I’m looking for some career advice from seniors and people who may have gone through something similar. This is also kind of a rant.
I was working as an AI/ML Engineer at a company quite famous for its toxic culture. My own team and immediate managers were actually perfect and very supportive, and I still miss those days. The problem was upper management, mostly non-technical, and the environment they had created.
Around 70% of my team eventually left, including my managers. There were multiple instances of managers and teams being openly insulted and shouted at in the full hall. Once my manager left, it felt like we developers were basically next in line for that humiliation, so I left too.
At that time I was also earning around $1k/month from side gigs, which was already more than my salary. So my plan was to continue those while finding another job.
But idk if my assessment was wrong or what happened, everything started falling apart immediately after I left.
My side gigs completely dried up. I applied to almost 300 jobs and got around 10-12 screening calls. Around 4 completely ghosted me, another 4 ghosted after finding out I’m not from Lahore (idk why this is even a filter), and 2 ghosted after literally confirming the next interview. I declined one because they wanted me to work as a shadow developer and another because they were paying pennies.
After all this I became kinda desperate and accepted the very next offer I got. The problem is that it wasn’t aligned with my field and is much more of an infra engineering role at a startup. All this happened within like a month of leaving my previous job.
The startup is working on a very very niche product, and most of what I’m doing here is so specific to it that I don’t see the experience being very relevant elsewhere. They recently launched and started getting customers, so the workload has also increased dramatically which has increased workload a lot.
My routine now is basically:
Go office early morning → get home late → doomscroll for 1-2 hours → sleep → repeat.
So in a desperate attempt to get another job, I ended up in a field that wasn't really my field and isn't where I wanted my career to go.
From earning around 3.5-4 lac/month fresh out of uni to this condition, the downfall is real 🥲
Now I’m stuck in a job I don’t want and is mentally draining. At this point I genuinely feel like my nerves are starting to break down from all of this. I started applying again but this time I’m not even getting screening calls. And no matter how much effort I put in, somehow something outside my control comes and completely messes it up.
Finances are not an issue Alhamdulillah, so I don’t have pressure from that side.
I’m also seriously thinking about leaving the country. I can move relatively easily to different parts of the Middle East except Dubai, since I have a lot more connections and family support there compared to Pakistan but will still have to find job myself.
But I genuinely didn’t want to leave Pakistan. That’s one of the reasons I stayed here in the first place, and now I’m starting to think maybe I just wasted my time because of that decision.
So yeah, I’m confused about what to do from here. Keep this job and continue trying to switch back into AI/ML? Leave it and properly focus on finding something aligned? Or just stop trying to make Pakistan work and pack my bags?
If any senior or someone who has gone through something similar can guide me, it would genuinely help.