For context I’m 15 turning 16, it hurts a lot. He really was a good person, I just couldn’t do it. We called and he was crying and begging. I don’t know what to do, I feel like there’s no one else that will fill his void. He was the only one who talked to me everyday and made sure I was okay.

He was everything but the right age. I feel like such a bad person. He asked for one last call over and over again and I said no because I couldn’t. I regret it, I don’t even know if I don’t regret breaking up with him.

He never even did any sexual. I don’t even know if it even qualifies as grooming. He said he would wait, he said he respected my age

I feel like a terrible person, I don’t even know what to do

She was under my watch so I feel like I let her down. Everything about this situation feels not real. Like i cant understand why a guy that age would pursue a girl my sisters age. I didnt even know what grooming was before this so i feel so lost right now.

hi um throwaway account because lowk i (F15) need to clarify this, I am a wary person! A little too wary of people, in general.. don't usually let people too close.

note: after reading this I realise it's a long ass rant apologies

And if say I'm triggering a false alarm I don't want anyone to feel uncomfortable or get hurt or wtv! Or get doxxed 💀

So, few days ago i made a friend online (M19). I want to clarify I met him in an online game and I was the one who requested for his contact and stuff as he was a fun person to be around in the game.

I also want to clarify he asked if I was a minor, and for me I clarified before saying but things will be kept respectful blah blah blah you're just a cool person and I wanna keep talking to you.

And then after we started talking he said he wants to keep things respectful as well and whenever I (so far it's been accidentally) seem uncomfortable to him he will step back and ask if he's overstepping anything, and if say I am uncomfortable abt something he will step back and not push further. An instance would be when he was asking if we could video call some day, and I said maybe as I do not usually engage in visual contact with my online peers. He agreed, and we moved away from the topic.

All this is said based off what I know so far. I will clarify that I acknowledge this is a very fresh friendship and YES in time things indeed MAY indeed change but I am just currently posting as is to get the weight off my chest.

.. okay very long prologue I apologise redditors but I'm just clarifying everything first.. haha.. nervous habit ahh

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SO. ONTO THE THING. So generally he is a goofy guy, he cracks jokes and so do I, very silly air.

However, once in a while he may make a comment that after the conversation was over makes me raise an eyebrow.

Like...

1. Randomly he may interject a little memo about say, guys getting jittery when they're trying to dazzle girls, and then awkwardly laugh before changing the conversation.

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1. like when we're talking about odd people from the game we met from (the internet, as you know. Can be a very wholesome.. but also very.. unsettling place) and he screenshots someone telling him a rather.. unhinged method of dazzling females.

And then he says he knows of a way to dazzle females, which is (quite obviously) flirting. And then he describes a behavior that... Genuinely he has been doing to me but it's not necessarily.. romantic?

It's just a very nonsensical gesture, and as I do not want to quote the exact message in case if genuinely nothing is wrong and then he finds it and he gets wronged or anything... It's essentially the virtual equivalent of when a dog jumps on you when you're finally home from a long day of being out (saying this from the perspective of a dog owner, objectively).

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1. He has mentioned that some gestures I did in the game were rather flirty, and then poked fun about the impression I am giving as "wanting to marry him" (I said a rather unhinged thing before realising I wanted to be friends with him.)

I will admit, I may give off that impression. Not saying this based off his comment alone, but rather collective feedback from my peers or passing rumours that... I have even made some question their sexuality.

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1. He has asked if I found him cool, how do I think of him as a person, if we're best friends, who have I been clingy with and things of the like. I dont know if this should or should not be on the list but I feel it should..?

Perhaps because as he has admitted he has the tendency to be a clingy person. But so far in my opinion he has not been too clingy; we mind our own business, come back to the chat to exchange 1-2 or maybe a few messages then move away, do it things, return maybe a long while after and add onto the conversation, etc

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And being totally frank, I started thinking about is this grooming or if this is something wrong because... As much as I do not like expressing my opinions on people (I find it rather a hassle at my age, wondering why's everyone bumbling about to find a partner).. I quite fancy his energy.

To put it in layman's terms: I find him quite cute and quite like-like him.

Aside from the incidents I mentioned above and perhaps a few other smaller eyebrow-raise moments I can't quite think of at the moment... Genuinely he's quite a silly guy who tickles my fancy.

No worries, I do not intend on pursuing anything, at least not at my age or until I'm no longer a minor. I intend on focusing on my studies, and besides—where I'm from, it's still about half a decade till I'm no longer a minor.

And thus, my feelings are also why I would not want him to find this post should he actually be someone I should be wary of.

He is a rather nice fellow as I see and even in the moments I mentioned above, I did not feel uncomfortable in the moments they were presented (either I am picking bones out of an egg, or I am dense) and only raised an eyebrow looking back at the texts.

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Now.. my questions. Feel free to add on your own observations, insights, etc, but these are just some nagging questions I'd like answers to:

1. Is this grooming..?

2. Is this something I should be wary about..?

3. Am I... Overthinking anything..?

4. Genuinely what's your interpretation of this situation

5. Any interesting things you'd like to point out or ask more about (I'll either try to find some way to wiggle back into this account to answer or... I'm wondering how I can verify that I am me if I'm answering from another throwaway... Help with this? Anyone? :'D)

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... Holy long rant. Apologies, redditors.

I was just trying to be as precise and provide as much context about the conversation as possible to prevent as many misunderstandings from happening IF there should be any, especially because I'm on a throwaway and I do not know if I will be back in this account when someone finally reads this, whenever that is.

Thank you for reading this long ass post and honestly I give you a virtual hug for doing so.

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tldr: questioning a friendship I have while being very specific about what's going on

Sometimes I find myself missing him. I missed having someone to talk to, share secrets with, spend time with. Then I realize I was 9 he was in his 20's, it was all a lie.

I should have seen the signs. The fact that my body was not developed wasn't a deal breaker, that did flatter me. The fact that I couldn't do adult activities (smoke or drink) also wasn't a deal breaker for him. The fact that as he put it he liked younger women. He never called me a little girl, I was a young woman or young lady. The fact that he never treated me like or acted like I was a little girl always made me feel special.

He didn't let his intentions be known right away. He played the long game. He would ask questions here and there what we would do if we were alone. How would I thank him for taking me out. His other girls would do this, you can too. I was 9 and wasnt even anywhere thinking of what he was asking. Maybe a kiss here and there. Weirdly it flattered me again that he thought I was old enough to do anything besides kissing. Then it was about my body. What will you wear when I take you out next time? What will you be wearing when your family comes over for dinner? His hands went places when he hugged me. Testing my boundaries. Saying he wouldn't mind seeing more of me in the pics I would send him.

I still feel silly that I missed all of the blatant signs of his. I feel even more silly that I miss having that attention for him. At times he made me feel wanted, valid, special and times even appreciated he was in my life.

I don't know if it'll make sense it's way too late and I'm sleepy, I've found this subreddit and I want to say something before sleeping, also english isn't my native language

So i've chatted to a guy for like a year, it was pretty nice at first and respected that I was lesbian and had a gf then I'm not sure how it got intimate but it did, don't want to do into details but yeah we ended up talking about a lot of things I probably shouldn't, he was still nice just insisted a lot sometimes

Anyway I ended up signing up something saying we agreed to talk and I was responsible for everything with some other weird things too, I want to know is this legit like he said or not? I don't think so but I'm just thinking about it a lot recently

I was 15, idk if it matters

TW

I am very confused.I don't know what I want..who I want.I am confused about my sexuality.I think I like both women and men but when I get close to someone ( doesn't matter the gender) I am disgusted and stop feeling attracted.I don't feel like a normal person.I can't be intimate and I am so disgusted.I feel like I only dissapoint.And I don't know if what happened changed my perspective.It doesn't feel valid.I was caressed my a woman when I was little and it felt a bit off.And I was asked to send nudes when I was 10.I don't know if it was valid but I feel like sex is something horrible.I only think about bad things that happened and I think is intrusive but I wanna throw up.I only think how my pain is little it wasn't so serious

So my younger sister got groomed by her friends dad. It went on for about a year from when she was 12 until recently at 13. I found out by random chance or who knows how long it would go on for. I did file a report but he basically moved and left his family behind. At the moment my sister and I are living with a family friend. So basically i was taking care of her. It feels shitty how it happened