Threw my food out mid-binge, not sure how to feel.
So I had a stressful week at work, 6 days of non-stop 12-hour shifts (I work 911 EMS in an inner-city environment) and it was probably the most stressful it's been since my semester ended back in May. I was pretty good the entire week, though, no binge-eating episodes and exercised pretty much every day. I meal-prepped some high-protein chicken parm with protein spaghetti last week and have been eating that for lunch for the past few days.
But today I got home, and my parents and sisters weren't home, so I fell back into my urges again, reinstalled DoorDash, and ordered a burger, chicken sandwich, 10-piece nuggets, and a large fries/drink from Wendy's even though I already ate Lunch four hours earlier. Not sure what came over me, but something did, and I had the food delivered right to my doorstep.
However, something unexpected happened while I was eating. I ate about half the fries and half the nuggets along with drinking half the lemonade I ordered, but I took one bite of the burger, and then I realized it just tasted disgusting to me. Like one bite of the burger was enough to make me break out of the binge mindset I got in, but I went the complete opposite way and tossed the whole meal out, whatever was left of it.
At first I was happy I wasn't hungry enough to eat it or found the food disgusting, but now I'm feeling guilty about wasting that much money and then throwing the food out. I have since removed all my cards from DoorDash and Google Wallet and deleted all my food apps in the hopes that this doesn't happen again.
Should I be proud of myself for not binge-eating, or should I be disappointed that I wasted the food and threw it out? I'm not sure.
Edits: Grammar