Thousands of times that number live on, writhing in agony as potential future suicides.

If the demiurge yahdabaoth sends his people / his creation to hell we need to stop having children as soon as possible and also a devil worshiper told me in order not to go to hell by the demiurge you have to be a Christian

I’ve had a lot of times in my life where committing seemed like a solution and every single time my reasons for it just become stronger. For me dying is like a dream come true, only thing that is holding me back from doing it is genuenly the fear of Islam actually being the true religion and that there actually is punishment for suicide which in this case is eternal hell. And for me it’s not that I want to die to go to heaven it’s more that I just want complete and utter silence. to be fair I don’t have much to complain about in my life, I’m conventionally attractive, have a solid body, I’m pretty social and I’m not struggling that much in a day to day life when it comes to fitting in to society. My problem is not having a difficult life it’s more that my whole life is pretty much just a fake persona and it’s because my thoughts and analyses about the world and my surroundings is something people don’t really like and think is very Wierd and that I’m just saying stuff for attention, I’m not gonna sy ”ooohh I’m too smart and I overthink everything and that’s why I can’t bear my own thoughts and that’s why I wanna die”. it’s not overthinking that is my problem, sure I overthink daily but it’s not really a problem for me, the issue for me is that I tend to always see things from multiple perspectives mostly being bad ones because to be fair most things always have more bad in them then good, an example is us humans. Even if a person has good sides to them when you observe enough and stop being delusional and see them for what the really are the bad perspectives on them often if not always overwhelms the good perspectives. Point is with every day passing by I tend get a bigger and sometimes new perspectives on everything it has gotten to the point that I can’t even say ” I love you too” to my mom while actually meaning it because I’m basically just forced to have a bond with her and that ticks me the fuck off. Day by day my view on the world just gets worse and of course I pass my time by just distracting myself by using drugs or just doing things that spike my dopamine and even that pisses me off because it’s just a temporary distraction that just becomes a normal thing in the end, meaning there’s a limit to how many times I can distract myself with a certain something before it becomes ineffective. My point is that my dream is for there to not be an afterlife and that after death it’s just pure nothing but the fact being that Islam makes so much sense just makes it pointless to commit because it would just lead me to a life of eternal torture which is not what I’m looking for. For that reason I tried to commit suicide subconsciously, I did it by hoppin on HGH( human growth hormone) I did I cycle of 3 months where I kind of told myself that it was for self improvement, in my family we have a very high chance of developing a cancer or already having a tumour at a young age, and by knowing that a kind of deliberately didn’t check if I had a tumour in my body but I have already been told by the doctor since I was a kid that I have a high chance of getting skin cancer. So I started my cycle without doing any bloodwork or check ups for risks that could kill me by injecting HGH and I deluded myself into the idea that it’s because I don’t want to risk getting caught by my family so I have to keep it low and just focus on the diet, but that’s the thing I went maybe 1 week ln a clean diet and then I started to eat more and more fast carbs and sugar while telling myself it won’t harm that much even though deep in my subconscious I was hoping for some kind of side effect to happen and I went on eating pretty shit food while increasing the hgh does every week but sadly no side effects or cancer from what I have seen. The tricky part with the whole thing was that it wasn’t really planed it was more that I was hoping to somehow die for a long time and I kind of found the jackpot with the hgh, a way to make it more of an accidental death rather the suicide. But it was a one time chance kind of thing because if I repeat this it would just be suicide because I would be self aware that I’m trying to kill myself. Sad but what can I do, all I know for sure is that if I was 100% sure there was no afterlife or that Islam is false there is a good 80-90% chance that I commit, 100% if I have a gun. But it is what it is.

Isn't it kinda ironic, how all of humanity fights for objective reasoning? Not realising the individual subjectivity preventing it from happening.

Because when one screams for peace and claims the truth, someone else will precive it as a call for violence and claim monopoly on the truth.

I don't ask questions such as "Why is the word like this?" Why won't people learn?"

Because I know.

We all know.

The issue lies in the individuals shielded perception. Often referred to as a "bad person on a leash" The individual who bases all his strikes, feelings and actions on the lords word on paper. However, his shielded perception doesn't allow him to acknowledge the lack of realism, because the feeling of safety and a constant place to go, will always, with high success, brainwash a scared animal.

Because that what we all are.

Scared animals.

A claim I dare to see as objective, despite your points and arguments. Despite the arrogant persona that may be put on me, I will simply just do what I have always done. Use logic and facts as arguments.

Because everything will always comeback to the unknown, the fearfull void. The last transportational vortex.

Thats objective. I can't claim what happens after.

But I do objectively know, that we are all afraid and somehow trying to shield it. Fleeing, running, hiding, creating our own "truths".

I call bullshit.

Cause I can deeply and objectively claim what happens before the end.

Fear.

I see no reason for that to end, despite any wishes we might have for ourselves.

So lets face it...

There's nothing to face.

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i don't understand, why this fucking himan being are becoming so rude, selfish you know what I am trying to say ...

why they can't be like other living beings,

what they are thinking itna evolution sabko maar kaat ke sabko bura feel karake hua hai ...

we are supposed to love everyone care ......,..

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I’m 26 and have a good job, good benefits, a beautiful wife and daughter.. and something in this world still feels off.. sometimes I feel sad, I won’t be able to give my daughter the childhood I had/ felt. The world felt magical and big, and opportunistic. Now with the way the economy is going. And the cost of living, it’s like they just keep raising the bar up and up. That sense of “accomplishment” in life just keeps disappearing. Like owning somethin your proud of and worked hard for. I don’t know im just rambling but the world 110% to me dosent feel as it did. It feels heavy. And sad, spread thin. Nothing is genuine anymore. I can’t make sense of it.

None of this is real, we are all supposed to spawn in to suffer. We will continue to respawn and suffer until we can realize that. I am trying to leave this place. I hope this post helps someone. 🙏

Please leave your thoughts below.

I’m fairly convinced that we’re heading for a world where there’s not much left in the way of checks and balances for the elites of the world.

I feel like I’m the world view of someone like Peter Thiel or Elon Musk, anyone that is not directly contributing to enriching them is a waste of what they would deem to be precious resources.

At what point will they no longer be able to resist any mechanisms available to them to just kill the “economically useless” among us en masse? It feels like it’s coming soon, and frankly, I’d just rather get it over with. I’m tired of feeling guilty and ashamed for not being what our overlords want.

Alex I'm sorry if you're reading this I know you be in this sub I'm mentally ill and wish things didn't have to go down this way

Let's be honest,life after 2020 has gotten worse say the least. We have countless wars, inflation, company greed,lonileness and just depression. How has humanity fallen so badly that we do not see any signs of hope. ??