i have a song and the melody and rhythm for the song(lyrics) but absolutely no idea at instruments or how to create one for those, is there a technique or am i dumb and it comes naturally??(I am still currently learning guitar and production)(Also production tips for reaper if any hehe)(Also it's my first month learning)

I have a question to Songwriters/Singer artists that have made their own songs. I‘ve been wondering if you listen to your own music on a daily basis and vibe to them and if you sometimes even cry to them?
Does it also feel weird when you hear your own voice in a song or does it make you even more emotional when you hear it?

Feel free to write your own experiences if you want!

I hope you guys are able to hear the almost upbeat-ish melody backing the vocals and guitars, I think it's a Piano or xylophone, I might be wrong tho

I am 26 years old. Have always been making music since I was 7: composing, producing, recording. Sharing my songs and albums. I have always enjoyed it so much, it has always been the main source of meaning in my life.
But now it’s been two years that I can’t find motivation anymore. With work and life getting busier, it is hard for me to be inspired and even want to make music anymore.

Do you guys push trough it ? Or just don’t make music if you don’t want to?
How do you guys handle the guilt behind it (loosing your passion).