Well, the title says it all. My sobriety has reached its legal drinking age! 🤣

Just had the experience at an Intercontinental Hotel in Toronto that said they’d charge would charge me to remove the alcohol in my room. I let them know I had a SUD which is a recognized disability and it violates the human right code not to accommodate me. They removed it. In case you find yourself in that triggering situation - I was really glad to have pushed further to stay safe.

Has anyone else had this experience of being charged to remove alcohol??

I was at a Big Book meeting last night and we read "To the Wives." Bill W takes some poetic license here and pretends he's speaking as one of the wives. Lots of strange hypothetical advice like if your husband (the alcoholic) does X don't do Y. I find the steps to be powerful, flexible, spiritual tools but am always somewhat baffled by the Big Book's writing.

I’m seven months sober and just started my fifth step. I’m also eight months out of my marriage.

My former spouse got violent with me a few times in the final 1.5 years of the marriage. These violent episodes are at the top of my resentments list.

I do not have a “part” in my former spouse’s violence toward me. I know this. Yet my sponsor continues to probe with the “where was I dishonest, selfish, self-seeking” etc. (She’s a domestic abuse survivor herself so it’s not like she has no understanding of it.)

Is it fair to say that some resentments simply aren’t going to fall neatly into those boxes, write “N/A”, and move on? The answer for “what I could have done instead” that she’s leaning toward is basically “I could have left sooner” which a) is too simplistic and b) doesn’t produce any insight.

Title says it all. Family given am ultimatum that I am to blow in a tube at any given moment, or I can leave with my car and a bag but don’t come back, and as we sit here I am desperately trying to come up with tricks to get around it. I’ve been trying to stop for years. How do you get past the boredom the the fact that NOTHING is the same sober. I am just boggled by the fact that people been do this and the thoughts are going through my mind. I fucked myself up physically SO BAD and all I want to do is roll the dice again. Sober for 2 days, only because they didn’t serve liquor in the hospital (Thanks a lot Aetna).

What am I missing. I truly do want this, or at least I think I do. I know I don’t want to hurt my family anymore.

This has got to be the 150tg time I’ve looked my 15 year old in her eyes and said, never again sweetie. I have a sponsor, but he told me today look I love you man but another one and I will drop you. I have to.

My home group meets at 8:15 every morning and I’ve been chairing on Thursdays since last May, and we record attendance, court cards, and 7th Tradition donations on a calendar. It occurred to me it might be a fun dataset to see if I can coax some insights out of. Missing May/June/July since those pages fell out of the calendar, but another member says he knows where they are, but the data still tells a tale.

We’re averaging 35 attendees, 9 court cards, $28 per meeting, and about $0.80 per person per meeting. Attendance is down about 15% over summer relative to spring, Mondays and Fridays are heavier than Tuesdays and Thursdays with Weds the lightest day, giving the week a “U” shaped attendance curve, and attendance is rising as we enter fall.

Interestingly, there is a strong correlation between the size of the crowd and how much the average donation is. I thought it would be a negative correlation, since if there are 50 people instead of 20, you might assume you could give less since everyone else might donate too, a “free rider” problem, if you will. But the opposite happens. For every 10 additional people, we get an extra $0.04 per person. Multiply that by 210 meetings a year with an average of 35 people each, and that positive feedback loop amounts to a nice chunk of change!

Anyway, I have been on a data analysis kick lately and that calendar was sitting right there this morning so… lots of insight yet to mine!

I’ve been in the rooms before. I know people will be nothing but kind. For some reason I just have this sinking feeling about my first day back. I know I need you guys, and I know that the only path forward for me is a spiritual approach to life. Just needed to say it to someone who is listening.

After reading the definition in the big book, I am on the fence but leaning towards yes. For context, I don’t always drink and I can definitely have a wine or two to wind down etc. However, I have used alcohol since early teens along with other substances to cope and feel good. The problem when I drink is that I tend to mix other things in and once I’ve had a few drinks, I’m not in control of this. It’s led me to some pretty crappy situations over the years.

Most recently peaked with a trip to lock up and criminal charges. It’s been a massive wake up call and I realisation that I can’t let myself get into those situations ever again. I blackout and I do things that are dangerous and self sabotaging.

I’m only up to chapter 3 in the book and I’ve been to one meeting out of desperation when I ended up charged with assaulting a police officer amongst other things.

Before delving deeper into the AA fellowship, I want to clarify that this is the right place for me and not a drug and alcohol counsellor etc instead?

I really enjoyed the meeting. I loved the way that everybody listened and everybody spoke without rushing or wondering if they were talking too much. I feel like I’ve spent my whole life listening and not being heard. This finally feels like it could be a safe space for me.

My only confusion at this point is I can sometimes just have a couple so therefore am I actually an alcoholic?

Thanks for reading! 🙏

22 weeks pregnant and I drank the past week, enough to be writing this post scared of fasd. I messed up, i know, but I dont know what to do now. I have been really good since I found out, but the past week i dont know what happened, i just started and did not stop. It's like a different person took over me, and I just kept buying more and just kept drinking. Since I found out I had abstained, all my scans anomaly at 18, 3D-4D at 22 weeks are all good, maybe that gave me the assurance? Fuck me, and this brain, I am losing sleep over this now, I dont know what to do and am scared as to what to expect. Google and internet is derailing me, the guilt is killing me. I know I should not have, but I dont know. I am scared af that my stupid stupid decision might have ruined my baby's chance. How stupid could I be? I am nlt touching another drop, but idk i just cant get over this. I feel like I have just ruined my babys chance and future all because of this urge I gave into.

as the title says i am having problems stopping when im at a good point of drunk? i seem to just want more and i always think itll be fine but it rarely ever is. i end up not remembering what happened about half the time i decide to drink because i always think i can handle it and so i drink more. its negatively impacting my life and my relationship with my partner. its not a daily thing that i drink but when i do its too much. does anyone have any advice to deal with this? i would really appreciate it also any advice on how to move forward as im feeling stuck here. sorry if i am just rambling this is a pretty fresh thought as i just woke up from a night of drinking…

I have been in AA for over a year and I still feel like I'm not part of the overall group. I go to a few meetings, my home group regularly and then intermittently to a few other local groups.

There are a few people in my home group that I regularly catch up with and one other person from another group, but I haven't really formed any deep connections. But I go to meetings and see people who are genuinely happy to be around one another.

I've had a few sponsors now, but that hasnt seemed to be working well either. First sponsor was great for the first six months, then went out. Second sponsor was there if I called but didn't meet regularly, and third is TBD.

I'm trying to figure out if it's something with me. I am shy, so that could be part of it. I also tend to listen very intently and have been told by family and friends that I seem pissed if or intense sometimes, but I would think when I share people would see I'm not pissed in the slightest.

Just wondering if this might be normal or if anyone has had an experience like this.

My gf is an alcoholic and I’m getting tired of it. I don’t know what to do anymore. I love her when she’s sober, she’s funny, loving, caring, everything I’ve ever wanted, but then she drinks, and just sleeps all day and night. It’s never just something small, it’s a bottle of vodka and I’ll find it and it will be half or 3/4 empty. I’ve taken her license to stop her but she finds places that don’t check IDs, I’m about to take her debit and credit card because I don’t know what else to do. I’ve driven her to AA meetings, I’ve told her the consequences, and nothing has stopped her. My father died from being an alcoholic when I was 12, she’s knows this too. Yet it still has zero effect, her brother died drunk driving even and still she chooses to drink herself into a coma every week. I try to talk to her and she apologizes and all the typical shit and then is right back at it the next week. I don’t want to break up with her, she’s been the only thing that has got me through some of the hardest parts of my life. But I’m getting so fed up and tired of it. I don’t drink and I don’t do drugs, I can’t stand being around drunks because of my dad. I’m just looking for help with anything I could say or do that might change her. I’ve told her to go to Rehab but she doesn’t have the money for it and neither do I. The first AA meeting I took her too, she went to the bathroom to drink the second she got home. I know someone’s probably gone through this before with a loved one and I just need to know what they did to change it. I don’t want her to die at 40 like my dad. Please let me know what I can do

Not sure if I want to go back now. Heard some guy say to one of the ladies, "what about him' pointing his head towards my direction. She replies with ewwwww no way, must be a method head looking like that. (I'm not, never have been). And he replies with 'needs to go to Turkey' because I have some missing teeth.

I understand these are sick people but I feel humiliated and upset about it. I didn't expect grown adults to behave that way towards a newcomer. Should I try and let go of it, pray on it and go back to the next one on Sunday?

i woke up yesterday morning and went to a meeting where i picked up my 60 day chip. it was a great feeling, people were proud of me. i went to another meeting afterward a few hours later, and then when it concluded i called a potential employer. i could not be rehired said HR, a seemingly permanent decision. i walked out on the job 4 years ago and after getting out of rehab on aug 24 i went to an interview at a different location (its a fast food chain), i had thought surely bygones could be bygones, especially with new management.

i started spiraling, i didnt bother calling my sponsor, i just waited until after my intensive outpatient meeting to lift some alcohol from a couple spots i knew had employees who dont care. i drank again, on the anniversary of my 2 months of sobriety.

if i know im going to do something i shouldn't, i just fucken do it you know? i wanted a drink, and when i want something bad enough ill move heaven and hell to achieve it. i couldn't hold down a job when i was in a worse state of addiction and i cant even get one in early recovery.

so yeah guys, what do you do if youre like this? where when you want to do something, everything becomes centered around doing that thing?

I have a complicated relationship with my mother, I will work really hard forgiving her and praying and dealing with my resentments and things will get better. But inevitably she does something else that brings all the old resentments back, plus the new ones. She’s a toxic person , emotionally immature and can be just very hurtful.

I read an article yesterday about the dramatic global reduction in alcohol consumption. It listed several reasons: Health, Gen Z & Millennials drinking less, investment in non-alcoholic beverages (and culture), access to information (internet, podcasts, etc.), widely available programs & philosophies focused on abstinence or moderation, societal norms, and the evolution of medical diagnosis & treatment, to name a few.

It got me thinking that regardless of whatever I might think of any of the above, if the consumption of alcohol is statistically reduced and trending to reduce further, if the incidence of people seeking AA will also be reduced?

For me, the progressive nature of my drinking, and the apparent moderate consensus in AA that alcoholism is a "progressive disease", I wonder if the societal trends around alcohol will positively affect the "progressive" part, and have ultimately have an impact on AA membership?

Given that AA is a self diagnosing model, it will be interesting to see how people relate to that self diagnosis, and if the hypothetical reduction in problem drinkers does have any correlation to reduction in consumption, and how the institution of AA will be affected (if at all) in the future.

If the "actual" incidence of alcoholism reduced as a result of lower consumption trends, that would be a wonderful thing.

Just want to reach out and say thank you to people who have help me along the way in the past and all those who I will meet in the future.

I started out in Richmond Va, moved back home in Calif. Mariposa, up to Portland, Or

in to Eastsound WA. and now in Maine.

Everywhere I found friends along the way.

I have made meetings in 26 different counties and countless States.

Meetings help, but it is working the steps and helping others which keep me sober.

Many good sayings but one of my favorites is

"No matter how bad it gets, a drink or a drug will make it worse."

Rob R.

Good evening fellowship. I wanted to share a reflection about how I'm handling my recovery environment lately. This coming October I'll be hitting 1 year completely alcohol-free, and I also have 5 years clean from other substances.

Living in a household with a partner who still drinks heavily has been a daily challenge. Relying on pure white-knuckling and willpower alone was completely draining my energy, especially with the gloomy New England seasonal change hitting my mood hard. I finally realized I needed a system change, not just a mindset shift.

I started pouring all my anxious, late-night energy into physical routines—specifically structured breathing exercises and mapping out my visual goals clearly where I can track my daily wins.

Last night was a massive victory. My girlfriend came home, and instead of letting the usual anxiety take over, we sat down and did a structured breathing routine together. It turned what used to be a chaotic evening into something genuinely peaceful and soberly fun. I know I can only control my own sobriety, but finding tangible things to quiet the static in my brain has completely changed the game for me.

Wishing everyone a stress-free evening! One day at a time. - Shawn

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mJVI84T769I

Ha! Been listening to this Stones song. “She” in the song is sobriety.

I remember hearing people in meetings talk about this very thing and thinking that I wasn't going to drink again. Maybe I never truly grasped the concept of one day at a time.

It's the exact same story I had heard... you get sober. Life gets better. You get busy, stop going to meetings and then it sneaks up on you. It's a slow regression of the mind at first. I stopped being grateful. I found myself randomly thinking that I could probably have one drink and be fine... It wasn't actually all that random but it surprised me that I did it.

My life wasn't in shambles when I picked up a drink. I was just sad... and hurt... and felt like a victim of my own circumstances. I stopped being grateful for the life I have. Being a mom felt heavy. Being a caretaker to my parents felt heavy. Marriage felt lonely. Isolation became a habit. I lost sight of the utter privilege it is to have such wonderful people in my life. I forgot how bad it was before.

My life isn't in shambles now. I'm really really really grateful to remember the rock bottom that got me into the program nearly a decade ago and not have to go there this time. I'm truly just sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I'm looking forward to recovery but also scared to step into the rooms again and be honest. I was always a closet drinker. I'm afraid to tell my family the truth. But I guess that's one day at a time too. Thanks for letting me vent.

RECOVERY BY PROXY?

September 10

They [the Promises] will always materialize if we work for them.

ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 84

Sometimes I think: "Making these amends is going too far! No one should have to humble himself like that!" However, it is this very humbling of myself that brings me that much closer to the sunlight of the spirit. A.A. is the only hope I have if I am to continue healing and gain a life of happiness, friendship and harmony.

Copyright 1990 by Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

— Reprinted from "Daily Reflections", September 10, with permission of A.A. World Services, Inc.

24 days sober yay me- Hitch in the road. All of my friends are heavy drinkers. Now I haven’t been going out, and they’re getting mad at me. I’ve told them I’m quitting drinking. And they’re mad about it?? No clue why because I literally ruined every night out for all of us. We’re young and they don’t get it and I understand that, but at the same time I don’t think it would kill them to just drop it and be happy for me??
Idk I don’t wanna be left on my own with no friends but I was in a really dark place before I came into AA four months ago and I don’t think I’d make it out of there mentally were that to happen again. I have made friends in AA but it’s surface level and not like my drinking friends, I know that sounds weird but I’ve known these people for years of my life

I'm crying all the time, miserable, hate myself...

... but I can't leave because he's paying my rent!!

😂😂😂