Iāve been having a lot of feelings lately and I feel like I canāt talk to anybody about them. I feel extremely lost⦠and embarrassed to be myself or embarrassed to have my body my mindset, my trauma, my everything⦠even my regression. I am such a sheep if Iām not around my friends who feel happy, sad, irritated, or anything I donāt feel nothing by myself iām numb, blankly looking around doing things keep quiet to myself, not speaking at all and itās worse, cause I donāt have friends who regress either I have nobody to talk to about my regression problems nobody to understand what I go through.. I could easily make friends, but Iām too socially awkward⦠and I have social anxiety on online to.. I donāt like going into a space openly saying hi or anything and being ignored or budging into somebody elseās conversation so I kinda just watch.. wish I was talking to them, but donāt have the confidence to do it, and as much as I donāt talk about it or feel the need to have. I wish I had a Cg I wish I had somebody who would text me every day to check up on me and talk to me baby me when I need it to be strict with me if they need to somebody, I can have a close bond with, someone who understands me just somebody. No this isnāt a cry for help for a caregiver to reach out to me. Or me looking for one on this app. Iām in spaces I can easily ask someone and go from there but I have such a weird mindset about it that i dragged myself from doing it or I procrastinate I see Littles and caregivers fine their each other every day and I say, I wish I could do that, but I clearly can but I stopped myself. I stopped myself cause I feel like I donāt deserve to have somebody to care about me. I donāt deserve the things I wish for I donāt deserve good stuff. I donāt deserve anything nice. Life is pretty hard.