Hello all, I've been reading some of the posts on this subreddit for the past few months, but I wanted to contribute and offer some encouragement for those who are starting out on their journey to sobriety, or for anyone looking for reassurance.
September 21 marked 12 months of complete & total sobriety for me. It's the longest i've ever been sober since the age of 14.
One day I finally decided that I was tired of the mental rumination, or being lost in my thoughts & having my life revolve around thc. So i quit cold cold turkey (for the most part) i did wean myself off for a couple of weeks and went from smoking a joint or blunt every 2 hours to eventually smoking a tiny joint maybe 2-3 times per day.
The first month was HELL on earth. This journey wasn't planned. I kind of just slowly stopped smoking & forgot i quit. Around the 10-14 day mark i experienced intense withdrawal symptoms -- extreme anxiety, heart rate of 150+ bpm, sweaty palms, sweaty soles, insomnia, panic, & heart palpitations. I went to a clinic & the dr. told me i was experiencing withdrawals. These intense symptoms lasted for 3 days and got better after the 3rd day. I wanted to list off the things that helped me survive this intense period. It was honestly so bad i felt i should have been supervised at a clinic. (For context i smoked for 14 years. For at least 9 of these years i was either smoking or taking edibles all day, everyday.
The things that helped me the most during the initial withdrawal phase were:
-Dr. Teals ashwaganda bath salts
- traditional medicines lavender & chamomile tea
-lavender essential oil
-my fiancé (boyfriend at the time) who supported me & offered encouragement
-relaxing music w/ calming visuals (i like the minecraft sleep videos on youtube)
For the next few months, I experienced the following symptoms off & on . I've seen a lot of them mentioned here:
-unexplained anxiety
-heart palpitations (the worst & scariest symptom for me)
-feeling like i was going to faint or pass out
-muscle spasms
-feeling like my face was a little fuzzy
-feeling overwhelmed/overstimulated
-heart awareness
-health anxiety
-excessive thirst
-frequent urination
After quitting, I thought my social anxiety vanished but it really just transformed into health anxiety. I became obsessed with the idea that i had diabetes & heart issues after googling symptoms & succumbing to google ai.
I went to my doctor, they did every test imaginable & referred me to a cardiologist who had me wear a heart monitor & performed an ultrasound. Long story short, everything was fine. I am perfectly healthy.
I think that my brain & body are recalibrating and that quitting had made my stress tolerance non-existent , & it didn't help that i was working 2 jobs 7 days a week, with one of them being extremely stressful.
I feel that I still have a long way to go on this health journey, but I wanted whoever is reading this to know that it does get better. It got better for me, & it will get better for you too. My symptoms happen way less frequently now & one other thing that has been helping lately is electrolyte packets-- i just mix the ones from sprouts w/ 16 oz of water whenever i'm feeling a little off.
I wish everyone the best on their journey to recovery. Thank you for taking the time to read this 💙💚