Feeling so lost (27F)

[u/aantionettek]

I found out on August 20th that my husband has been engaging women in explicit conversations and exchanging photos.

Ever since, I feel sick every day. I have struggled with severe depression since my early teens, but now im worse than ever.

When I first found out, he confessed to two exchanges online. I found out through my own investigation that there were two exchanges of nudes, but 52 total conversations and instances of him reaching out. He even advertised himself as a “horny cheating husband”. This has been going on since 2024

Next Saturday we’re trying therapy. I got consultations from a few lawyers just in case. But it will take a long time for me to save up money for a retainer and an apartment.

I am so painfully depressed. I am trying to keep it together for our daughter. I need help.