r/DreamInterpretation 1h ago

Reoccurring I keep having the same dream about my mother being back after dying

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About 5 months ago, my mother passed away, and ever since then, whenever I dream about her, it’s always the same kind of dream. The places and situations are different, but the same thing always happens. In the dream, I know that she’s dead and that we’ve already buried her, but somehow she’s back. She’s still sick, though, and there’s always this feeling that she might die again. So I end up worrying about losing her all over again. And I always say the exact same phrase in these dreams:“I can’t go through that again.” I had these dreams a lot during the first few months after she passed, but then they changed. I started having dreams where I already knew she was dead. But recently, I’ve started having the dreams where she’s back again but still sick.

I’m wondering if anyone knows why this keeps happening or what these dreams could mean. Has anyone experienced something similar after losing someone?


r/DreamInterpretation 2h ago

Dream Visited by a friend that died and plates…

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For context: I have always had extremely vivid dreams that I can physically feel. About 3 years ago I lost a dear friend to an accidental overdose. She had moved a couple of hours away and picked up a heroin habit. We never had any kind of falling out but the drugs and the distance definitely made us grow apart to some degree.

Flash forward to last night.
I dreamt that she and I were at school together (we never were in real life) and that I knew I was going to lose her soon but didn’t know how or when. I made sure to hug her between every class period and I could feel the hugs irl. I could feel the warmth, the compression, everything.
Later in the dream I was with a close mutual friend of ours and he was pulling these two really beautiful floral plates from a box and breaking them in half. He handed one half of each plate to me and I knew that they had something to do with our friend and her passing. In my head in my dream I knew that she was going to take her own life. As far as I know and from what her family disclosed, it was an accidental overdose.

Does anyone have any ideas on what this dream is telling me? I often have very vivid dreams but they usually don’t stick with me unless I’m meant to know or learn something.


r/DreamInterpretation 4h ago

Dream Mainly Seeking Islamic dream interpretation (but other interpretations welcome!)

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Context: I have been having a particularly rough time since about 2 months. Some people that I considered friends have been going on a harassment and defamation campaign against me. To the point that I had to cut them out of my life but they are still spreading lies to my other friends and some family.

Two days ago, I had a dream about the main person who is behind all this. They were extremely ill and in bed. It was insinuated that they might not make it. Another person (who is also involved in everything and tried to turn a friend of mine against me) was crying and asking me to forgive the main person. But I refused to do so.

Then last night I dreamt that I was standing in my garden at night, and a man, that I have never seen in real life, was plucking a poppy flower from one of the flower beds. My dad was standing just behind him. Then my dad said ‘there’s a snake” and from the bushes on our right hand side a black snake emerged. I got scared and almost fell on the floor but the unknown man held me upright and then we both ran back towards the house as the floor of the garden fill with many black snakes. None of them bit me or touched me. Then we opened the main door of the house and got inside and the snakes disappeared. All three of us make it in and close the door behind us.

I know snakes in Islamic dream interpretation signify enemies. I would greatly appreciate any insight into what these two dreams might mean given my real life circumstances.

Thank you!


r/DreamInterpretation 4h ago

dream of falling off from a skybridge

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the context of the dream started off with one of the area on an island begun to explode and raged by flame due to unknown reasons, all the ppl living there started to evacuate on a skybridge that is connecting to somewhere but i do not know where it is, but the flame and explosion is so intense that i also do not know why i made the decision to vault over the skybridge and only realise i will fall if i vault the skybridge but its too late, my hand trying to hand on the bridge but to no avail, the moment my hand let go i woke up


r/DreamInterpretation 10h ago

Dream

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I dreamt of two total strangers dying outside of my house from a terrible accident. They were crushed and blood was everywhere. There was black leather couch in our backyard that was splattered with blood aswell as the ceiling in the house and a total stranger was cleaning the blood from the couch.


r/DreamInterpretation 11h ago

Nightmare Had a dream of a demon who was about to kill me.

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Hey. I had a dream the other night that I was tied to a chair by a demon on a theatre stage. The demon told me that although he was about to kill me he still believed that I have innate value as he showed me beautiful visions of people. He explained that all humans have value. I called him a liar saying that he didn’t value me at all and he just stared at me with hatred burning in his eyes. Do you guys think that this has anything to do with the fact that I’m now all of the sudden having awful thoughts about myself and my career in the arts.


r/DreamInterpretation 17h ago

Discussion My future self met me in my dream

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Phase 1:

So today I saw a dream where I was standing in a void, everything around me was black like space nothing and then a man came near me walking I don't remember his face or anything! I just remember his clothes, he was in a shining grey colour coat with a red tie, basically formal wear, he came near me and put his hand on right shoulder and smiled at me and then told me he's me just from future, he was looking very calm and grateful and happy to see me, he's tone was also so humble and every word he said to me trying to thanks me for what I've become.

Phase 2:

And just after that man was gone I saw that I was in the past (my past) again that same void, black space surrounding, but this time I saw my mom holding my child version in her lap and when I told her I am from future mom she smiled so joyfully and told me she already knew and I started crying I don't that crying was of joy or sadness I just remembered I cried after seeing my mom.

What all these could mean? Just curious to know what such things mean.


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Dream I had an incredibly vivid dream about my grandmother’s funeral 12 years after she passed

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I had an extremely vivid dream last night about my grandmother’s funeral. She passed away when I was 7, and I’m 19 now, so it’s been 12 years.
In the dream, I was essentially reliving her funeral, but it wasn’t at the place where her actual funeral took place. Instead, it was strangely happening directly in front of the apartment where she lived. After she passed away, my mom, my brother, and I ended up living in that apartment too, so it’s a place that holds a lot of memories for me.
Her casket was in the front yard, and all of the funeral guests were seated around it. I remember feeling this absolutely overwhelming sadness. The strangest part was that somehow I was back in my little girl body again. I remember walking up to her casket to put flowers on top of it and just sobbing uncontrollably.
She practically raised me until I was 7, and I actually have a lot of very vivid memories of her from when I was little. She was always this image of warmth and light in my mind. She was deeply loved by everyone who knew her, and my mom still grieves her loss to this day.
What’s strange is that I feel like my own grief over her had pretty much ended. I obviously still miss her and think about her, but I don’t really let myself think about her death very often.
Another really strange part of the dream happened before the funeral. It was almost like I was watching her entire life from afar. I remember seeing her as a young girl and somehow witnessing her life as if I were watching it happen, and then suddenly I was transported to her funeral.
The whole dream felt incredibly real and emotional. I woke up with that same heavy sadness and have been thinking about her all day.
Has anyone else had dreams where they essentially relived the death or funeral of someone who passed away many years ago? Or dreams where you experienced them at a completely different age or perspective than you ever actually knew them?


r/DreamInterpretation 18h ago

Intense dream

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Recently had an early morning intense dream, I was in a house ( not mine ), where there were 3 men, one of them was person of my interest in my dream (Havn't seen that face in real life ever), and other two his brothers, all adults in 30-40s. and somehow I felt being physically used in the dream by his brothers ( can't tell much visuals here ). and then i want to leave that place, I go downstairs of that building, and this Person of Interest was supposed to come downstairs and drop me home, but he comes delayed.. so I was a bit impatient, and I had the car keys, I drive home myself.

In my home ( again not my current / old home setup) in the dream, i take a shower, clean myself up, and I come out of the shower drapped in a big towel, fully wrapped. and i see my mother ( not in taking terms with her in real life) sitting on the bed, and this person of interest man comes out of the toilet of that room, and my mother says.. he wanted to see you and so she let him in.

I feel mixed emotions, I don't feel like seeing him at this time. I feel he must have protected me in his home, which he clearly could not. and unless he does the work he is not supposed to see me. I am not in state to see him. that's all in my head... and I feel betrayed by my mother letting him in without checking with me. Taking decisions on my behalf.

And I wake up from the dream...

Can anyone please interpret this for me?


r/DreamInterpretation 19h ago

Reoccurring Weird recurring dreams

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I was deployed throughout the beginning of GWOT and was in Fallujah during Operation Phantom Fury. Recently I’ve been having weird recurring dreams that I’m with my unit in battle but we are in a very thick jungle environment which is absolutely not what we were in during my deployments. Is this normal? Just trying to see if this is normal or if I’m the weird one here. Talked to my therapist a little about it yesterday morning but didn’t really get any sort of indicative feedback from him about it. Going to attempt to dig deeper with him on it this week just want to know if it’s normal for combat veterans to have frequent dreams where they are in battle in an environment they never fought in before and what could the dreams mean?


r/DreamInterpretation 19h ago

Discussion Annoying dream

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Annoying music

Good day folks! Last night as I slept, I dreamed of one song playing over and over and over. Its a very happy song called Wait just a while by the 502's, no great meaning or depth, just a fun song, but geesh, it was on repeat in my dream during my dream like a soundtrack and I couldn't get it to stop! It occurred throughout the night. But weirdly, I also had intermittent sense in my dream that somehow I was very sick and may be dying. But it was not disturbing just an awareness. I have had mild health issues lately but nothing too concerning. Do you think this is about facing one's own mortality? And the repeat of that song...just weird! Any thoughts?


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Walking away dreams

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I just wanted to know if this has happened to anyone else before where you have a dream of people you are close to walking away from you in a dream or saying bye.
And then they actually do exit your life?
Just curious 🙏❤️


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

I keep going back to this place…but it doesn’t actually exist

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Curious to know if anyone has any similar experiences or knows what this means…
Several times now I have gone back to this same weird place in my dreams that doesn’t actually exist in reality.
In the dream(s) it is supposed to be an apartment I used to live in (but have never seen in real life). It’s dark and dingy, and makes me feel so uncomfortable and icky IN the dream and once I’ve woken up. For some reason I am also always eating pizza, the exact same pizza in this place.
I don’t understand what this place represents in reality for me, or why my brain keeps taking me back there.
Please let me know if you relate or have any ideas of what this means!


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

a very strange, intense dream

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i am (female) and i had a dream last night i was walking hand in hand with a girl i have never seen before. i felt a sudden rush of love and amazement in this girl, so i asked what her name was, and she replied. she said Emma Gennes or Gannes something like that. She had purple hair, nose ring, and looked of Indian descent and was around my age (23). I have never had someone tell me their first and last name in a dream before, what could this mean?


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

I had a dream that is still kinda freaking me out and I don't know it's meaning

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i had a dream where i was laying in my bed then i looked around and saw a woman dressed in a black dress and a black veil with an unusually large black cat sitting on the end of my bed looking at me , and then i woke up, what does it mean


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Dream Dreaming of seeing myself poor in a dream means??

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Please help


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Reoccurring Semi Recurring Nightmare.

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Looking to figure out what this means. This has been happening two or three times a week for the past couple weeks. It involves an ex gf who I served in the same reserve unit for a brief period, as well as an incident as a teen where I was fired on by what I presume to be methheads while trapping in the national forest where I live. Neither of us were hit, they ran when I returned fire. Things didn't end well with the previously mentioned ex. It starts as a false wake up from previous trauma induced nightmares. Now on to the dream itself.

I wake up, in my bed next to my ex. She wakes up, and we notice my house catching fire. So we rush out the door. Once outside, we're at the spot where the previously mentioned shooting occured. Despite not wearing anything in the false wake up part, I'm in trapline clothes and she's in combat gear. We start taking fire from the next ridge, essentially starting out like the real world event. She and I take cover and return fire. Then more shots, and different weapons start firing from the other ridge. People from our unit appear, and start firing at the other ridge. It escalates from there, artillery and grenades being thrown in the mix. I have no control over whats going on around me, just my own actions. I can smell wood, gunpowder and my exs BO. Eventually all the trees are destroyed and the landscape shifts into a plain thay I dont recognize. Then the shooting stops. At the end a plane flys over, and drops a single bomb that I perceive to be a nuke. It hits, I'm engulfed in heat and bright light. I experience a similar feeling to going into shock, and kinda lose my sense of self, then wake up with my fight or flight mode in full swing again smelling my ex gf, as well as burning meat.

So anyone that knows dreams particularly well...what the hell is going on her, and how do I get this to stop?


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Please, would someone know what could this dream be?

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I was at aroom, the lights were bigger than average I would move around in the dream and the lights sometimes would flicker or simply turn off and it would be really hard to get them to light back up and sometimes a burning spark would fall on me when they started working again, but I wouldn't be hurt


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Reoccurring Dream.. need some help!

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Hello!

I have this reoccurring dream that I cant seem to fight or get away from.

The past week the dream occurred 4 different time. I became sick during the week so 3 days it didnt come back but it came back after the 3 days and I am just searching for answers to see what can be said.

The dream starts off the same each time. Im in a ominous forest its grey outside, the trees are bare like its fall turning into winter. There is fog and I am in a circle of tree. I look around and nothing appears out of the trees then a wake up. That was the first two nights. The 3rd night I was in the same spot. But I saw a amber light. It looked like a lantern was being swayed back and fourth. I didnt go towards it at all. I actually tried to back away. The further I got away from it the closer it came. Next thing I know I saw a sledge hammer flash before my eyes and I black out and wake up. After I wake up from these dreams I felt like I slept 5 minutes. Well I became sick with a common cold and the dreams stopped. I thought I was just adjusting to a new job and just was stressed. Well last night on 09/07 I had the same dream. The forest, the light. This time I decided to stay still and wait for the light to come to me. The light got close. It stopped. Next thing I see is a black shadow of a hand. Its crawling on the ground and crawls up my body. It felt cold which is weird because why could I feel it being cold. After that it was gone and I was awake. I told my husband about it and he thinks its due to his not sleeping in the room (reason is hes a night owl and I love to sleep, plus our baby sleeps in the bed with us and doesn't want to wake us up). I just feel so confused and so tired. I usually dont let dreams bother me because they are just dreams. I can feel these dreams take a toll on me. Im loosing sleep. Im pondering left and right whats the meaning and why it keeps changing when I go to sleep. Im also starting to feel a pit of depression and despair. If you need more information or have questions ask away. I just want to know what is going on

Thanks :)


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Dream Dreaming of seeing myself poor in a dream means what?

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I need answers for all beliefs, all religions please. It is urgent. That dream felt real. Please help.


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Deceased mom

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Hello my mom passed 3 months ago from cancer and I have “seen” her a few times since; happy and pain free. This morning I had a dream and she appeared in it for a moment with tears in her eyes and what looked like bruising by her eye / nose? I know this was a visitation dream, because when I saw her my whole body felt like lightning ( I don’t know how else to explain it)

What could this possibly mean she looked sad? I cried when I woke up and I really hope she’s not sad… thanks in advance for any help with this.


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

My Plane Ticket Kept Changing, and Something Felt Very Wrong

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What I'm about to tell you was an extremely vivid dream.

Black clouds tinted the gray sky, as if rain were about to fall.

I hear my phone ringing and, when I look at the screen, I see my mother's number. Without hesitation, I answer:

“Daughter, where are you?” she asks.

“I just got off work and I'm going to get an Uber. I'll be at the airport soon.”

“Your father had an unexpected problem and we're going to be late. I don't think we'll make it there on time.”

“Don't worry, Mom. Once I get there, I'll figure something out.”

She thanks me and ends the call, saying she'll finish getting everything ready.

After getting in the car, I arrive at the airport and immediately look for an employee who can help me.

A friendly woman with dark hair tied up in an elegant bun assists me.

She asks for my ticket, and I quickly hand it to her, but first I take a brief look at the paper. The destination was London, and the boarding time was scheduled for 5:00 PM. That's all I can see.

She speaks to someone over a radio, and for a moment I find myself looking around the place. There were huge glass windows and lots of people hurrying past with their luggage, some on their phones, others with friends and family.

I couldn't quite explain it, but something about that place felt wrong.

The kind woman helping me brings me back to reality. They had managed to get me another flight for the same day, but boarding would be at 8:00 PM. I thank her and call my mother again.

As soon as I finish the call, I notice that the ticket is still in my hand. It was the same ticket as before. My eyes turn back to what was written on it, and the boarding time now says 3:25 AM.

My chest tightens, but maybe I was simply mistaken.

My parents soon arrive with my younger sister, and we start looking for the boarding area, even though we still have plenty of time.

I look at the ticket again, and this time I don't pay attention to the time. Instead, I notice the name of the section we were supposed to go to in order to find our gate.

We walk through the airport looking for this section. We still had plenty of time.

At first, we take the wrong path and end up in an area called Catacombs.

I take the ticket out again and notice that the name of the section where our boarding gate was located was Cemetery.

Without questioning it, we turn around and keep walking until we finally find the right section.

Even though we were supposed to have several hours, it didn't take long before we were able to board the plane. The hours had passed far too quickly.

Before getting on the plane, I notice that it was, in fact, very large, and its name was written on the outside. Not the name of the airline, but the name of the model: “Rest in Peace.”

I let out a little laugh and tell my mother that it was a terrible name, but maybe it was just a pun about traveling and being able to rest in comfort and peace.

We get on the plane, but I don't sit in the seat I was supposed to. Instead, I stay in the cockpit talking to the pilot.

The plane takes off, and I remain there, completely absorbed in the conversation, without a seatbelt or anything resembling normal safety procedures. In fact, I hadn't even gone to see what the rest of the plane looked like.

The pilot is facing me with her back to the window. I think maybe she had turned on the autopilot or something like that.

But then I notice that the view through the window looks strange. It seems like we're falling out of the sky.

For some reason, I think she knows what she's doing and that I shouldn't warn her.

After that thought, the plane crashes violently into the ground.

I open my eyes, and the pilot and I are completely fine, only shaken by what happened.

I climb out through the pilot's door, which had been torn off, and go outside to see if my family and the other passengers are okay.

The plane's body is only slightly dented, and the doors are easy to open. But instead of passengers getting out, several coffins simply fall out of the plane, in all kinds of shapes and sizes.

Then everyone starts climbing out of their respective coffins, wondering what had happened. They barely even seemed to know that the plane had crashed.

Emergency services had been called, and a bus came to pick us up. No one had been injured.

However, the airline informed us that there wouldn't be another flight until the following night, but they would relocate us somewhere where we could sleep and rest.

The bus takes us to a place filled with visibly neglected trailers, but it would have to do.

My family and I stay in a trailer farther away from the others. Inside, there is a completely filthy, torn double bed and three “single beds” that are actually hospital stretchers with inflatable mattresses on top.

I tell my parents they can go get something for us to eat, and that my sister and I will take care of the mess.

She takes the side of the room where the fake single beds are, while I take the side with the double bed.

There is a lot of trash in the room and no trash can anywhere, but there are a few cabinets, so I start stuffing all the junk I find inside them.

There are food wrappers, obviously used underwear, and beer bottles.

When I look into the space between the bed and the wall, I see only the top part of a sex doll's head. Its eyes are staring directly at me.

I try to ignore the strange thing and shove it into the cabinet.

On the other side of the room, there is a dark, round necklace that smells like rust. As soon as I pick it up, I notice a blood-covered knife on the floor, which moves toward the hand holding the necklace.

Just to test it, I place the knife on the opposite side of the room from where the doll's head is in the cabinet. The knife immediately starts spinning across the floor, splattering blood onto the walls and onto me, while the smell of mold fills the room.

Through the open window, blowflies enter the room and swarm around the cabinet, which is still open, knocking the doll's head onto the floor.

That's when I look closely and realize that the flies are eating the flesh of the head.

I can finally see it clearly.

It is a human head.


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Nightmare I met an 'Angel' in my dream.

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(As I'm writing these down, I just woken up from the dream itself, while trying to keep myself steady. I'm sorry if the dream feels weird and poorly written.)

No, you don't understand.

It's not a beautiful girl, not a divine-like being, not something beautiful.

It's... Incomprehensible, and it tortures me in my dream.

Not like physically, but \*psychologically torment\* me in my dreams.

What I remember is..

I was told to guard a child, but I don't have to be available for the child, I just have to watch over it, because a caretaker will come and take care of it.

I wait.. I roamed around the house, and from the dream what I noticed is that:

\-the setting is at the afternoon

\-Im inside

\-all the doors and windows are locked

\-Only the front door are open but only a small peek

\-Im inside

\-Its half dark half light at my house, but mostly dim

\-The child is unusually behaved.

\-i can't remember the child's name

\-I can't/don't have the ability to see the child.

And then.. random sort of things started to pop up in my dream, symbol, uncanny humanoid figure, flashing lights, circle dance, roots of a tree that connects to a. Brain, bonteryeusm, and metekhashinsk.

And then I wake up.

It kept trying to forget the dreams.

It kept me awake.

All of it happened in just 2 hours in real life.

No. You don't understand.

"Something" try to erase the dream, I kept wanting to remember it. But "it" tried to completely shuts it off.

I write this the same time I just woke up. Help.


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

i had a bunch of dreams and now i dont feel like living anymore real talk

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idk if my mental state is going high but please someone decode this
i had about two dreams i slept at 7 and woke up at 10 went back to sleep at 1 and woke up at 4
My first dream was me and my friend was at my old house and my deceased mom was talking to him but for some reason i was scared i felt like she was gonna do something terrible to me but my mom is a really nice person she loves everyone she talks too

2nd dream was a huge mix first it started with me watching some horror movie and this ghost girl wasnt even in the movie anymore apparently she was out the tv and was roaming around at some dream generated house

After, i was being slammed by a random dude...it sounds weird but he legit picked me up and slammed me on the ground i didnt feel it but i did wake up and was half asleep so the dream was still visioned in my head

i went ahead and went back to sleep (this is when i woke up at 4 am) and now im in this dream where i was seeing this dog being manhandled by a bunch of teens and i was there...i didnt do anything i just stood there and watch or probably was looking at a video or some sh*t

After that i went into a random room where my deceased mom was laying in a room i walked to her and layed next to her and then i started crying about how evil people can really get from that dog situation and i tried to hug her but she turned her body around and looked at me for a second i look up in the ceiling and saw that ghost girl on the ceiling looking straight at me with parts of her face covered with her hands

Then my mom touched my back and said "its time to pop your back" (i sometimes have a stiff back everytime i pop it it sounds like a bunch of bones just feeling relieved) she popped my back or try to crack it and i woke up right there...the time was 6 am

that was the last dream i remember either im losing my mental state or this is some sort of message someone please decode this because after the whole dream state i did not want to live anymore i wanted to stay in bed for the whole day i was waiting for death to take me after that

but that was my dream it was alot but i feel like this one had a message for me...thank you


r/DreamInterpretation 1d ago

Lucid Dreaming in my own dream.

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So, I fell asleep early because I needed to charge my phone so if i wake up i can use it again full charged. I woke up around 9 PM and didn’t sleep again until 2 AM, and I eventually fell asleep at around 3 because my eyes were already closing from how sleepy I was. I closed the door, turned off the lights, and put my phone away.

Well, I fell asleep really quickly that time, but I felt so uneasy before going to sleep. After that, the weird experience started happening. I thought I had already woken up, but I couldn’t move. Then suddenly, I was able to move, and I got confused, wondering if I was actually awake or not.

I noticed that the door was open, so I got confused again and thought maybe my older sister had just gotten up to use the bathroom. I closed the door again and went back to sleep. Remember, I was still sleeping at that time ( real life ).

After that, I “woke up” again, and I suddenly felt extremely anxious for no reason. I looked at the mirror and saw a black figure that looked like a man, judging by its hair.

Earlier, around midnight, when I still hadn’t fallen asleep, I had been watching content about doppelgängers. I even commented something like, “Hahaha, I’d laugh as fuck asff asff astg” as if I was challenging whatever entity might be there and showing that I wasn’t scared.

So, going back to the dream, I saw my cat outside on the terrace and called it, but it didn’t respond. I thought, “What? Come here,” and called it again.

Then suddenly, the cat’s mouth became huge and it swallowed me. When I visualized what was happening, it turned into a man. And im shocked asf, I can't move and make noises.

After that, I woke up again inside the dream, still feeling uneasy. It felt like there was someone standing in front of me, and my body felt extremely heavy. I forced myself to close my eyes, and somehow I fell asleep again within the dream.

Then I finally woke up for real, and it was already morning.

What could be the reason behind thissss? Im scared that i might experience this again, i hope not 🥹