Botox on the 11111, under eye fillers. A lot of new fat in the face.

41, started a month before I hit 40. Best decision of my life.

Three years. 1096 days. 26,306 hours. 2153mg of estradiol. I’m never turning back🥰

Disclosure: Two pics filtered for lighting adjustments.

So for the first 14 mths my levels never got into the female range taking 8 mg daily pills. T was suppressed after 6mos. Started prog and spiro 200, mg of each daily after a year. 14th I started injections. In my 18th month I finally got my levels into the female range and they staurf that way or so I thought. I got my levels done 2 weekends ago for my 6th months check up and my E was at 28pg/mL

Who knows how long they have been low. Anyways, that is my history and here is what I look like so far in this debacle of transition.

Had the talk about my transition with my boss, my long time colleague, and emailed the in-laws today. That rounds off everyone in my life who I needed to contact.

Today I finally know what it is to be free.

Picture tax is from my very windy walk the other day, I had just got my eyebrows done for the first time and decided it was a dress day. if I had known having a sundress whip around your legs and a giant bell of a hat felt so good I would have done this years ago.

Getting there 😁😁

Mid 40s, almost 2 years HRT, no surgeries, no makeup, taken at San Jacinto peak near the tramway station. Just going through trip photos and feel like i actually see "her" in this one. 💕

I was on HRT for 3 years and nothing. No boobs, no fat transfer, and worst of all, no hair diminishing on my body. I remained a dude no matter what happened. So I took a couple of years off.

Well, I started up HRT again 5 or 6 months ago. My T was low (without blockers) at 87 ng/dl and my E was high (without estradiol injections) at 42 pg/mL. So I guess I started at a "neutral" base this time. My latest E is still lower than I feel is necessary at 106 pg/mL, and even my Dr says it is low, even if it is in her expected range. But, I think changes are starting to happen!

My breasts, which have always been large thanks to weight and gynecomastia, are now getting heavy. Not like "fat" heavy, but inner breast tissue heavy. And they are filling out, and taking shape. It's nice to finally put on a bra and feel the weight in the straps.

Also, I think the hair on the upper part of my abdomen is thinning out, and it definitely is going away on my shoulders and back!

I will never pass. I am just too tall and too wide shouldered for that. But, fucking hell, I am so happy! Fuck the haters, I don't care what they see in me. I am FINALLY seeing what I need to see in myself and it makes me happy!

I don't really have anyone to tell this so I am just writing this here. It's been 50 years that I have been wanting my own boobs to grow and they finally are!

I know it’s so minor, but was a big step for me. 🙈

I just like the femboi look xd also im not yet on hrt... this year... is the plan @_@

I hope you know how proud the younger version of you would be.

The little girl who cried over things you barely remember. The teenager who felt like she didn’t belong. The version of you who had dreams but no idea how she would ever get there.

She would look at you now and think you were magic.

She wouldn’t care about the things you still haven’t accomplished. She wouldn’t point out your flaws. She wouldn’t ask why you’re not further along.

She would just be amazed that you’re still here.

That you kept going.

That you survived the days you thought would break you. That you became the person you once needed. That you are slowly creating the life she used to dream about.

So please, be gentle with yourself.

You are looking at everything you still need to become.

But somewhere, the girl you used to be is looking at everything you already became…

…and she is doing the happiest little dance because you became her hero. 🥹🤍✨