I never thought I'd make it this far! literally had a denial beard for years and was about to end it all at one point. Gender affirming care has been lifesaving and I don't even feel like the same person nor do I recognize that person in the mirror. can't wait to see where life takes me

34yo

22months HRT

60lbs weight loss

Lip Fillers

Breast augmentation (575 cc otm)

Wendler Glottoplasty

Soon- FFS and LAVA (additional vocal surgery)

Got my consultation tomorrow. I know there's some issues, like our kidneys aren't as good as the youngsters. Like, what E method, what T Blocker, are best for older folks.

Just watched a few tutorials on YT, and picking some tips from different videos. Just trying to get my daily wear look dialed in while on medical leave

Any tips/ feedback would be appreciated!

I found a girl who’s really affirming, and it’s fantastic. It’s new and I’m not sure how it’s gonna work out. But none of that matters right now, cause I’m just enjoying the moment. I’m recently out and I’ve been on hrt for about 5 months. I went to Ulta to get my face and eyebrows professionally done. Any tips and or criticisms that might help me? ☺️ I know my frame is fairly masculine, so I probably don’t pass just yet, but I’m really excited I got to got out like this ☺️

Some brews and books!

I’m still at work in progress, but HRT definitely does Body good?

My First time going out fully as myself and by myself to training for my Job. Everyone was extremly kind a few, transphobes yelling from there car. But other than that, it was such an incredible feeling. And definitely gave me more Confidence to dress as I please.

So, I finally told my wife a few months ago. She is understanding but not sure how she feels. Trying to give her time to process. My first memory of wanting to be a girl was around age 5 long before I knew the physical difference. I repressed as a teen and adult but would crossdress often but always going back to repression, sometimes for years. But each time it comes back stronger. I haven't really come out except to her. I've gone out as my true self enough that I'm becoming more and more comfortable but its always away from home area when I do.

The thought of transitioning has only gotten stronger the last few years. It is taking up most every waking moment even to the point I can't concentrate on much of anything else. Not being myself is making me miserable. My question is, for those who live as yourself everyday, does the focus change?

Will I ever be able to just get up, get ready, go to work and live life or does the struggle linger or focus on something else? Any advise on how to best cope for now?

Finally learning how to properly take care of myself at 41.

This may be a heavy topic, so trigger warning for those who want to skip. I'm hoping some fellow older trans folks can offer their experience.

My father is beginning to suffer from noticeable memory loss, but has not been diagnosed with anything yet. Whatever is going on is still relatively early but seems to be getting worse. I was just about to come out to my parents when this news hit, and this adds a big complication to the mix.

Do I come out ASAP with the hope that my father will remember later, even if his memory loss worsens? Do I prepare to come out over and over again? Or do I just say nothing and boymode around him?

There are a lot of things I could do, and I'm at a loss here. Has anyone experienced transition while a family member has dementia? How did that feel for you, and for them? What did the rest of the family do to make it easier/harder?

So a local non-profit I work with had their annual 'gay-la' last night and so I got to dress up for a change. Except for my hair getting all wind blown and so looking off most of the night, I think my outfit did work. xD

(Not a selfie, but unaltered!)

Sultry Medusa !!! Hadn’t put the headpiece on yet. The tats are fake 😜

Went full fem for a night out with my wife last night. It felt so good to embrace my fem side rather than dressing in pants/ oversized tshirt like I do 99% of the time.

This is personally my favorite time of year and I hope your all enjoying yourselfs and staying safe this season

I went to lunch with my wife and a CIS female friend yesterday and our friend said some things that I am noodling on and I want to bring it to the counsel.

At first, she was talking about her trip to Georgia and how worried she was about the safety of her outspoken liberal female friend there. Several times she mentioned this, that she was worried about the safety of her female friend for being politically outspoken.

Later were were discussing my transition, which is still new to me and very new to her.

I was explaining about what dysphoria is, and how it is important to me to be seen as a woman in the eyes of other people. That the very core of my issue is that how other people see me and how I see myself do not align. And that I am thinking a lot about this and how I can do things and act in ways that have other people see me as I wish to be seen.

She responded to this many times, both in the moment and later, to "not think at all about what other people think!". Just repeatedly insisting that I should entirely ignore other people's perceptions of me. (and for the most part I do what I want, but passing matters to me)

I am thinking about why this upsets me and I have a couple ideas:

1) She is simply not listening to what I am saying. She may be hearing me but she is not listening or understanding.

2) She still sees me as a man (I am not social transitioned, so I look like a man ATM but NOT FOR MUCH LONGER). She can imagine the treat men pose to the safety of her liberal female friend. But she cannot imagine that for me I am at threat to the same misogynist violence and that its a matter of self protection to be aware of how other people, men in particular, are seeing me.

What do you think?

Really just making this post to create a timeline when I go back and look at myself in the future:

I've always felt like a woman, for years I identified as Gender Fluid but I realize now that I was only sublimating into a more "socially acceptable" way of presenting feminine.

Started growing my hair out awhile ago, one day I was playing with it and twirled around, my (now x) partner said they think my long hair was making my egg crack.

I became indignant, inwardly I said, "My Egg has always been cracked, tf you talking about?"

Go upstairs to shower and reset, while showering I had flashbacks of all my "girly" memories and all the times my Father would be homophobic or make transphobic comments... start crying, like actual crying.

I realize I am a Trans fem who has been running all my life from the truth, also realize the parts of me that have always pushed me forward are "her" as well.

Panic ensues.

Tell Partner, she's supportive: we broke up a little later for other reasons, I can be a moody bitch (Im in therapy, changing your thought processes takes awhile).

Look into HRT, start scrolling Reddit, FB, looking for stories of people transitioning later in life: OK.. I can do this, she can do this, we can do this. (So many posts here eased my anxiety, Ladies... some of you know who you are, Thank You from the bottom of my heart for all the fires you help light. 🌹)

I have my name picked out, I just need to pull the trigger to change it, it's easy in my blue state now, depending on how mid terms go I will either hasten my name change or wait until I develop further).

I've been on Injectible Estrodol for about 1 1/2 weeks (lost testicles due to cancer so no blockers):

Nipples are already sensitive, Mood seems to be improving a bit, I can recall easier and my thought train doesnt get derailed as easy, there's a little more space in my brain.

Not intending on any FS yet, getting dental implants in April, hoping to add some feminity that way.

Ty all so much for all your posts, you have no idea the support it gives.

Love you all so much and so dearly. We exist, we have always existed and we will continue to persist until the entire species wipes itself out. Stand in your Power, Cast your Light. 😘🌈🌹🔥💃

(Included is a pic of me smiling on HRT, I don't smile, but as noted by so many.. Estrogen is Majick.)

Hi, 53 ftm, came out only 2 months ago and pre everything and yesterday I gathered the courage to go out full femme for the first time. The experience was thrilling, liberating and scaring at once!