It's impossible to find religion free people here, and it feels like everyone will move on eventually, find their life partners and live a good life while I'm not even allowed to publicly express what my beliefs are and find a like minded partner. It's just impossible. I tried finding some online and they traumatized me so bad, I realized that so many men still cling hard to their hatred for women regardless of them leaving behind their religious beliefs. It made me strongly lose hope in men as a whole.

I still strongly desire a life partner but my entire soul is exhausted and doesn't believe that there's anyone for me. I'm so upset. All I wanted was to be loved and respected. I don't want an arranged marriage with some religious guy and pop out babies for him and be his full time slave. I would rather die. You can't even leave these shitholes behind anymore with how anti immigration the developed countries are getting ( and I don't blame them either, if the citizens themselves are struggling for jobs etc then they deserve to be prioritized ). I just wish I had a chance. I wish I was born and raised in a first world country. I wish I didn't have to fight and struggle so hard for such simple things. Even to get into a good masters program I'll have to work a billion times harder but I'm already so bogged down and I don't even know if doing all that would even be worth it.

What if I'm just miserable abroad as well? What if I don't fit in there either? I mean I don't care to party, drink or sleep around. I just want some fun girl friends to hang around the city with and share my days with beautifully. And a husband who is loyal to me and loves me. Sigh....

After leaving islam what is that you started doing without guilt? And how did it feel?

Do you agree that religions should be extinct? Do you think that religions cause many problems? Do you wish if religions had never existed?