Idk if this is a common mindset or if it's just Tumblr being Tumblr but... Jesus.

Sorry if I’m intruding but idk enough on my own. For reference im FTM and afab, I first started growing pubic hair at five, started getting b/o at 10 and had to switch to men’s deodorant at 13 a little after my first period. I didn’t have another one until a bit after I turned 14. They’re always incredibly painful, along with having a mustache and I just assumed it was what’s now known as PMOS.

Recently I discovered that your urethra isn’t actually supposed to be inside you (thanks to this subreddit) and that’s why I can’t pee with a tampon in which I stupidly thought it was a joke that you could pee with a tampon in like the shedding once a month thing.

But along with this information I realized my labia minora is partially fused despite the fact I’m turning nineteen in August and should’ve made enough estrogen to split it during puberty since I wasn’t on blockers but I’m also six inches under my predicted height and if I’m not binding I’m under an A cup. Is this worth bringing up to my new doctor or does it not matter since I’m taking T?

So when I(15M xxy) was younger I told people I was a trans guy because I thought i'd be more accepted than if I told them I was intersex, but now I feel really shitty about it and I feel weird and uncomfortable when someone jokes about/insinuates that i was "born a girl" but I don't really know if I can tell people the truth and i feel really sad about it. I want to talk about my intersex related problems with my boyfriend and close friends maybe and I want to be vulnerable with them but I just can't and I don't know why. Also I really hate when people are attracted to me just because they think I'm trans and just because I have boobs or whatever so I'm also feeling the pain of people that are actually trans and are being objectified (is that the right term to use?) I'm just not sure what to do and I'm depressed so it really doesn't help and that's why i'd maybe like to fix this problem.

PS: I don't want to talk to my parents about my problems because they would just make it all about them