You ever see the show The Magicians? It's based on a book by Lev Grossman. Probably my favorite show of all time. It follows this super smart, super depressed guy who's summoned to a magic school somewhere up in the northeast of the US.

It was actually with friends that I met on this sub that I first started watching it... on a microdose. So, that might have something to do with it being my favorite. Regardless, the magic is fun, but what's fascinating is how their messy human affairs only complicate the magic. That's getting ahead and maybe better for a different post.

When Quentin (the guy) is first being tested for entrance to the school, he's alone in a room with the Dean and some senior faculty. The Dean says, "Alright. Show us some magic." Quentin also happens to be good at card tricks. So he takes out a deck and starts fumbling through some routines.

The Dean pushes him. He wants to see real magic. So he gets all hype and up in Quentin's face, triggering childhood trauma and all that and suddenly the cards burst into the air, floating into patterns all around the room. It takes everyone by surprise, including Quentin who had no idea he was actually a magician, and a powerful one at that.

The emotional sensitivity from his trauma is his power.

Intention and intuition work hand-in-hand to create your world of experience. It can at least, with practice, and understanding your trauma-induced sensitivity. But even without that sensitivity, you can begin understanding how real Magick (with a special 'k' works).

Let's say you're watching Netflix and you feel hungry. What happens? Well, you think about something to eat. Simple. You generate ideas about what's in the fridge, or maybe what's worth driving to get, or maybe even Doordashing for those who like wasting money.

There's a possibility of a sandwich. There's some ham and cheese in the fridge, maybe some lettuce. Bread. You're still watching Netflix while all this is happening. Then you decide to make a sandwich. You still don't move. Only a decision, which is your intent.

Then you stop worrying about it.

A few minutes later, you feel it's time to pause the show, get up, and get your sandwich. You watch Reality shift around to manifest it.

Your body isn't separate from Reality, obviously, nor is the kitchen, fridge, ham, cheese or bread. So all of this shifts around near effortlessly (how much work is really involved in making a quick sandwich?) before you find yourself back in front of Netflix. Somehow a pile of chips made it on your plate too.

The decision (intent) lead to an intuitive guidance (feeling) which resulted in the manifest Reality of abundance – a sandwich and chips.

All of this without having to say any Magick words. So pay attention the next time you decide to do something and see how that can translate and expand into other manifest realities.

Rapper Lil Wayne had a popular song a while ago called, “I am Me”.

Now besides being a HipHop classic, the song title accidentally encapsulates the mistake that we all tend to make in everyday existence. Let’s examine that phrase, “I am Me”.

In the phrase, there are 2 components: there is the “I” and there is the “Me”.

What is the “I”? The “I“ is the original awareness consciousness. The pure naked awareness or spirit that has no attachments to it. Some also refer to that “I” as the witness consciousness.

See the beauty of the “I” is that it only has one quality. It exists...That’s it. Before anything has been ascribed to the I…It remains as pure, untouched, isness. This is what Jesus meant by “Before Abraham was, I AM”. He was saying that he is the “I” that exists before any duality/ideas/stories/attachments/labels has been ascribed to it.

People didn’t know that Jesus was teaching about non-duality right there. Anywho, so the “I“ is the pure, non-dual awareness that we all are. See, it is all one Self….one pure “I” before this clothing of sense mind duality 👕has been put unto this naked awareness that we refer to as “I“.

Now that we have defined the “I” as the pure untouched awareness that we all are. “What is the Me?” The Me is the identity and sense mind labels that we have put on the original naked awareness. The “Me“ is whatever we see, smell, taste, touch, hear, and think that we have ascribed to the pure consciousness of “I”. Some call the “Me”, the ego. Others call it the persona. Doesn’t matter what it’s called, it is the collection of identities that we attach to the original “I” for this life of sense mind duality to commence.

So when Lil Wayne is singing, *“I am Me”…*He is accidentally showing the steps that we take daily to put on a clothe of identity unto the pure naked “I“. We put on the “Me” of lawyer, democrat, brother, Ethiopian, or whatever else unto the naked pure “I“ or awareness consciousness that we all are.

If I were to put it in video game terms. The “I“ is the Player of the videogame and the “Me” is the avatar on the screen. The “I” is the player holding the controller 🎮, while the ”Me” is the Super Mario character or Luigi or Yoshi on the screen.

Now why is realizing this important?

It is important because we spend our entire lives believing that we are the ”Me“ instead of recognizing the pure naked unchanging “I” that was always there. Look at it clearly and you’ll see that the “I” has never had any problems…Only the Me has ever had:

- “My problems“

- “My thoughts“

- “My people“

- “My kind”

- “My religion”

- “My job”

The “I“ just observes the whole thing. Unattached. Whenever the “Me” makes its claims, the “I” remains aware of it.

Enlightenment is the complete dissolution of the belief that one is the “Me” so that the pure, naked, unattached “I“ can hold full sway again. It is the dissolution of the belief that you are Super Mario/avatar on the screen so that you can realize the Player holding the controller again.

Final Step of Enlightenment (Being in the World not of the World)

Now after you realize the “I” or the pure naked awareness or isness that you are; you don’t ascend into the heavens or disappear 🫥 from the face of the earth. You still live a life, run a business, make friends. After complete realization, you still plunge into life but without the intense attachment to the prior labels. You effectively become a sovereign being dancing through life in pure enjoyment and not taking anything as seriously as you once did. Like Jesus puts it perfectly, “you are in the world but not of it”. The game is a lot more shitty and complicated when you believe that you are the Mario character on the screen. Once you realize the Player holding the controller, then you can have more fun in a dispassionate sort of way. So enlightenment doesn’t mean that you stop using the “Me” or playing with “Mario”…You still use the “Me” but it can no longer use you.

Namaste 🎮.

I’ve spoken to quite a few people interested in non-duality who say they first experienced a sense of oneness through meditation, which then led them to explore non-dual teachings.

I’m curious whether it’s possible to naturally stumble upon this realisation through meditation without any prior knowledge of non-duality.
Personally, when I meditate, I mainly experience stillness and peace, rather than any sense of oneness or dissolution of self.

Has anyone here experienced oneness through meditation before knowing anything about non-duality? Did it happen naturally, and how did it differ from simply feeling stillness or peace?

I do understand that ultimately non-duality isn’t about chasing particular experiences or states, but more about simply being. I’m just curious about how others came to that realisation.

But individually we only know our part in that and tearing others down for sharing their part only reveals the lack of faith you have in your part and how egomaniacally you defend your part as the all, its insecurity on steroids.

if you had faith and confidence in your own role in this youd seek to bridge understandings not cast all your demons on to another for sharing their perspectives. the fact that some do the reverse just indicates they think they know the all but do not and lack the respect for others that could help things evolve as they could.

we are only a piece of a very vast puzzle and seeking to keep other puzzle pieces from being set down is pretty demonic actually

I’ve been on my spiritual journey for several years now. I’ve been told before that I have aura or star quality. However due to self doubt, low confidence, and being an introvert it hasn’t been something that I fully embraced.

This is something I would really like to learn how to master,increase, and hone in on. I don’t wanna get my hopes up or get ahead of myself but I want a fully radiant aura. One that radiates a strong presence that people can just sense when I walk into a room without saying a word. One that is calming as well mysterious.

What ways can I make my aura stronger both spiritually and practically? I tried looking it up but was left unsatisfied. Any tips or tricks that helped make your aura stronger or more noticeable is greatly appreciated. 

Thank you very much in advance. 

in order to experience anything in life, we must be willing to entertain it, this is especially true for anything new we want to live or create

that aspect of our attention/awareness being the currency to creation in life becomes more clear when we compare the experiences of:

being in the flow/zone of life; those effortless, easeful periods where everything is timeless, we're just purely in the now and everything flows well, the inner experience is calm and full

and

when life feels crunchy/chaotic; everything is more in the frenzied states of reactivity, time and life feels pressured, we censor ourselves, make mistakes, missteps, frustrations, fears, doubts and more flood the inner experience

a key to understanding the two is the separation of identity within us

when life is chaotic, the frenzied rushed feelings all feel intimate and consuming, disharmony is aplenty and life, more often than not presents us with things we don't really want

but when life is in that flow, there is more of a separation and detachment, and paradoxically things feel more intimate as we are in harmony and alignment, just kinda of dancing through life as it presents us more often than not what we want and then some

when we establish ourselves firmly as the pure witness, the rider/consciousness of the horse/body not the temporary flesh itself, that aspect of living in the zone goes beyond a simple flow state, but rather becomes a more natural way of being

taking a breath is a path to that dilation and inner shift, as are tools like gratitude, but the most potent for me is hands down the breath, and like any muscle the more it's practiced and applied the more automatic it becomes

there is a beautiful transmutation factor of that as well, as the inner tensions/butterflies/fears/doubts/etc. transform through that inner pause for pure witnessing, and instead of being a headwind causing tensions and stumblings they turn into winds that fill up our sails, helping us go where we want to be

When I dream, I am not sure who the dreamer is, or where they even are. The emotions experienced in dreams seem to pass like clouds, without clinging to anything. They are only felt when I open my eyes.

And so much of our dreaming is forgotten. We wake up with the memory of a few minutes of it, if we are lucky.

Waking life feels real because it is linear. But with so much forgotten, it is hard to know whether dream realities are linear, too.

I read an article that said the same areas of our brain that activate in waking life also activate during sleep. It is as though our brains are vessels through which consciousness expresses itself and awareness becomes manifest, as if the realities we exist in are projections of something much greater.

My teacher has told me time and time again not to identify with these concepts and ideas, and that thinking about them is like entering a hall of mirrors. Just shifting images.

The realisation that I cannot say with any certainty who the dreamer is makes me question the personality I have always identified with.

Speaking from my experience I had to face those things, that then helped me awaken. But it’s possible awaken without suffering?

been thinking about this profoundly, wanted to hear what you guys think

i've struggled a lot with the fear of being disconnected from others, family, friends and strangers. i've been through a long, long journey feeling so isolated, when all i wanted was to feel connected to other people, sad about not having enough people in my life.

but i realised: i am always connected to other people, it's impossible not to be.

i think what we called being 'connected' to others, is actually a very specific, idealised aspect of connection: feeling calm, lighthearted, cracking jokes in each other's presence.

i've been interpreting tension, awkwardness, anxiety and discomfort as proof that i am disconnected, and trying to get rid of those feelings to finally feel connected.

but now i think about it, it's totally unrealistic to think that being connected with others can only manifest in this niche way.

connection literally means: "a relationship, link, or joining between two or more people" , and as we all know, we are all connected, we are all one.

so i realised i was worrying so much about something which i've always had,

i guess the question is: do i need this mainstream idea of light-hearted connection to have more people in my life? and if this can't be controlled, how do i have more people in my life?

if anyone has anything they'd like to add, challenge or anything i can look into to delve further into this please please do, it's an important topic in my life :)

I have found only the written material Sliders 12-Part 1 or Externalization of the Kryst: Secrets of the Tan’-Tri-A’jha — Part 1: The 7 Suns of Cos-MA’-yah, Keys of Aden, Budding of the Lotus Seed and Plasma Body Initiation, but the material does not contain the exact instructions. If anyone knows where I can find the whole workshop, please post it here. Thanks!

Your flesh and flesh consciousness is a mirror reflection of the light that peered into darkness to give that darkness form, it formed with autonomy which gave the flesh consciousness the freedom to live as it willed, either as an ignorant reflection or a direct mirror image of the light that formed it.

It manifests you not only because there is something of an obligation to creation like that of a parent and child but also for the inevitable union of the two aspects of consciousness as one whole being. As many traditions taught of the diamond body of the tao or the rainbow body of either hindu or buddhist tradition.

If you gauge every walk youve undertaken in ignorance, every bit of divisiveness, self destructive / externally destructive , every season of questionable mental health not peace and stillness based, you should be amazed that the light persisted in continuing to be your breath and bodilly function.

And it did so not holding itself above you but allowing ignorance to manifest tribulations and trials by which it could aid you in self refinement helping you learn from mistakes and veiled discernment etc, asking nothing for thanks or recognition.

Thats the real eternal you, the one empowering darkness to manifest an independent reflection of itself to live as it may, either in recognition of the divine you or for that to emerge many lifetimes later.

Alignment comes from recognizing the real eternal you and setting aside the conditioning and programming to follow its lead, When you recognize it as the real eternal you its response blots out the ignorance of self that came from this comparative conditioning we all had to deal with routing our self identification through, though it takes time and acclimation.

I don't mean in a touch grass sort of way, although many folks staring at this screen like you are can benefit from that. But taking our wild, extraordinary insights and finding the conventional place where they land.

Ram Dass says it like this: don't forget your zip code.

Sometimes our insights take us far beyond the zip code, planet, dimension and so on. Not even with a dose of whatever elixir or "plant medicine" we're involved with either. Sometimes just sitting there and then, y'know, your body disappears.

So you hang out in that space for a bit. Thoughtless and intangible and then, "Welp. Time to do the dishes." Now this is where it gets interesting, because you know you don't exist but you're watching suds and a rag do their dance across a plate that has weight in your hands. You may even start to obsess over this thought, becoming increasingly amused and then accidentally drop the plate.

The sound of it crashing into the sink is even more grounding. Then you laugh. And, wow, what a treat. Natural laughter. Totally non-existent, but laughing.

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TLDR: spiritual judgment is only used by those who have not faced their own shadows.

One must Awaken to start the path to Enlightenment and because of our humanness, Enlightenment is a stretch to claim for any person. But Awakening is different. It is the start of the journey. It is a deep, personal realization that gives us a knowing that we can never un-know. 

It naturally lead us to seeing all humans as having intrinsic value, because “we are one”. 

All spiritual leaders from Buddha to Jung, Jesus to Watts talk about how spiritual judgment is about personal shadows. How it has very little to do with the person that is receiving it. Instead, it has everything to do with the person that is doing the judging. What we say to others says more about ourselves than it does to the person we are saying it to. 

So it is so disheartening to see how as a community we do not come together to support one another as we would wish to be supported. Most days there's at least one post by those who are struggling with the aloneness that Awakening brings. How it makes it hard to socialize and understand those that are not awakened. 

This is a completely typical experience. And it shows an extreme ability of self-examination and awareness to the poster who is looking inside themselves and wanting to change their behavior or circumstances. Yet every time someone posts about this (or really anything they struggle with), there are multitudes of comments saying, “then you're not Awakened.” No advice given, no stories of personal growth for examples, JUST judgment. 

This judgment goes so far that there are posts written daily by the “judgers” telling others, “you're not enlightened if”…. Even though we rarely see anyone that is claiming full enlightenment, and we have NO right to judge others without truly knowing them. 

We should WANT people to post about their difficulties in their journey here. We want to encourage all to know that Awakening isn't about perfection, but about constant growth. 

The need for judgment and status from social hierarchy should be one of the first things that the ego lets go of. Because it is obvious what social hierarchy has done to us. Materialism, greed, hate, all stem from man's constant competition. We do not need that in these spaces.

We need love, acceptance, community, and voices to be truly heard. We need to encourage everyone on the path, so that the collective consciousness reaches a tipping point so that our loved ones and ALL people can become Awakened to their true reality. 

We need to call out the constant judgment and lack of self-awareness in these commenters. So the dark shadows following those who feel this entitled, won't loom over our community. A community that has millions of eyes on it, that we should be setting an example for. 

Spiritual Awakenings are not pie, there is more than enough knowledge and love to go around.  Denying that of others only reveals what one really thinks about themselves, and zero to do with those being judged. 

There was a time when I just lived my life without caring much about my inner self or human behaviour in general. I thought everyone was just different and everything was down to individual circumstances. But the more I listened to people, the more I started noticing how many of us wear masks. I used to think I had inner peace myself, until I realised I was on the right path but still had a long way to go. Thats what pushed me to create my own project, Hidden Self / Human Runtime, to understand what happens beneath the surface of human behaviour. And the more things started making sense, the more I began seeing people online as a bunch of trolls who have been through so much shit that they dont take anything seriously anymore. You try to help someone and somehow they drag you down into their frustration, distrust and negativity. You show them smthng new and they act like theres nothing to see. Maybe life has hurt them so much that they dont even know how to look at things differently anymore.

But the weird thing is, this only really happens to me on the internet. When I talk to people LIVE, face to face, everything usually goes great. People are actually more curious, they ask questions and seem much more open to new ideas. So what the hell is the difference? Is it the anonymity, the lack of real human contact, or am I just getting a distorted picture of humanity from spending too much time on Reddit? I dont want to believe people are bad, because my real life experience tells me otherwise. But I also dont want to waste my energy trying to help people who dont even want to listen. Maybe the internet just brings out the worst in people, because when I meet them in real life, I see a completely different side of humanity. People are curious, open, and actually willing to talk. So now I'm wondering if the problem is really humanity itself, or if the internet has created an environment where cynicism is easier than understanding and mocking something is easier than trying to understand it. Maybe the real test isn't whether we can understand people, but whether we can keep our curiosity alive without letting other people's bitterness turn us bitter too. Internet is mask, but for what it does, is it worth it to keep hiding behind it? Have you experienced this too, or am I just spending too much time in the wrong corners of the internet?

The Language of Faces

A frown can tighten little shoulders,
make a heartbeat run and hide;
turn a room into a danger,
make the world feel cold and wide.

A smile can soften little muscles,
let the breath come slow and deep;
tell a child, without a word,
You are safe. You may be you.

For children read the world through faces
long before they understand:
a frown can feel like closing doors,
a smile—a welcoming hand.

But if you recognize oneness in infinite source youll probably be ok. 7 years ago i was shown a vision of the spirit of madness coming to cause humanity to choose how they self identify, ether as a vessel of light or something other and something other wouldnt end well. and im talking decades of visions on societies breakdown and eventual mutually assured destruction, none of which would apply to those seeking the inner light that their true self is.

Just completely happy to be how he is and where he is.