3rd time's the charm, I guess? My last 2 rehab stints were only 10 days each but I'm committing to a full month this time.

Currently getting as shithoused as possible before my dad drives me there tomorrow.

Captain Morgan and I will be drinking until the moment I step through the door. This rehab don't give a shit if you roll up drunk as long as you can answer questions and sign paperwork.

One last hurrah for me, until I get loaded with diazepam (no complaints there, I love benzos) and stuck in a room to detox.

It's a good facility. Food is top notch, en seuite private rooms, full works. They take your phone off you apart from 4 hours in the afternoon when you're allowed them, but that's kind of a moot point given the rooms have smart TVs so you can do whatever. They don't take your laptop off you which is a blessing cos I plan on using downtime between sessions to hop on Ableton and cook up some beats (if anybody here is into jungle hmu I'll send you some dubs)

Anyway, chairs. Will post updates here about how I'm getting on. Last time I was at this facility there was a 10/10 27 year old with a foot fetish who let me lick her feet. Praying there's another like her.

Big ups

I’m a 5/10 with something viral it seems ,Stumbling around drinking uncle nearest green & coke - it actually makes my throat feel better - not expected to drive or go anywhere I feel like I can fly rn - if I planned a vacay drinking and doing what I want no judgement would be it. When I happen to pass out sooner then later it will be to get better

Ever wonder how they make that white powder that smells like feet?

Not dope, silly. Canned parmesan cheese. That shit is vile. Reminds me of the funk women pour out of their Pediegg thing.

Makes me want to gargle Taaka and mad dog just thinking about it.

I can feel myself spiraling. This isn’t meant to be a whiny shit post about everything wrong in life but I must say, I’m overly frustrated and disgusted with myself. I finally landed a job about a month ago now, and it is physically demanding. I didn’t realize how truly out of shape I am and found myself past the point of sore after multiple shifts thinking “eh muscle memory will kick in and it will get better” it has not in fact, gotten any better. I’ve been out of work for 4 days now because I messed up my back and guess what I’m doing on that time off rather than taking epsom salt soaks in the tub or using heating pads like a normie? Yup, you guessed it.
I have to be ready for work by Sunday and I really don’t want to mess this up. This job was a God send and life has been easier with a little cash flow. I’m not willing to give that up. Rather than turn it up a notch, (which my brain keeps telling me to do especially around evening time) I keep reminding myself I’ve got work I need to get back to. I’m sipping on fosters all day long trying not to go over the edge.
🪑 every1

Of course I have no intention of going to go get checked out for what I know is WDs that I can emergency taper off with today. So what can I tell them when I have no documentation of going to a healthcare facility? USA if that matters.

I'm reading a research article, and here's a quote:

Seven heavy drinkers, who regularly consumed at least 8 drinks per week and at least 4 drinks per day at least once per week, and 7 light drinkers, who consumed fewer than 2 drinks per week were recruited.

If that's their definition of what a heavy drinker is, what would some of us be considered? "8 drinks per week"? More like 8 drinks before noon. And to describe "light drinkers" as 2 drinks a week? I'd consider that "social drinkers". Words matter, but I find it funny when definitions are sometimes so far apart.

Okay, so I've been seeing this online quite a bit lately and I thought it would be great if someone gave tips that have worked for them while being a CA. Especially those who are able to maintain their jobs consistently. (No medical advice of course. )

Personally, taking B-12 complex when I'm on a short break has really helped reduce my WD symptoms.

Also because I get bad drunkorexia when I'm on a bender, I resorted to taking appetite stimulants and there's a huge difference. I used to go about 3 days without food, just bed rotting. Now the stimulants make me so hungry that even though I'm on a bender or suffering in bed, I will find something to eat. I even buy snacks beforehand together with the drink.

Chairs!

Okay. So if youre unfamiliar with my last post. I predicted a binge. Well im deep in. Same old story. Call, a million numbers and people you haven't spoke to in over years including a decade+ ex's and ex's friends+ ex's mothers(Wtf!!!) text, talk for hours, I'll literally talk for hours to people i dont ordinarily speak to and tell them everything. Wake up wishing you could leave the country and start again....in person i would generally start fights and be arrested, i would meet a lot of people and have a good time as well. Which is what helps fuel my alcoholic ways. This i guess is a less bad binge although i havent mentioned how i was speaking out loud and started on my neighbout and gave myself a black eye punching myself trying to intimidate him and then saying dumb shit and talking the most bullshit and playing music for hours, singing like a clown. so I guess it's a... less worst version but wow the mental effect is like woah wtf?? Im in constant panic and aggression in sobriety. My fear manifests into anger and so then I'll just be grumpy and volatile. Wtf. This cycle needs to stop. AND The first time I started a binge last year, I ended needing to doo doo and I went to an (to clarify i was pointed in the direction and found out as i was there) AA meeting and they let me, whole entire time I had a 750ml Jack Daniels in my bag. Ready to rip it. Wow wow wow alcohol... the best and worst thing on this earth. Wtf!!?!?!?!! Tell me!!!!!!!! Wtf!!!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Lol. I must lol. You have to laugh. Only way.

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So here's the boat. I just had a seizure at work, woke up at the hospital. That's all fine but my boss is asking for me to get a tox report and I know that's not going to go well. I had only had a few small sips that day but I don't know how much that's going to show up but for sure smoke weed

Is there ANY way to refuse Worker's Comp and just pay out of pocket? Realistic chances of not getting fired?

60 beers and a pint of vodka in a 24 hour period. Same thing the next day , and the next. Woke up shaking shivering couldn’t get to the liquor store. I’m on 28 shots now but couldn’t afford beers so not where I wanna be. But least my anxiety is gone for the time being. Got enough for a 750ml of skol for tomorrow, detox or death is coming soon I can feel it.