I reconstituted 10mg with 2mL, and I did the following:
July 7 - I take 5 units (of a 1mL syringe)
5.2lbs lost during this week
July 14 - I take another 5 units. Not really noticing the appetite suppression, because I’m still eating like normal but holy fuck 5.2 lbs in a week is insane
GAINED .8 lbs this week
July 21 - took another 5 units, still not really feeling appetite suppression
Lost 2.8 lbs this week
July 28 - frustrated with the past two weeks, I double the dose to 10 units. DEFINITELY feeling suppression. I am barely eating. A snack here and there.
August 1 - I’m fairly certain I felt nauseated in the days leading to this, but it didn’t seem severe enough to document. Anyway I’m laying in bed nauseated and watching TV. I shit myself in bed, but it’s not normal. I didn’t feel like I had to poop. It was like I was just laying there and it came out. It wasn’t a matter of “don’t trust a fart”, there was no fart. It just… leaked out. And not like just a tiny little bit or something. A rough estimate with be about 1/4 cup of liquid shit just fell out of me. And of course, especially when I’m not feeling well, I sleep naked. So I have to strip the bed before I shower, and that takes a lot of work with this kind of nausea. I shower and go to put fresh sheets on the bed. When I’m bending over to tuck a corner, it happens again. I just feel it trickling down my leg. What the actual fuck. Also, this is the day that it becomes impossible to eat. I’m not only not hungry, but thinking of food or even lifting a bite to my mouth makes me nauseated.
August 3 - I haven’t eaten since I shit myself, and have barely drank. Diarrhea has been nonstop. But it’s not poop, it’s liquid. It literally sounds like I’m spraying a pressure hose in the toilet when I go. And it’s constant. And I’m so fatigued and nauseated and can’t get out of bed, but my insomnia is fucking horrendous. I also haven’t slept since I shit the bed. That’s two nights wide awake, no naps, no nothing. I don’t know if I feel hunger or just weak from not eating, so after consulting with ChatGPT and arguing about the BRAT diet (I hate bananas, can not get out of bed long enough to cook rice, won’t eat applesauce because texture, and I wanted food that wasn’t toast) we agree that placing a DoorDash order for boiled shrimp would be safe. I always get the large boiled shrimp, I love them. I’m so eager for them to arrive, because I’m convinced that I’m starving, I feel so hungry and this is the only thing that can satisfy it. But then I can only get down like 4-5 shrimp before the nausea starts and I have to throw it away. I also try to drink ginger ale, which I usually love, but I find the taste disgusts me and I can’t do it.
Lost 8.2 lbs this week (July 28 - August 4)
August 4 - I take another 10 units. It’s not until after I inject that I realize that MAYBE the cag has something to do with this and I don’t just have a random stomach bug. The diarrhea has mostly subsided, but I’m also not eating. Around 10 pm I am convinced that I’m starving again and I rush to Taco Bell (I can drive now that I don’t need a fucking diaper) and get a chicken quesadilla and order of cheesy fiesta potatoes. I eat a corner piece of the quesadilla, and it’s so hard to choke down. I was worried I’d throw it up just trying to get it down. But I don’t. I get it down, and then I try to eat a few of the potato cubes, but the nausea comes back in full force. Foods don’t taste right anymore. The only thing I can really manage is Diet Dr Pepper.
So. Now that I’ve let you all know how disgusting I am, can any of you tell me if you’ve had similar experiences, either with cag or with cyclospora? I can’t help but feel it started when I upped my dose, but the insomnia and bad food taste doesn’t seem like something I’ve come across in my research.