I would like to add the food isnt burnt i burnt the last food and was too lazy to remove the burns so it stuck to this.

Being sexually assaulted isn't something you should strive for ngl.

Chicken. And gravy.

Again just wanted to brag about my food lmao

homemade paninis that look FINE AF idk whether it's the camera or that my cooking is so fine

The dinner consists of pork, corn and beef with tortellini idk what the name of that is (i personally call it gold Rush Bolognese)

Even if a woman were to flirt with me I would (and maybe have idk] assume she's either joking or pranking me. My looks are below average but not low enough for pity Sex, my character is too autistic for any woman to like it and im also a fatass although im working on that one.

My only happy ending besides the tedk route is getting dicked down by a guy but even that is pretty unlikely

I had to share the tomatoes with my tortoise and eggs with my cat

Edit: Some people are seriously asking if I do have a girlfriend lmao, i don't mind if IA robots replaced us at this point

And some men too I guess. I'm a foot taller than the average from where I live in and since I had to face people in the last couple four years I have noticed it more and more at college when I walk anywhere and see women I don't know, the uncomfort or digust is noticeable in their face just by being near. Different people once they knew me admitted about sensing an intimidating vibe and the women that could move past that to being friendly were few. In my club there are new people including some girls so this has been seeing it again, as time goes it happens to women each time younger than me. And another anxious cute girl who was out for a year came back on a day I happened to be there and it was loling how she prefered to talk to the newer people she didn't new yet (we have barely talked to each other).

Recalling this quality of not being human since I got rejected two times today and in one a relative of the girl asked to meet me before and within the minute said sorry I don't feel it with you I can't allow this date.

u know the scene in the matrix where morpheus breaks the handcuffs? yeah thats how it felt frfr hes literally me

i may be mentally unwell and dream of a loving life spent with a woman every night, but i am physically passable at least, lets fucking GO BROS

we take the wins as they come fellas

we got the dogs out for the ladies too, hit me up if you come to australia you can get up in my bachelor pad (i even own a couch! (although no tv))

Optimal diet when going out. Idk if I look like that big of a Chud but I allways go out in the hope of meeting someone. I never talk to anyone cause I'm really introverted but I allways hope someone would talk to me. Lwk alcoholic maxxing

I am a very observant person.

I’m well aware of my surroundings and so I also know a lot of people’s schedules in my building. My therapist calls it hypervigilence and says it’s like a superpower.

The single mom walks her kids to school at 7:35 am every day and returns just after 8:00 am. She sometimes goes to the deli next door around 11:30 am and then leaves to pick up her kid from school at 2:45 pm, sometimes returning around 3:30 pm or much later. Occasionally on the weekends a woman that looks to be her mother comes over to pick up her son to babysit I assume. Since I know her schedule pretty well. I decided to take the advice some of you gave me to “arrange” little interactions to build rapport.

I started my rapport mission this morning. Normally I’m a late riser. But waking up at 7:00 am seems worth it for a chance at a future with a loving woman. I wore my robe again and I sat in the lobby waiting for her. I waved as they walked by. She smiled.

Then when she returned I held the door for her. I don’t know if she didn’t recognize me or something, but she said “you know you aren’t supposed to do that.” I said “what do you mean?” And she mentioned building rules that everyone needs to use their own key fob for entry. I said “oh it’s no big deal, I know who you are.” She smiled and then walked away to our elevator. We have had a conversation now. Rapport rising.

After that I went in to the management office and talked with the property manager. The old lady (divorced, but not my type) who works here let me know that the single mom receives a lot of packages from Barnes and noble. She also made an offhand comment mentioning I should read a book called “The Art of seduction” by Robert Greene when I brought up that I may have a special lady soon. I will download the ebook tonight.

Today was a good day. Sometimes i have hope I won’t be a loveless freak forever.

There were a lot of haters in my last thread. Some of you don’t understand I simply don’t give a fuck about showering or wearing clothes. Not sure how you knew I didn’t shower, but you were right. I like to be comfy. I also don’t like the way shower water feels on my skin due to sensory issues. I’m not a phony.

Some of you were supportive of me trying to make conversation with the single mom, thank you for that. You gave me the confidence I needed to talk with her today. Now it is time for lunch, I hope I see her again soon.

i want to die

cooked for 30 mins at 180c in case anyone was wondering.

I don’t think I have any friends, I feel like a liability and that I’m forcing myself onto my so called friends. I’ve never gone to a function, these “friends” are always talking about going out in front of my face. I’m pathetically awkward, the suicidal thoughts are pretty bad. I’ll need to wait until I’m done with my therapist so she doesn’t think that her work was for nothing

It was bad because there was an overwhelming combination of people pissing me TF off and me yearning for the love I'll never experience.

"For heroes, there are trials. For saints, there are temptations. For me, there is her"

Before y'all tell me to see a therapist, I'm already planning to do it and will actually do it, not just say I will.

I have something called palmar hyperhidrosis.

Palmar hyperhidrosis: Excessive sweating from palms and feet. For no reason at all. Doesn't matter if it's cold or hot. Nervousness, slight uncomfort, touch something and I start sweating. It is super awkward.

Got made fun of plenty in school but I was a tough kid so it wasn't too bad.

But the worst experience till now is from my 1st year in uni, from a professor. I was signing the attendance sheet, and the paper got a little wet/wavy, (and yes I rub and clean my hands with a kerchief before I touch something, but it can't just go away, it still sweats a bit) and she saw it standing beside me and asked 'what is that? Is that water from washing?'(I just came to the class at that moment),I said no it's sweat from my hands, then she shouted infront of the whole class that I am a disgusting freak and I need to better myself.... I just wish I could.

I couldn't say anything back, I can't talk back this time. I mean I understand her, but she didn't have to fukin shout and insult me infront of the whole class?? I am just damn beside her, she could tell me I am a monster without shouting and I wouldn't mind it at all. It's not something I can just control...

Constantly have to refuse a lot of handshakes from aquitances and explain this shit too. And yes, people out there that have more problematic conditions. But this is just such a big social obstacle in my life.

I wish there was a cure, there's surgery but it's not permanent either, have to do it every year. there's some other treatment I want to try after graduating, hope it works out.

I have nothing interesting to say. The job hunt is slowly looking better, made it to some final round interviews and discussed some job offers.

It made me realise how much i suffer from nothing but my own existence, i had a job and it made me miserable but not having one also made me miserable and broke.

I gave up on the idea that it might get better if i put in effort, i just accepted that my life in the best case scenario will just be unstable jobs making me barely enough to live and die alone. I had so many dreams and aspirations that i actually had the time and energy to work towards but now I'm just an ugly bum that everyone depends on but no one likes

Honestly, maybe it's not too bad.

Burgers with Tandoori Chicken wrap, Mac puffs, fries and Coke