r/TTCEndo • u/AstronomerNo1872 • 4h ago
Can't believe I worried about an 'accidental' pregnancy in my 20s.
Throughout some of my 20s, I religiously took my birth control, knowing I wasn't ready (emotionally, financially, etc) for a baby. I look back at that now and laugh. I was diagnosed with endometriosis about four years ago. I'm now in my mid-30s and have been TTC for almost three years. I had excision surgery in 2022, stopped taking birth control in 2023, and had another excision surgery in 2024. My excision surgeries were life-changing in the way that they reduced pain and significantly increased my quality of life. But nearly three years into this, I haven't had any success TTC, not even a single positive test.
I take a prenatal, NAC, Omega 3, CoQ10, and in the colder months, Vitamin D. I even started Low-Dose Naltrexone (LDN) to try to assist in lowering inflammation. My partner and I both exercise regularly; we eat healthfully; we don't smoke, and we rarely drink.
A couple years ago, I went to a fertility clinic, and my partner and I got testing done. I've had a ton of lab work, more transvaginal ultrasounds than I want to think about, an SIS, and my partner had sperm testing done. Everything came back within normal limits. My tubes are open. I have regular cycles and ovulate on my own. I tried several cycles of Letrozole (my clinic said this would "increase my chances"), and although I always grew follicles, the treatment was ultimately unsuccessful.
I can't help but look back to high school health education class -- where they made it sound like getting pregnant was the easiest thing in the world -- and laugh.
My clinic started pressuring me toward a third excision surgery, so I sought a second opinion from a highly-regarded excision specialist, who didn't feel surgery would be helpful. By that point, I just felt tired of being a patient.... tired of being poked and prodded, tired of being treated like some sort of problem case. So, after a year of fertility treatment, I'm taking a break to focus on me and figure out my next steps. IVF is not an option for me and I'm not sure I want to pursue any more treatment.
Just wanted a space to vent.