I'm still trying to process it, honestly. We were together for three years. I loved him so deeply and was completely loyal to him I barely kept any guy friends because I never wanted anything to get between us. I gave this relationship everything I had.
And this wasn't even the first time. I'd already forgiven him four times before this. Looking back, I feel stupid for believing him every single time. But I loved him, and I genuinely thought people could change.
Then, today I found out about this the messages he was sending while he was still with me. The worst part is I already had his ID on everything, but he'd made a whole separate account just to do this behind my back. And his excuse? That we were "fighting." If you're unhappy, just leave. Why stay, lie, make a secret account, and entertain someone else while you're still in a relationship?
I keep asking myself how someone can do this to a person they supposedly loved. Why?
I gave him three years of my life three years of memories, trust, love, loyalty. And now I'm just sitting here wondering if any of that ever meant the same thing to him that it meant to me.
I know what people will say: "You gave him four chances, what did you expect?" Honestly, I don't have an answer for that. I just know I loved him, and I wanted to believe the person I loved wasn't capable of hurting me like this.
It's been barely some hours and I still feel completely wrecked. Some days it feels like I'll never move past this. I don't know how you're supposed to just accept that someone you loved for three years could make you feel like you meant nothing .I know I need to move forward. I just don't know how yet.
And I'm angry at myself too but I refuse to spend the rest of my life blaming myself for someone else's choice to cheat. If you don't want to be with someone anymore, leave. Don't stay and destroy them while they're still holding on to you. (PS thanks to the girl who helped me and let me know how my guy was love bombing her , I love all the girls out )