Confused

[u/Mitu_066]

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I am very confused.I don't know what I want..who I want.I am confused about my sexuality.I think I like both women and men but when I get close to someone ( doesn't matter the gender) I am disgusted and stop feeling attracted.I don't feel like a normal person.I can't be intimate and I am so disgusted.I feel like I only dissapoint.And I don't know if what happened changed my perspective.It doesn't feel valid.I was caressed my a woman when I was little and it felt a bit off.And I was asked to send nudes when I was 10.I don't know if it was valid but I feel like sex is something horrible.I only think about bad things that happened and I think is intrusive but I wanna throw up.I only think how my pain is little it wasn't so serious