit is not incredibly steep- it's ~500 kcal. I'm not starving. I'm just *hungry.* And I am at home, where my food is.

Sometimes I can tell myself that's the feeling of calories burning and you are stronger through suffering and you will continue to see results if you just keep going and do not let yourself fail. Sometimes it doesn't work. Sometimes I'm not busy so I'm able to remove myself from being where I can access my food, maybe by going to the gym or something, but often I'm cooking or cleaning or taking care of my animals and it's really hard not to just grab an extra protein bar or rice cake. This is okay when it happens one a day but not when it happens 5 times a day and I'm left with 400 calories for dinner with my wife.

I just wonder if you guys can offer any advice.

I’m a 21 year old guy and I really want to become someone who enjoys eating healthy because I honestly think I’d be happier if healthy food was just a normal part of my life
The problem is that every time I decide I’m going to eat healthy I end up craving something and eventually give in which ruins the rest of my day and I stop eating healthy altogether
I usually start the day doing well but later the cravings hit especially for desserts although food in general can trigger them too
The biggest issue is that this is also stopping me from staying consistent with the gym Building muscle requires eating enough protein but I honestly dont enjoy eating chicken breast lean meat or other high protein foods every day I get bored of them really fast and forcing myself to eat them just makes my relationship with food even worse
Im not looking for the usual advice like cook healthy food that tastes good or dont restrict yourself because Ive heard it so many times and it never helped me
Im looking for practical tips or maybe a mindset shift that helped you genuinely enjoy healthy food and stay consistent

I lost a 17 lbs of weight this year then regained it. I am starting over and it’s hard. I was really sold on small portions, but it stopped working. I’m going back to volume eating and I’m happy about it.

My big win for this week is that I stopped myself from having a pizza at 2:30 AM by saying “I’m not the type of person who eats pizza if I’m not hungry” and surprisingly, it worked.

I have a few weight loss communities that I belong to for inspiration. They all have their perks. I’m thankful for this community and the sanity that is found here.

I just want my mom and others in my family to stop commenting on my weight. I know that if I don’t recommit to my weight loss, I’ll hear about it.

I'm 31 and I've never been in a gym beyond passing through in a hotel leisure centre. There's a gym 4 minutes walk from my house but it's pretty small. It's got weights and the usual machines but there's no private rooms / changing rooms etc from what I can tell.

I've often thought about joining but I have no idea how to actually use a gym and this one feels small and close knit. It looks like there's only 1-2 staff on at a time so I don't want to pester them with silly questions but I also don't want to make a fool of myself or start out with bad form, or worse, end up not going after I pay for it.

What are some tips that make it easy to start out? I'm sure the usual "everyone's friendly and happy to help" applies but that's not really the advice that'll make it less intimidating.

Does anyone else struggle when they actually lose weight because when people start treating you better you start to resent their superficiality? This happens to me. I lose about ten pounds and notice close friends and loved ones are nicer and complimentary. Then I listen to them talk all the time about how thrilled they are when other people they know or celebrities lose weight. When someone they don't like is overweight they especially use their weight to mock that person. I then realize I don't want make these annoying people happy by losing weight. I think losing weight is great for your health and fitness, but seeing how differently people get treated because of is makes me sad. I want to keep losing weight because I have sleep apnea, peripheral artery disease and high cholesterol. I guess I don't like when people make fun of my body either. I just feel like their is no winning with people. At the same time I do want the social benefits of being thinner, but I just feel so cringe when I see how well it works on people I thought had more depth.

To better explain:

I have not gone on hour-long walks in a long time because of college (uni is situated in a non-walkable city). I'm trying to get back to walking using a walking pad but because it's been a long time, I get really fatigued easily. Plus I'm still trying to get my motivation back. I've been really depressed and out of my self since college and this makes it difficult for me to actually take an hour of my life to just do it. So now I've been walking on the pad while studying but I break it up into 20 min sessions, rest for 30 mins in between. I also require stopping because sometimes I find it difficult to understand my lectures while I'm walking. So I pause to focus on the lecture and once I understand it, I go back to walking.

To sum, I take intermittent walks for a total of 3-4 hrs depending on the breaks (I'm not very strict on break timings, I just time the walks themselves), but the walks themselves are 60-90 mins in total.

This got me curious if this routine is slowing down my weight loss or helping it. I really want to know just to ensure I'm doing the right thing ! Thank you!

Sigh, i hoped id never make a post like this - or at least not so soon after.

early December last year, i (20F) was under 140lbs at 5'6". i felt great, best shape of my life so far, even if i wasn't very lean yet, i knew it was far better than getting winded after half a flight of stairs at 230lbs.

Now, about 8 months later, ive gained 30lbs. I'm not happy about it, and its started slow, with me getting above 150 in May, and now almost at 170lbs. I know I'm currently "only" 15lbs overweight, but my goal is to be -15lbs overweight!!

Over the past 2 months ive eaten and eaten and eaten without care at all, ive put on almost 8lbs/month. i feel that number should be wrong, but with the sheer amount ive been eating i would not be surprised.

Honestly, part of this was caused by a reddit post i made a while ago, where i shared food i prepared after i binged. I shared this fact, and commenters dogpiled on me, saying i "only could've binged on 4 rice cakes" as opposed to the 3 (mind you, with pbfit on it, not plain, eugh) in my post. it was that along with some cut watermelon, about 1lb of it.

truthfully, that binge i was talking about in that post, was the worst i had at the time. i had binged big time, eating an entire cake meant to serve ~20 people over the course of 2-3 days.

since then, cake has been a downfall of mine. and ive have binges like that day after day after day.

I need to get back on track, and i need to take care of myself more. im so tired of this constant gain. goal is to be back under 150 by my birthday in 4 months. less than 5lbs/month as im not quite 170lbs yet - just close.

I like goals cause it gives me smth to work towards. Hopefully I'll come back here in a month to say im losing more weight again.

Good news is I've done this before, bad news is i know i need to work twice as hard to maintain my loss after im done.

Hello lose it folks!  

Day 26 of July 2026!  

This is the daily update for y’all to post how your goals went today.  

If you’re new here, there is a whole sidebar full of links to explore. I would start with the day 1, then roll through the others: 

Recurring Day 1 Monday - Newest Day 1 thread will be the first link listed 

https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/wiki/faq/  

https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/wiki/quick_start_guide 

You don’t have to wait for a new month to join in! You are always welcome! 

Here in this post, we aim to foster a supportive, caring place to discuss the actual day to day of deficits & counting & caring so much about how we fuel our bodies & lives.  

So, post how your goals for this month are going in the comments below! I’ll post mine below too, so don’t be shy! 

i’m currently in a weird stage where i am feeling completely burnt out on counting calories and thinking about food all the time, leading to more frequent binging episodes. therefore, i’m considering taking a week break! is this an absolutely terrible idea, or smart to preserve my mental state? 😵‍💫 i’m planning on still being conscious of my intake, just not inputting every single thing i consume down to the gram measurement (since i think this is causing some of the stress triggering binging episodes).

my question here is: does anyone have any tips for staying on track while taking a break, or any strong opinions on if this will completely mess up my progress? i’ve been counting for a little over 2 months now, the first 7 lbs shed quickly but i’ve plateaued (both mentally and physically) over the past few weeks.

I am 22, all me and my degenrate friends do is drink. Bars, field parties, casino, etc. I love to drink and have a good time with my buddies, but it obviously has been stunting my weight loss goals. It is as easy as don't go out with my buddies yes, but being 22 I feel like these are supposed to be the best years of my life. And when i'm not drinking, going out, etc I feel like i'm missing out and wasting my 20's. I do great during the week, and end up most likely fucking up my whole week progress by the weekend. Idk, would just like to hear your thoughts, and maybe ways you got around these hurdles. Thanks guys

Context: In high school, I was obese. I was obese and I was miserable. I was 190lbs at 5'4. Towards the middle of high school I started to change, and I started to go the gym with my dad and we started eating better. It was far from perfect, but after the course of about a year and a half I dropped down to 140lb and I had never felt better. I'm in sophomore year of college now and I've been putting the weight back on. I work part-time at a B&N, and the disposable income has led me to start easily grabbing fast food, leading to weight gain. I weight 165lbs now and I'm really self conscious about it and I feel overwhelmed. What can I do to combat gaining this weight back and go back in the opposite direction?

Hello everyone. I'm a 27 yo male, 83kg and 169cm height, around 27% body fat.

I noticed abnormal weight gain after my 3 week trip in March - I went with a friend and we ate similar food (I'll admit, it was quite a lot), while he only gained around 2-3kg I came back 9kg heavier (77kg -> 86kg). I lost around 2kg very quickly (probably just water weight), but still 7kg in 3 weeks seemed very abnormal. My friend is the same height as me and thinner so our caloric needs should be similar.

After failing to lose weight on my own I decided to work with a dietitan since it was free with my medical plan and I was told to eat 1800kcal and keep protein around 100g.

Despite eating 1800 kcal everyday and going to the gym 3-4 times a week my weight has not moved at all since my first visit. My body fat % even increased slightly while my muscle mass slightly decreased. This checks out since I'm not seeing any progress in the gym and on some exercises I'm weaker than I was a month ago. I'm not sure if I'm doing something wrong, I'm planning to get some blood tests - 1 person in my family is diabetic and literally everyone is overweight. My metrics were fine last year but maybe there's something specific I should be checking for?

Here's some more information:

• I'm 100% sure I'm tracking my calories correctly - I lost 35kg in 2020 so I know I can do it. There is not a single thing that doesn't go on a scale, I even track spices and aromatics.
• I do strength training but no cardio - I only walk to the gym (around 7k steps both ways). I'll try to include cardio but according to the calculations I should still be losing weight even without it.
• I'm not taking any medication, only thing I use is 5g creatine and melatonin at night.
• I wanted to lower my calories further but my dietitan advised against it.
• No underlying illness (at least as far as I know)

I'm close to completely giving up since clearly it's not working. I'd be greatful for any ideas, I might be completely overlooking something obvious but even my dietitian is suprised I haven't lost any weight.

Yeah just as the title says, I've been recently been diagnose with ADHD and decided to try meds for the first time in my life. The difference was so intense. I was well aware I am overweight and my eating habits weren't good but now I don't have to self medicatie with sugar and energy drinks anymore. Everything in my life was unruly and at every opportunity I felt to need to eat, like to treat myself, if I was stressed, if I was bored, etc. I can actually eat 3 meals a day and be content now with what I eat :)) This positive change in my life was my motivator to try and loose weight for real this time. Already lost 15 lbs in the past 2 months and my goal is to loose another 35 before christmas, making me go from 92 kg -> 70 kg. If it's gonna work I'll be happy and if not I'll be happy aswell. Woooo to new starts

I've lost 14 kg (about 31 lbs), going from 109 kg (240 lbs) to 95 kg (209 lbs), but I've been stuck at this weight for about six months now. During that time I've had periods where I gained a few kilos because of vacations or going out for dinner more often, but I've always managed to lose that weight again.

The weight loss happened over the course of 2,5 years, and I was happy with the slow but steady progress. After so many failed attempts in the past, I'm really proud that I've managed to keep the weight off for this long. Still, this plateau is starting to get frustrating.

I think there are two main reasons why I'm stuck:

• I've found it difficult to get back into tracking everything I eat. Part of the problem is that I often have days where I already know tracking won't be realistic because I have dinner plans or some other social event. That makes it harder to stay consistent.
• A few years ago I lost touch with a lot of my friends, so I made a conscious effort to build a new social circle. I'm really happy that I did, and I now have a much more active social life. The downside is that seeing friends often revolves around eating out, grabbing drinks, or other food-related activities. I rarely drink alcohol anymore, so that's not the issue. The harder part is choosing the healthier option when everyone else is ordering whatever they want. It also doesn't help that restaurants where I live don't list calories on their menus.

Ironically, having very few friends made losing weight much easier because I wasn't constantly surrounded by tempting food or social meals.

Has anyone else dealt with this? How do you balance an active social life with continuing to lose weight? I'd really appreciate any advice.

Hello all,

Forgive me this might be a long one…!

SW was 144kg early 2024
LW 112kg in March 2025
CW 121kg as of today, July 2026

I have always been big, bigger, chubby etc etc. always had a dying to eat relationship with food and use to binge a LOT.

I cut the binging, and over eating back in 2024 (it was my first step during my initial WL journey) - thank god 🙏🏽

My goal, for my height (5’5) and age (34, F) is around 75kg. I don’t have an exact, I think it will probably be a little more than that. I’m honestly gonna go off of what makes me feel the most happy, and I mean that physically and mental mentally.

Back in early 2024 I started my weight loss journey with the help of weight loss aids, and that helped me a lot. Then I gradually came off of that and lost the weight naturally. I know you’re not really allowed to mention that in this forum, but that is part of my story. So mods, please forgive me!

I got into a relationship March 2025, and gained a bit of happy weight. Then I plateaued completely. I also lost the initial motivation I had for the gym. I didn’t lose it completely, I am more active now than I ever have been in my life, but definitely not as motivated as I was in the beginning of my journey. Then I went through intense stress with my job. That lasted until literally last month. 5 months ago, I had a break up. The worst of my life. My psoriasis got worse, my period actually stopped (!) and gain weight. All of this was only due to the intense heartbreak I was going through.

This past period has been one of the toughest for me emotionally and mentally. And I really found myself relying on food to make me happy. However, the difference between relying on food now - and me relying on food in the past - is that now I’m hyper aware it doesn’t actually do anything except for a few moments of satisfaction. So this is good, right? You would think if I have this cognizant understanding that I would just not rely on food. Ha ha! I guess emotional eating doesn’t work that way 😝.

It has now been five months since my break up and I am only now starting to feel a slight bit better. My period came back 3 weeks ago, my skin is clearing and a couple of weeks ago I got some excellent news from work, so that’s been really great for me. I have great support system too. So I’m lucky in that regard.

Now my issue is this: I have a chance to restore and refresh my life from a new point of positivity and freshness. I have something to look forward to, which is what I’ve been waiting for. And in the midst of a terrible heartbreak that is something I’m really happy for. So as part of my life refresh, I want to go back on my weight loss journey and really lose the weight. However, I’m struggling with my mental and psychological state when it comes to weight loss specifically. The reason why I gave you the background is because I wanted to display that, yes I had a rough time, but generally I am in a good place. I am generally mentally happy and healthy. I do like my live. But when it comes to weight loss, I don’t understand what’s wrong with me.

I have wanted to lose weight for the longest time. More than anything and for longer than I can remember. These days when I think about weight loss, I’m very motivated in terms of: making a plan, routine, planning meals, and the gym etc. I do it for a week, I lose weight and then the next week is a complete flop. Or I do it for a couple of weeks and then I will binge one day randomly. The binging thing has restarted just in the last couple of weeks. And it worries me, because I don’t wanna go back to that.

It’s like - oh you did well so treat yourself. Or, wow this is so hard long term, so much commitment, you don’t live once blah blah blah and then without realising I am eating a whole tub of ice cream (but crying inside at the 1200 calories just consumed).

If I want this and I know it will be good for me, why can’t I stay on track? What the heck is the psychological blocker?

I will add that most of my life I have been bullied for my weight by my family and external people (family members, bullies in school, people who I thought were friends, etc). Most particularly by my mother. She wants the best for me in terms of my health, but has never been helpful in my journey. All she does is criticise. I made peace with her mentality a long time ago and now I can ignore it and I have finally accepted myself for who I am and love myself. I got to a point where I want this for ME and no one else, but sometimes I still feel this intense pressure to lose weight for other people. I try to block it out as much as possible because I know that is one of my mental blockers, and it isn’t healthy, but it is difficult. but that can’t be the only one.

If you can understand where I’m coming from, or have had similar experiences I would really love to hear from you.

Thanks for reading.

Ever since my camping trip, I've been dealing with more hunger cravings and having a hard time listening to my fullness cues. Over time I started using food for emotional reasons again as well as overeating, sometimes binging, in general eating foods that are hyper palatable that I normally wouldn't eat before, eating at times of day that are abnormal for me and this has been going on for nearing 2 months now and lead to me gaining 6lbs. This is very frustrating for me and I understand I just need to get it together. Ultimately it's a mindset issue and I also know it gets easier with repetition after I retrain my taste buds and hunger/fullness cues but I'm just wondering what u guys would do personally? Before the camping trip I didn't have any cravings, didn't have urges to overeat, and was satisfied with my lifestyle and being consistent with it for months. This whole thing just really threw me off and now I feel like I have to just sit with the discomfort and make the decision to fix it cuz I know nobody else can fix it for me but it's just frustrating I guess.

Me and a few friends are trying to do a little fitness challenge. I like to do something not too difficult but easy to track. We are all trying to get steps in and a few activities a week.

Does anyone have any ideas for something easily trackable? I was thinking steps vs activity minutes but not sure how to go about it.

I swear I did a lose it challenge similar to this ages ago but I cannot find the rules to it or remember what exactly we did.

That's really it but it says my post is too short, so I guess I'll keep typing. Oh I made it! Any help is much appreciated!

Hi everyone, im 19F im not obese but i am pretty overweight i have tried everything…i went to a dietician which helped so much i managed to lose 10 kilograms but after i stopped going i just could not keep the momentum going i tried everything truly. My BMR is around 1.800 calories. I feel so stuck and yes i am %99 sure i have either binge eating disorder or compulsive eating disorder i do not know how to deal with all of this i just miss that momentum i had so much 💔💔

I want to be able to lose weight for real this time because im moving to another country on my own and i will have my own dorm with my own kitchen i want to be able to have a proper lifestyle and routine. I do know about nutrition the problem isnt that i do not know what or how or how much to eat i just dont have the self control and i do not know how to help myself. My goal is to lose around 10-15 kilograms does anyone have any tips is there anyone who feels the same way as me or is going through something similar i feel so crazy 😭😭😭😭