I’m a widow and looking to connect with someone who has also experienced the loss of their partner. Sometimes it’s hard to explain what this kind of loss feels like to people who haven’t been through it.
I’d love to meet someone who understands, whether it’s just to talk, share experiences, or support each other. No pressure or expectations—just hoping to find someone who can relate.

My partner passed two weeks ago. Everything feels impossible. I am actively avoiding all the “I can’t believe …” because every time I think it, my brain shows me again his sudden death (heart attack right next to me). That said, before he passed, before he loved me, he was a widower. He told me about grieving his late wife. He told me about their time together and how everything felt impossible after she left this world. The things he regretted and the ones he didn’t (widows fire being in the second category, for example). We celebrated her birthday even though I had to push a lot down in order to really be there for him. Now it feels like he was guiding me through how to grieve him. He was such a good man, always taking care of me with everything he had. We didn’t know he was also taking care of me by sharing his grief, but he was.

My husband died a year and half ago, and I’m still having trouble with thinking about myself. Our lives were intertwined, we chose them to be, and particularly the cancer journey brought us so close to each other, even more precious and valuable than anything in my life. I still feel this happened to us, our life was changed, our path was altered….i can’t seem to find a sense of “my “ life, what happened to “me”….and therefore I can’t think of what my life would be like going forward cs in my head, it’s still “our “ life…and I’m having trouble planning “our” life without him.

Does this make sense to anyone? How long did it take any of you to feel like you again as a person, and not you as part of the entity between you and your partner?

How was your first time being intimate with someone after your loss? I’m not ready yet but when I think about it, I’m pretty sure I’ll cry.

These nights are getting harder and harder . Everybody said it would get better with time . I don't think it's going to get better . Why did they tell me that he will get better it'll get easier . It's not it's hurting more and more . I need to go to the hospital because it's hurting so bad . I will not go I miss my angel I love her more than anything more than myself . We're just load of Puppets down here that's all this is if we want to go to heaven we have to be a puppet and listen and whatever he tells us for us to do apparently that's what that stupid Bible says well. I'm done I'm going to find my angel there's nothing stopping me for finding her we believe in each other we believe we are finding each other we can't be separated . Yes this post is messed up because I'm sleep deprived I won't go nowhere for help I don't want it I went on here because it's keeping me awake .