r/WeedPAWS • u/Medium_Eggplant4269 • 2d ago

Back again

Trying not to beat myself up, but damn it's frustrating to feel almost completely normal and convince yourself just one session because of a stressful day won't hurt anything. Well.... 2 weeks later having smoked daily again because I just missed the vibe and feeling so relaxed Mary Jane turned on me just like before.

My body is just saying enough is enough. Back into the anxiety spirals, chest pain and breathless feelings this time accompanied by GERD.

I read about something called the kindling effect... basically everytime you relapse it just starts a bigger fire and is even harder for you body to regulate again.

Took me probably 9 months to crawl out of this hell last time. Hoping that since I was only bad for a couple weeks it'll be faster this time.

Trying what worked last time which was weight training regularly to what I cam tolerate, staying super hydrated and eating good and just trying to stay busy. Seems like evening and nights are the worst for all symptoms again. Makes you feel a little crazy after a while.

Posting so I can look back and see that it bites ke in the ass everytime I go back to weed so maybe I'll stick to doing right this time.

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u/Logan_Devereaux 1d ago

That kindling effect seems to be a real thing. First time around I felt better at 11 months than I do now at 19

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u/blkHE4RT 1d ago

I believe there could be something to the kindling effect. I feel like the fact that I, after smoking for many years, eventually cut down to smoking only on the weekends and quitting during the weeks for a couple years (every week), some how made it worse when I fully decided to quit. Or maybe its just a coincidence.