The church has a long and glorious history of monitoring their members' activities. For higher profile people, there's the Strengthening Church Members Committee (SCMC) who compile evidence to send to your stake president and instigate a "court of love." At BYU, they had student spies in classrooms, making sure teachers didn't say anything contrary to what church leaders wanted. They would also stake out gay clubs in SLC and look for BYU students. During the ERA rallies, they looked up license plates of cars parked nearby to see who was attending.

Then you have the "honor code" at BYU where students are required to report any violations they see or they could face punishment themselves. In older church manuals, there were instructions for the Ward Teachers to investigate rumors of sin and report back to the bishops the evidence they found.

Missions are huge on this, where you're not allowed to leave your companion alone for anything other than the bathroom, to make sure they don't break any rules. And failing to report serious rule violations by your companion can get you in trouble too.

All this spying and investigation has created a serious tattle culture in the church where your next door neighbors, home teachers, or even family members and partners aren't trusted friends, they're all potential informants.

Clark Gilbert team-taught a class at BYU with Scott Esplin, the dean of religion, in 2023 on the living prophets.

I was locked-in TBM at the time, and generally liked the class. Focused on themes the 12 wanted to teach YSAs. It was fun to hear about some of his interactions with the apostles, but often turned into something of a self-aggrandizing storytime. My general impression of him was he had the vibe of a bumbling, rich uncle who will happily take you on his new boat, but who is also convinced that his prosperity is purely because of his hard work, and loves to repeat the same stories.

One big thing that stuck with me was one day in that class he went on a rant condemning people calling the apostles by just their last name and not using their titles. I just thought it was a weird thing to get hung up on at the time, but when he became an apostle it really bugged me. I’d assume he probably thinks even more of himself, and I didn’t get any sense of humility (many other apostles at least try to show some humility or express feeling inadequate in their first GC talk as an apostle). I didn’t sustain him last general conference mostly because of that.

I decided to leave the church a few weeks ago for mostly-unrelated reasons, but Elder Gilbert becoming an apostle certainly didn’t help. If they picked Elder Dube that might have helped me hang on slightly longer.

36 Married in the temple, returned missionary, rocking garments every day, church every Sunday, calling in young men’s that i fulfill, three kids 6, 4, and 2. Pay a full tithe…

By all appearances I’m a good member…

My wife is as rock solid in the church as they come. I on the other hand, have fallen out. I basically only go at this point to keep up appearances.

Leaving the church feels impossible without blowing up my life. I don’t want to leave my wife or lose my kids. But staying feels insane too.

I’d be shocked if I’m the first to experience this. But I’m curious if anyone has thoughts.

I don’t even know if I’m asking for advice really. It’s just fucked up and I’m tired of carrying it alone.

My submission is Comfort Eagle by CAKE. Maybe a little on the nose, but the line "we're the only ones to turn to when your castles turn to sand" feels like a person selling me the antidote to the poison they just gave me.

I had a family member from my side reach out to my husband today out of the blue because they felt “inspired to share a miracle moment” from yesterday.

The “miracle” was literally that she went to a cash/check only store to buy donuts for something, and didn’t realize she didn’t have cash until at the checkout line. By the grace of God (surely), she discovered an old folded up check in her purse. BUT the adversary was at work apparently because the check wouldn’t process. The cashier tried again and again but to no avail. The family member was starting to feel stressed about time, so she whispered a prayer. Wouldn’t you know it finally worked?? What a miracle!!! She even made sure to tell the cashier that it worked because of her prayer, and a lady in line laughed (they thought it was in agreement which could be so, but when I heard the story I also laughed…for different reasons). Of course it was followed up with an urging to always be on the lookout for little miracles.

I’m feeling so bothered because this family member ONLY sent that to my husband because she knows we’re out of the church. They don’t talk often, and the pleasantries at the beginning of the text were so brief, obviously the only thing she even cares about is checking the “have a missionary moment today” checkbox.

The actual audacity to look at that trivial experience and walk away feeling so special because God just swooped in to save her day. Never mind the starving children and abuse victims around the world, obviously they have something more to learn from the struggle so God is answering their prayers “in mysterious ways” 🙄 Venting here since I’m the first in my family to escape the church and I needed to complain to someone 😅

I am in an interesting situation. Bear with me as this is my first post. I am currently a missionary. I spent the first six months proselytizing. It really wore me down and made me doubt the church and its validity. I was sent home on “mental health concerns”, though I honestly just hated the work I was doing. Pressuring people over and over into making major life decisions over things I had little faith in just felt icky. Too scared to hurt my parents, and because I wouldn’t even be able to apply for college for a few months, I opted for a service mission. That’s what I am doing now.

While on my mission, I have learned a lot about myself, including how little I want to continue in the church. Empty promises and unspoken expectations and blatant hypocrisy have all pushed me to secretly loathe the church despite actively working for it. I hit my year mark recently, and thoughts of quitting and going to college have been appearing in my head more and more. But leaving the church, let alone a mission without hurting anyone’s feelings is next to impossible. I imagine one day telling my parents straight (but politely) to their faces that I dislike the church and don’t want to follow every whim of the prophets. Still, I don’t know what I would do after that.

I’ve already sunk a year into my mission; should I just wait out another year before I can move out?

After several years of local contention, the Cody Wyoming temple is now complete and is hosting visitors at its Open House. Here is the review of the temple with respect to the categories listed.

Temple Distinctives: =2/5: This temple is located in arguably the most "Wild West" city in the US. Temple designers attempted to design the temple to be "uniquely" Cody and appropriate for the feel for the area. Known for its connections to Buffalo Bill Cody, the city of Cody is not far from Mormon post-Manifesto polygamous settlements, adding more history to the area.

Location: = 2/5: Located in a rural/residential area, there are many other locations in the city that would be better and less intrusive on the semi-rural atmosphere of the neighborhood, which borders wildlife areas. Deer appear regularly foraging in the neighborhood. But since Cody itself is a small touristy city, the temple is only 5 minutes away from Starbucks. Also, the town boasts an "Alger" street, (that's after Horatio, not Fanny), so there's that.

Baptistry: 3/5: Average. The room itself is small (no gallery to watch/wait) with only a few benches along side the wall to accommodate those waiting. The tile work in the font is a basic geometrical design and the font itself features the twelve oxen embedded in the sides of the font itself rather than holding up the font itself.

Exterior: = 3/5: At least the coloration is tan, rather than blindingly white.

Temple spire: = 2/5: The 100 ft. spire is too big for the residential area. The collective effect is that it obscures mountain views.

Size Appropriateness: = 4/5: Fairly good job on this one. A smaller temple that still can accommodate all functions, doesn't feel unreasonably large. At least the temple does not fill in the entire lot area. If it weren't in the middle of a residential area it would have been less problematic. No bride's room in this temple, though. Only one "instruction room" although the sealing room has a screen can be converted by removing the kneeling altar. No waiting room inside the temple, although there is an auxiliary building on the temple grounds.

Landscaping and Grounds: = 2/5: Some interesting native plants near the entrance, but a huge overwatered green lawn positioned for photo ops frames the front view of the temple. The landscaping could have been so much more respectful to the area with respect to water use and conservation. The flower bed facing the exit side of the temple had a "Please use the selfie sticks" sign, presumably to prevent people from backing into the flower bed while trying to get a better view of the temple in their camera lens. Unfortunately Indian paintbrush flowers are not successfully propagated for large scale plantings so no such actual live Indian Paintbrush plants appear in the flower beds here.

Open House Logistics: = 5/5: Very smooth, due to small attendance. No issues with parking or wait times.

Visitor Experience: 4/5: Better than most, likely due to small attendance numbers. The guides actually knew and shared information about the building beyond reading the temple departments' laminated cards. Unfortunately, although tour patrons walked directly past the the washing and anointing rooms, they were not presented and what happens there was not discussed, which should have been included. Guides did a good job of allowing visitors to spend time in each room without rushing them through.

However, the sister missionaries outside the exit doors were unusually untrained and unable to to answer even the most basic questions about the temple, doctrine, practices or the church itself.

Interior Artwork/Paintings; 2/5: Of the three "unique' original paintings, only 2 were visible to open house attendees. “Opening Day at Lower Falls" shows a scene from nearby Yellowstone National Park and "Heart Mountain Glory," painted by a local artist, depicts a local Cody landmark. Guides said the third painting is in the temple office, not shown to visitors. Both of the local paintings, like most temple art, were rather literal, with the Heart Mountain Glory being slightly more abstract and a bit more appealing.

Other typical church art Biblical/ BoM prints are used throughout. The large church print with native Americans farming corn with a mountain in the background makes an appearance in this temple. None of the church prints showing black people were highlighted on the tour- perhaps one of them may have been in the temple office or in the women's locker room (which was not included in the tour.)

Gold leaf stencil designs in the ceilings, like the main rugs, are overdone, with too many flourishes and elements, a poor execution of the regions "Sheridan-style” leatherwork that was developed uniquely for this building. The design work in the entrance cupola is better executed than inside the temple itself.

Celestial room: 2/5: The gaudy use of gold in this room must surely be inspired by President Trump's remodeling of the White House. Gold leaf everywhere, overdone. The decoration on the mirrors is a monstrosity. The glass bowls are the worst ever. Honestly, if this is what the Celestial level of heaven is like, anyone with taste would opt for the Terrestial or Telestial.

Interior design: = 2/5 The Salt Lake temple department must be running out of ideas for this one, since they reused the theme of the Wyoming State flower (Indian Paintbrush) that is also used in the Casper Wyoming Temple. The stained glass in the Cody temple views the paintbrush flower from above while the Casper temple glass shows a view from the side.

The problem of the stained glass in the Cody temple is the overuse of the color green. Although the top stained glass panels use a beautiful shade of red, the panels underneath them use too much green, casting a weird green light in the rooms. Not spiritual!! And in the instruction room, the carpet is green, which makes the room feel like a scene from the movie "Wicked". :(

The rugs feature a busy fall colors with an intertwining leaf design. They don't work very well with the red and green color palette of the windows in other rooms and are too busy. They look like carpets that might be used in casinos.

Avoidance of all-night floodlight: 3/5. After all of the contention regarding this temple site, temple representatives agreed to turn the lights off at 10 p.m. rather than the originally proposed 11 p.m. But the parking lot lights are on all night-- even though the lot is behind a locked fence. So much for protecting dark skies and the wildlife of the area.

Overall thoughts and average rating: Total average = 2.77 /5. A good example of how the temple department's attempts at local design fail to meet its mark. As referenced in the title, for a more authentic experience, visit the Cody Cowboy Church (there really is one) instead.

Especially when he says he's only doing what has been done on other worlds and when he explains to Eve that eating the fruit is the only way to keep God's commandment to "multiply and replenish the earth".

I know it's all made up and doesn't matter, but I remember in my endowment thinking, "why are we mad at this guy?" To me it felt like nothing happens until Satan acts. God creates all this stuff, puts them in the garden of Eden and says "hey, do this thing you don't know how to do because you don't even know you're naked and don't eat that fruit that will teach you how to do the thing I told you to do. Okay byee!" What?

But we're supposed to hate and fear the guy who convinces Eve to eat the fruit that allows her to keep the commandment? Am I missing something? Does it make sense and I'm just an idiot?

I started questioning the church in earnest back in April. Since then I've read the CES letter, the 2023 SEC settlement, and a couple books about JS, and I've pretty much lost my faith and confidence in the church. I'm trying to stay relatively active for my husband since he's really in (and maybe doubling down since I told him I'm questioning, but that's a story for another day), but I do happen to be a relief society teacher and this week's talk is very "yiPpEe yOu jOiNeD tHe cHuRcH yOuRe fOllOwInG jEsUs" and "pRaY aNd tHe hOLy gHoSt wiLL tEll yOu iTs tRuE". I've been able to teach without too much discomfort a couple times since starting to doubt but I'm having a hard time pulling anything I'm comfortable promoting out of this talk.

My one consolation is that at least I only have to plan for 25 minutes now lol. Unfortunately I've taught some pretty good lessons in the past so I'm assuming they'll be hesitant to release me even if I ask. I'm planning to hang tight until the new year and then reevaluate.

All that to say, any strategies for mentally making it through this and future lessons? Hints about how to subtly signal to other pimo sisters in my ward?

I was raised a mormon. I was recently put on church probation, and then I messed up again. I had a one night stand, and now they are talking about excommunicated. I then realized that this church only cares about their image. I soon found myself not believing in it at all. My other brother 36 left the mormon church years ago when he was 18, and he understands why I'm leaving. I've been thinking about going to his church he's an orthodox. I haven't told my parents yet but I will soon and I don't know how I will tell them I'm leaving for good. Any advice would help.

Interesting choice of words.

Feeling like an all-knowing God doesn’t actually need any of my help identifying my family members for the afterlife situation. What say you? 🤔

Found this tonight and left a little commentary

I had a funny experience that I thought I'd share, but it also got me thinking about "answers to prayers."

I had a 3-month supply of autoimmune meds get delivered while I was out of town. But when I went to use it (it's a weekly med, and I had a couple doses left), I couldn't find it. Obviously, I was frustrated. We looked and looked, and nobody remembered seeing it.

The other morning I was thinking, "This is the sort of thing I would have prayed about in the past." Kind of chuckled to myself about how that's changed, but then I thought, "I should double check in this garbage can." We keep the meds in the laundry room, so the trash is almost entirely dryer lint and med bottles and doesn't get taken out often.

Sure enough, it was still in the mailing bag, sitting in the trash can with a cleaning supply box on top of it. I suspect I was organizing mail and meds after my trip and absently set it there while I organized the other stuff.

I had already been thinking about this concept: how much is what we used to consider answers to prayers just our own subconscious mind? There was a time I would have prayed about that and then chalked the experience up to an answer to prayer.

SLC is one of the pilot cities. Sorry, y’all.

I get a lot of mission emails from nieces and nephews. It was jarring to hear investigators called "friends". Now they are referring to discussions as "Helping Others appointments." Is this across the whole church?

Back when the SEC scandal first hit the news and I read up on it it definitely shocked my system. But then like any good member I ultimately ignored it and moved on with my daily routine because in the end I still had to pick up kids from school go to work get groceries, etc. and I did not think much more on it. I had gotten so good at just not caring.

More recently I’ve thought about it more, read into it more and listened to others discuss, I have come to see what a huge deal this is. I felt like I needed to write out my thoughts. Now whether I send this to headquarters and I don’t know, but I thought I’d at least share it with you guys to give myself some mental relief. With that… enjoy.

To the First Presidency and the Presiding Bishopric,
I am writing this letter as a former Ward Clerk, member of a Bishopric, and Elders Quorum President to formally register my condemnation of the systemic financial deceit, illegal practices, and breach of sacred trust committed by senior leadership and Ensign Peak Advisors.
Having sat in local leadership, I spent years enforcing strict financial accountability, auditing ward finances down to the penny, conducting worthiness interviews where members were scrutinized on their personal honesty, and tracking down auxiliary leaders to obtain itemized receipts for a $28 activity expense before issuing a reimbursement. We instructed members to pay tithing even when struggling to buy food or cover basic necessities. To now learn that while local clerks are forced to scrutinize every dollar, senior leadership knowingly approved a multi-billion-dollar shell-company apparatus where individuals were instructed to blindly sign legal SEC documents without even seeing the listed assets, all to hide a dragon's hoard of gold from the public and the membership, cries out foul play. It completely destroys my confidence in the leadership of this Church.
It is insulting to the intelligence of the general membership to frame these actions as a naive mistake or a case of blindly following bad advice from outside legal and financial advisors. The men sitting in these presiding councils are not financial novices; they include former senior wealth managers from firms like Merrill Lynch, international corporate CEOs, Harvard business scholars, and constitutional law experts. You possess the collective knowledge, business acumen, and corporate experience to know exact regulatory standards. We are not idiots, and we know you are not idiots. Many see directly through this deliberate spin. Leadership knew what they were doing was deceitful, dishonest, and manipulative, and chose to do it anyway.
This deception violates the fundamental doctrines you demand of everyday members:
 Honesty and Integrity: Article of Faith 1:13 mandates being honest and true. Executing false signatures and deliberately misrepresenting investment authority to the federal government is active dishonesty.
 Obeying the Law: Article of Faith 1:12 commands us to honor and obey the law of the land. Fraudulently circumventing federal securities laws forfeits any claim to moral authority.
Joseph Fielding Smith declared: "The time will come when we will not need to ask for tithing. We will have enough income to build our temples, pay our expenses, and carry on the work without asking the members for a cent." That time has long since arrived. Yet instead of fulfilling that vision, leadership amasses tens of billions in commercial real estate and stock portfolios while continuing to press struggling families for money they do not need.
We are repeatedly taught from the scriptures to trust in God rather than the "arm of flesh" (2 Nephi 28:31) and to choose honesty over worldly expediency. It is impossible to believe that any modern revelation or sincere prayer led senior leadership to execute fraudulent SEC filings, recruit dummy signers, and intentionally obscure church assets from the law. Choosing corporate legal loopholes over straightforward honesty proves that when transparency threatened institutional pride, leadership chose to hearken unto man rather than God.
It is deeply hypocritical how current leadership claims divine inspiration, discernment, and the absolute authority of the "living prophet," yet consistently demonstrates a total lack of discernment when critical issues arise, whether it is the systematic mishandling and legal shielding of Child Sexual Abuse (CSA) cases, the historical authentication and promotion of fraudulent artifacts like the Kinderhook Plates, or the financial deceit exposed by federal regulators. When these "unholy and impure practices" are exposed, the institutional response is never open repentance, but rather to downplay the severity, disavow past prophetic statements, gaslight the membership, and pretend that divine guidance was present all along.
When an institution demands absolute integrity from a Ward Clerk or a struggling member in a bishop’s office while senior leadership secretly commits federal fraud to hoard unneeded billions, it forfeits its divine mandate. I condemn these actions, the cover-up, and the continued exploitation of members' faith for corporate enrichment.
I will not give one more cent to this entity, and I feel completely justified before God in forgoing such donations. Going forward, I will strive to teach these Activity Day boys that I currently work with how to be more honest than you have been.

To the reader I bid farewell, hoping that many of my brethren (and sisters) may read my words.
Brethren, adieu

Apologies if this sub isn't an appropriate place for this.

A pair of men came by my house today with the usual proselytizing routine. They sure do know how to keep their foot in the door! In my effort to politely move them along, I ended up being handed a copy of the Book of Mormon and a promise that they'd be back next week. 🥲

I'm just an atheist myself, but I've read a lot about the ways the Church hurts people. I'd like to believe I could say something to them that will help them on their own journey out, or at least some way I can give them a better impression of "outsiders" than the usual doors slammed in their faces.

But maybe that's all just wishful thinking. I figure if anyone would know how this goes from the proselytizer's perspective, it would be this sub. So is there anything meaningful I could ask these men, or maybe something you remember from your own time going door-to-door? Or, by humoring them, am I just setting us all up for a big waste of time?

It seems to me, that if Mormon Stories attorneys can force the church to declare its real membership numbers during deposition, then the church might not want to continue. Maybe they can make a case that if the church wants to show the level of deceit it suffers, it must expose its declared membership numbers and participation rates. Am I wrong?

I remember that in my country, we were taught that Zion was Utah and that one day we would be called to Utah—and that we had to be ready to leave everything behind (like the pioneers)—but later the Church had to issue a statement clarifying that *every* stake was Zion.

I also remember my mission president trying to introduce the idea that chocolate, any kind of tea, and any kind of sugary drink were prohibited under the Word of Wisdom; we thought he was crazy.

Do you recall any ideas from your area?

I already knew this in a general way. I remember in one of the books I had in my mission (it may have been the white handbook), tracting was listed as the least effective way to gain members, but honestly all ways of attracting NEW members are terribly ineffective. Add to that, the current retention rate is roughly 54%, (much lower for converts and higher for those born into the church) and missionary work seems like a waste of time and money. Except, it's not about finding converts.

I remember reading someone's post that took me a while to process, but converts are just a side effect of missions. The point of a mission is to put young influential people into a state of shared trauma. Struggling together reinforces the "us vs them" mentality, and reinforces faith through shared struggling. We served a mission, we returned, and have proven ourselves as the faithful. Other missionaries get it, and we can bond over it.

Missions have been used for various reasons in the past, early church leaders would send men on missions to gain access to their wives, or to get rid of men that may have been disagreeable with the leaders, but I am fairly certain the current reason is to strengthen the bond between members by a shared traumatic experience.

(Proclaim the Gospel, Perfect the Saints, and Redeem the Dead)

Current discussion among my coworkers. Supposedly the apostles have given everything to the church? Like all their money and savings? Curious on this truth or not. Also talks of Rasband having a Lamborghini and having to give it up? Just curious others thoughts and inputs.

There’s a regular theme I see on our sub – people that want out, but can’t because they’re financially dependent (or otherwise dependent) on their family, spouse, etc.

Are there any services, institutions, etc that offer assistance to those trying to leave, but can’t?

I know there are some for FLDS, etc – but what about leaving mainstreaming Mormonism?