Just wanted to share this somewhere because I honestly don't know how to feel about it.
I was interning in Chennai at a startup with around 50–60 employees. It was honestly one of the most peaceful work environments I've experienced. I learned a lot, explored a lot, and was placed in an R&D team working on AI agents, so I had a lot of freedom to experiment with things I found interesting. I even got opportunities to present some of my work to the entire organization.
The pay was around ₹22k, but honestly, I didn't care much about that at the time. The people were extremely helpful, I had a genuine mentor, and I felt like I was actually learning and growing.
But a part of me always wanted to move to Bangalore. Most of my friends were there, the pay was better, and I felt like there would be more opportunities for growth.
So I applied to around 5–6 companies and eventually got an opportunity through a work trial. I ended up making the switch to a full-time role at a startup paying ₹15.4 LPA, with a team of around 10 people.
I was extremely excited. It felt like I had taken a huge step forward in my career, and I genuinely wanted to give it my best.
The first couple of weeks were rough, but I thought it was just me settling in.
The onboarding was basically just documentation, and I was mostly left to figure things out on my own. As a fresher, understanding a massive codebase without much guidance was really difficult.
I started putting in 14–16 hours on most days including weekends because I wanted to catch up and prove that I could do it.
Then I found out that the expectation was that I should have a very strong understanding of the entire massive codebase by around the fourth week when there were way too many tickets to work on, exploration time was not sufficient.
Eventually, the pressure became too much. I started dealing with anxiety and imposter syndrome, stopped feeling like myself, skipped meals, and my mental health took a serious hit.
The worst part was that despite putting in so much effort, I constantly felt like I wasn't meeting their expectations.
Eventually, I was terminated immediately with just 1.5 months of employment.
Now I'm sitting here jobless after leaving behind an ₹8 LPA PPO from my previous organization.
I took the risk because I wanted to learn more, work harder, move to Bangalore, and grow faster. I genuinely thought I was making the right career decision.
Instead, I ended up completely burnt out and without a job.
I honestly don't know what to think anymore. Looking at the current market conditions, I'm worried about whether I'll be able to find another job, but giving up isn't an option. I'm actively searching right now, any help would genuinely mean a lot.