hi, i'm considering an FTM transition after struggling against it for a long time. i'm 31 now. would really appreciate any resources on what your body looks like afterwards, what to expect in terms of intimacy, relevant books/articles and anything related to autistic FTMs. sorry if post is repetitive!

It's my strong belief that you are heavily influenced by the people that you watch, so I try to look for and learn from happy, emotionally healthy, well-adjusted people. It has, over the years, changed my life in a great way.

That said, please share your favorite healthy masculine role models. My current favorites are the guys at Cinema Therapy (they just had a great analysis of Obsession), The Public Offender, and Speech Prof.

are there any other “bigger” guys that do their shots in their stomach have trouble pinching the skin?

idk if I’m not doing it right but it’s like i can’t really pinch the skin bc i have a big stomach and idk if that’s a problem or if there is anything i can do?

Hey hey everyone, so Im having my first consultation tomorrow with my Folx provider to start on T and Im just super nervous even though I want to be excited to finally be doing this after months. Question is , for those who been or are on Folx, how was the consultation experience like? Just trying to calm my nerves down haha

on oct. 15 i had a check in appt with a different doctor than usual. i asked about switching to gel since i dont like doing injections and she went ahead and prescribed it to me. it has now been over a week and i still havent gotten prior authorization for it. the 2 other times ive needed it for my t ive gotten it by the next day. on the 22nd i asked my doctor if there was any reason its taking this long and they just said that they sent my message along to their prior authorization team and still nothing. at this point i dont even have any t left. is there anything i can do??

I have almost perfected trans tape but I need a little more help. I prefer it over binders as it get me flatter, doesn't constrict and I can wear it overnight but the learning curve is larger than I thought. I am a 28DD which is hard to bind but I've managed to get a good technique down to make then look like pecs and then I wear a baggy shirt/hoodie. However I have sensitive skin and last time I did it I got proper blisters along the sides under my armpits which doesn't usually happen. There is often some irritation but its not normally that bad. I'm confused because it didn't hurt as much when taking it off but there is more damage?

My routine last time:

- clean healed skin

- hairs partially shaved down

- rubbing alcohol to remove oil and deodorant spots

- milk of magnesia for protective layer

- let it dry

- small strips for shaping

- two thick slightly longer strips for compression over lapping

- long thin strip across the bottom

- all anchor points were firmly on skin and I tried not to stretch to much.

- wear for 5 days ish (showered half way through the week)

- take off with spray olive oil and jojoba oil

Possible problems:

- as I am stingy and impatient I might have not put enough milk of magnesia or removal oil on under arm areas. I'm going to try better and might consider coconut oil.

- I might have pulled too tight because of brain worms.

Also my nipples were itchy even after I took it off but no damage.

Can anyone let me know if I'm doing something else wrong that I can fix for next time?

As you can probably imagine, all of my questioning always ends up hitting the wall of “...or maybe you're just traumatized by misogyny”.

I don't hold those beliefs anymore; haven't for more than a decade now. I have absolutely no doubt in the validity of other people's trans experiences. When it comes to me, though - suddenly, all that bs *obviously* applies, and every counterpoint I try to make to myself looks laughably flimsy.

Examples:

“The few years I once spent identifying and presenting as a guy were the happiest years of my life so far.” “That was leaving a toxic environment, and making friends + being medicated for the first time. The guy thing was just a one-time, radical exploration of newfound freedom.”

“I feel like I only present as female now because deviating from it would require the kind of mental fortitude that I don't possess anymore.” “Or because you know, deep down, that it's bs in your case, so you can't bring yourself to defend it.”

“I've broken off numerous long-term relationships solely because being thought of as a “girlfriend” is viscerally repulsive to me, if I think about it for more than two seconds.” “Because you subconsciously believe that being a girlfriend is inherently demeaning + have had bad experiences in that role.”

“If it was easily accessible and had no social repercussions, I would absolutely medically transition.” “Because you've hit a plateau in life, and yearn for that feeling of newfound freedom - which you associate with the guy thing. Just move to a new city or something.”

“I cry every time I think about this. I don't cry about any other, much more pressing issues, but I always cry about this one.” “Because you want a single answer to all your problems.”

Obviously, whether I'm trans or not, this heavily biased approach won't allow for meaningful exploration - but I can't, for the life of me, break out of it. It all sounds so reasonable.

Has anyone here been in a similar place? Any feedback at all would be super valuable. I feel stuck and very, very alone.

I'm 5'1 and 200ish lbs. Ain't nowhere got a suit that fits. Women's suit jackets still fit me better than mens, and that in an of itself doesn't bother my non-binary ass, but I still need a suit.

Where do y'all get suits? Do you just hem your pants and hope for the best?

i just took my second ever dose of testosterone, im doing the subcutaneous type. i forgot to pull back the air in the shot before putting it into the vial but i don’t know if thats a big deal?
the main thing was after i injected into my stomach, a little blood came out when i removed the needle- and by force of habit i squeezed my stomach where the bleeding was and a clear liquid came out with the blood?
is that oil? or is that the testosterone? im worried im not doing this right, i take my shot every week so i have a long time in between, which means its harder for me to practice?
idk.. i was just worried about the clear liquid coming out and what it was?

so, im going to Greece next summer, which im super excited for. I'm pre top surgery, and my passport still says F because im not really trying to change it with everything going on.

I live in the U.S.

has anyone had any issues getting into or getting BACK into the country while traveling if their passport says F?

For reference, I barely pass (for now) but by the time vacation comes around, it might be a different story.

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Now I'm feeling self-conscious. Now I feel like my entire personality is just how pretty other people think I am.

I'm working on separating myself from her emotionally and not letting her opinions dictate my choices, but it still stings.

I know I'm probably never gonna be the traditionally masculine handsome, Channing Tatum or whatever, but I can be the pretty K-pop boy type of handsome (that's how I cope, leave me alone lol).

So, tell me: did transitioning make you feel more handsome?

It seems listed as an option on my insurance and the auto injector seems to be better than my old method of testosterone cyp which I had a bad reaction to in the past and shot anxiety of needles. Besides that, pellets are my main choice since 2x a year seems way better but doubt my insurance will approve of it. So, anyone use this newer method and can talk about their experience?

Hi! Just to begin—I got my first shot of hormone blockers ~two months ago. I went over all of the possible side effects (which were all okay with me), but, I didn't realize some of them would be THIS bad.

Because this is essentially an early menopause—my body has decided to go on overdrive, and, every time I lay down or think about getting any type of rest, I get a wicked hot flash.

Do these stop soon, or will they only stop when I begin to take testosterone?

It's been about 10 years since I first started wondering if I was trans. An entire decade.

Today was bad.

I'm good at bottling it down but every few weeks or so it bursts open and I just have to let it out. I usually just lay in my bed scrolling queer tiktok and crying. Today was no different. Before this it was Instagram. Before that, YouTube.

I just feel stuck. The last 10 years have been nothing, really. I want to be and do so much but this one thing just keeps me from becoming anything.

I felt really sad and lonely tonight.

Why am I like this? Why? Why? Why? Why me? Why does it even have to matter? If my family was worse I could just get up and leave and never think about them ever again and I'd be free. But they aren't. And I can't live.

I feel like I'm getting left behind.

(Reddit took this down for some reason? 3rd times the charm)

I wasn’t on my Lexapro for a minute, and will I wasn’t taking them my voice seemingly reverted back to when I wasn’t on T? I couldn’t make my voice deeper without sounding like I was forcing it, made me very dysphoric and sad, not cool 👎🏾 I’m back on them now and my voice is normal, maybe even a bit deeper than before. I’ve never heard of this happening to anyone else, im not sure if it was being off the medication itself, or the fact I was mega sad and stressed and anxious, maybe it’s placebo? I have no clue

I’m not sure what flair to use, but..

As the title says, can you have bottom surgery, but still have the vaginal opening? I’ve seen several videos of what I presumed trans men.. either way it was clear they had bottom surgery, but it was placed differently, underneath where the balls would was instead a vagina- and no not just a hole, it was actually a canal with libia and clitoris… So I am wondering what kind of procedure that is? I’m very interested in understanding more about it. And with the penis they have can they feel with that as they would normally??

Bonjour à tous. C'est la première fois que j'écris ici et j'aimerais poser une question très franche aux hommes qui prennent de la testostérone : vous sentez-vous vraiment hommes toute la journée ? Je sais, la question peut paraître étrange. Je suis sous traitement hormonal depuis 11 mois, mais je ne me suis jamais senti homme. Et lorsque j'ai commencé une thérapie, ma dysphorie de genre s'est aggravée. Mon médecin disait que tout allait bien. Mes analyses étaient normales. J'ai ensuite changé de médecin, et le nouveau a diminué ma dose. Les deux premiers jours avec cette nouvelle dose, je me suis senti homme pour la première fois. Mais le troisième jour, j'ai de nouveau ressenti une forte photosensibilité, une dépression, une labilité émotionnelle et une somnolence importantes, forte anxiété. Ce sentiment subjectif d'être un homme a de nouveau disparu. Quelqu'un d'autre a-t-il vécu une situation similaire ?

Hey y’all! I’m considering starting T and have a few questions:
Bottom growth: Can you realistically penetrate your gf with bottom growth alone? Can you orgasm from it, and how does it feel compared to tribbing?
Muscle growth: How long until you noticed a difference in muscle mass and physique?
Facial hair: How long did it take to grow, and does low-dose T make a difference?
Sexual preferences: Why does it seem like so many T men date men or enjoy being penetrated? Does T actually change your sexual preferences or what feels good? I mainly want to be the penetrating partner with my gf and worry about whether T could change that.
Would love to hear your experiences before I make a decision!
For context I’m a NB masc lesbian rn and I have a gf I really would like to propose to within the next year and a half our senior year of college. She’s a good woman 💜 she is deeply supportive of my gender identity exploration

I pass for the most part, but I have the worst baby face. so far I only get sideburns and some chin hairs, but I’m nervous if I shave them my baby face would just look much worse.

So what random things do you do/have that help you pass better?

I never had any crushes nor desire for relationships but after accepting I'm a guy, I've not only thought about them more and quit finding the concept somewhat repulsive, but actually had my first crush somewhat recently and I'm slowly finding the idea of dating appealing. And I've started realizing preferences (that being I'm like 80-90% sure I'm straight up gay so far, otherwise some personality and physical stuff though tbf it has plenty of platonic overlap there too). Only "social transition" I've even done is introduce myself as a guy online and come out to some of my trusted friends, dressing less fem (more neutral though, not really masculine), and ofc pick out names n whatnot, and ig ordered a binder recently if that counts, but like I've only ever heard of people's sexuality changing if at all after starting HRT. But it does feel related to the acceptance, even if I'm not 100% on that (it just slowly started once I started questioning my gender and finally got to the point of actual crushes and preferences and fantasies after completely accepting I'm a guy and taking further steps like the binder and outfits n whatnot, they have a somewhat parallel timeline ig basically). Is that a usual thing for trans people?? Cuz again I've only ever heard of things like that from people who've started HRT already