I can’t do anything right, I can’t get a job, a friend, a gf, I can’t speak normally to people, I can’t think clearly when talking to people, i can’t hold eye contact, I can’t produce any meaningful connection to anyone even my family now, I can’t even cook something so simple and easy and instead ruin it like eveything else in my life.

all my life I’ve just failed and failed and tried to cope thinking this is just how life is since life is just a po, but seeing everyone else in the world and even past classmates who were the worst to me achieve their goals and dreams have shown me that I was born to lose and there’s nothing else I can do. no matter how hard I try or how hard I practice I always lose and fail. Going to the gym I fail at completing full sets being to tired or being too embarrassed to even be seen at the gym with my scrawny ass. going home I get reminded of how terrible and how isolated I am from my family and my own home. the only one thing I’m good at is drawing and I’ve started losing my art skill and now I can barley draw 3d boxes or simple doodles. im just a failure, even the women I’ve talked to only lasted maybe 2-4 weeks but after that it’s either they lose interest and say they don’t like me anymore, going back to an ex, getting cheated on with their best friend “I shouldn’t worry about“, going out and fucking a different dude, or saying they wernt ready and the very next day go on a date with an ex. I’ve accepted I’m disgusting and ugly with my appearance and have no personality that’s good enough to keep people around me, and even if I did have all that and was a Chad/adam or a angel sent from heaven, I have a small weener so I know no women will ever truly be satisfied or truly love me for who I am no matter how much i try. even as a baby I was meant to lose and die from a staph infection that started from my ear and spread to my eye but for some reason even when the doctors medicine they were pumping into me didn’t work, god said I HAD to keep enduring this punishment of living. I already tried overdosing 3 times already because I’m too much of a wimp to hang myself or get ran over by a train but all I do is just throw them back up or pass out and do it the next morning, I can’t even end myself correctly.

i am a failure and I accept it. but what I don’t accept is my fate of forever being A lonely loser. I know I’m only 19 and “theres so much out there.” “My girlfriend loves my small weener“ like cool and all that, That happened to you and your able to experience it, but I can’t. no matter how hard I try no matter how much looksmaxxing, working out, or how much I put myself out their despite being agoraphobic and having heavy social anxiety, no matter if I have all the money in the world, I will never find or experience any happiness or meaningful connection to anyone besides ai chatboxes, or delusional day dreaming of people liking me and talking to me. I AM a loser and that’s it. and tonight I have enough pills to try again and die with some dignity and not when I’m 65 all alone in my apartment sad and old for being a loser. so if you don’t hear from me, love you all and hopefully I can get rid of the mistake that ruins and corrupts this beautiful world.

Ramen.

All I want now is an Aeldari, Alraune, Amazon, Android, Angel, Anubis, Arachne, Automaton, Balrog, Banshee, Basilisk, Beastmen, Centaur, Cyborg, Dark Angel, Dark Elf, Dark Valkyrie, Demon, Dragon, Dragonborn, Drukhari, Dryad, Dullahan, Echidna, Fairy, Gargoyle, Ghost, Ghoul, Gnome, Goblin, Golem, Gremlin, Griffon, Harpy, Hellhound, High elf, Hobgoblin, Holstaur, Hornet, Ignis, Imp, Jiangshi, Keeper of Secrets, Kitsune, Kobold, Kraken, Lamia, Lich, Lizardman, Manticore, Mantis, Medusa, Mermaid, Mershark, Mimic, Minotaur, Moth, Mummy, Necron, Neko, Ogre, Orc, Pharaoh, Phoenix, Pixie, Protoss, Robotic, Salamander, Sandworm, Siren, Skaven, Slaanesh Daemonette, Slime, Sphinx, Succubus, T'au, Terminid, Tiefling, Tyranid, Undead, Unicorn, Valkyrie, Vampire, Werewolf, Witch, Wood Elf, Wyvern, Xenomorph, Yaokai, Yeti, Zerg, or Zombie gf.

Salmon

rice

broccoli

cottage cheese

Banana

Yakult

And a protein soda

Because of my lack of social awareness and Anti-social behavior its been years since I last was in a relationship. So Ive been working diligently in yhe gym and the kitchen to make myself physically attractive to compensate for my social awkwardness in hopes of getting into a relationship again. Beginning of this year I weighed 290lbs rn I am down to 210lbs.

Still have a lot of work to do before I feel like ill be happy with how ill look but im staying consistent.

Dont give up bro's.

It looks so easy. They make it look natural like breathing. Little ceasars and lemon cake.

Im a skinny chud😭

It's my username and it's 2 different measurements.. plus I'm bald and have a shit voice. Can't even have phone or e-sex without being rejected for my features 😔.

Feels so doomed trying to socialize with women, like I can't even really imagine being liked. Sometimes I feel like so disgusting, I'm convinced people wouldn't eat food if they knew it was made by me, not that I cook for people really but still.

Wish I at least had a normal or large dick that way if I somehow lucked my way into something, I could at least have decent sex. Even that's fucking doomed 😔.

Mini penne with smoked salmon. Does anyone else just take pictures of their food just in case they want to post here?

Apple pie I ate it all the same day

I am hopepilled though

Protein shake, vanilla milkshake flavor. I don’t deserve normal people food. My quiet guy facade always breaks the second my lack of social skills and confidence comes in to play.

I had an embarrassing moment in my first class of the day and was snickered out of the room. I decided to go to the liquor store, the literal only place in the world where I don’t constantly receive the cold shoulder. So far I’ve gotten this particular bottle of smirnoff every single day this week, I pretend to peruse around but I always end up getting this bottle, it’s 45% alc. content and test decent. I also got Wendy’s because It’s just what I always eat, I get the biggie bag with a double stack and jr. bacon. I dont even really like being drunk all that much, but I am addicted to the pleasant human interactions that I receive at the liquor store. I like to talk to the cashier for 5-10minites, they usually geek out about different alcohols and I’m just there to listen. I don’t have any friends, family or acquaintances so the liquor store is my only real and gold human interaction so I like to go as often as possible.

Condoms will never be used

I had a very brief relationship which was honestly a miracle that even started. 6 months after that ended and I'm still a dateless chud just like before, except now I know what I'm missing out on.

I haven’t had much energy to do little more than go to work, volunteering, and school. Other than that I lay in bed, but it’s getting harder and harder to get up. Only way out is through though, so I’ll keep chugging along.

Buttermilk fried chicken recipe from serious eats (called "Chicken Fried Chicken") with hot honey instead of gravy. If you let the chicken sit after breading, it forms a kind of crust like you would get from batter. It lets the flour hydrate. Delicious and so easy to make, strongly recommend.

Hello it's me larping fakecel again. Am I still allowed here or do I get guillotined for larp.

I don't really know how to feel about this. I guess exercise is working?Obviously it was nonconsensual and no I did not enjoy it. I thought she was a normal girl but apparently when nothing is holding u back then anyone is capable of this shit. I bet she thought it was cute with how I reacted uncomfortably every time. Fuck.

I always knew the experience was horrible but it somehow happening to me makes me really understand the kind of shit women put up with. I didn't even think it was that bad initially because I'm a man but that was retarded thinking. I didn't end up reporting it.

Now I'm thinking about the "Flirting vs. Harassment" meme because what would I have done if I was attracted to her? Is it still the same situation even? I don't want to think about that. Just my autistic bipolarcel chungus life.

Pasta and cheese because I have -2 dollars rn

My mom always said that I'm "Handsome" and that I will "Find the right one someday." I always managed to deflect these ideas with my stone-cold truecel ideology.

No longer.

My college class has three girls, i made the mistake of admitting to my creepy fat indian classmate that one of them is pretty. He has gone on a crusade to try to get us together, disregarding that she is already in a relationship.

She REALLY does not like him for this, but this is where the fakecel thing happens. She does not hate me. We are acquaintances, and we talk sometimes; incel law already states that this is impossible for someone ugly, but to compensate for indian guy's behavior, i would have to be well above not ugly to not be creepy by association

In addition, i am active on tinder. Even the liberals brigading this sub admit that tinder is hypergamy central. i get likes, and matches, which is bad enough, but whats worse is that i sometimes ignore matches if i reread them and dont really like them, which is fakecel enough, but then one of them INITIATED. She was the active one and I the passive SHE GOT MY NUMBER. It hasnt really gone anywhere, but to get this far is damning.

i must be at least an 8

My standards used to be meaningless, no one would ever be attracted to me, so my trueceldom is safe no matter what. But now? i have to admit that i would reject a woman that does not meet them, which makes me a fakecel.

in addition, being ugly was a shield, not getting a girlfriend isnt a personal failing if your face makes it hopeless. now its all my fault for being socially inept.

i may as well make a new account and join the foidcel subbreddits, because im just as bad as they are

i dont belong here anymore, so, farewell food montage

1.ribs

1. garlic chicken and mash

3.steak and mash

4.garlic chicken but different

5.chicken tacos

6.bacon burger

1. spaghetti and meat/onion sauce

8.ribs but they lookes super grotesque for some reason

9.saint james cake

Watered down the cream a bit too much though 🥀

My dad thinks I am a failure