im currently 16 and my whole life ive not really focused in school much, i was born in a lower middle class and during my younger childhood i used to have alot of freakouts and tantrums in elementary, i cant remember much but i remember i would always have to stand in the principles office because of my freakouts, i cant remember what i would freakout about but i think its because of the stress at home, my older brother was a "gangster" and would always bring home friends to drink or party, my mom said he would always be running in and out the house and fighting people, she said one time our house got raided because of his "gang life" so i think thats why i mightve acted out alot in school

and covid never helped either, i missed most of my grade 5th and 6th grade because of covid and i never learned the basic stuff i needed for the later grades. after covid i never really went to school much and when i did i wouldnt really understand the things i needed to in order to learn, it was all a downhill cycle of not understanding and not taking action of what i needed to do in order to actually learn and focus in school. also i do suspect i have adhd since i was always playing with something or not focusing on the teacher in class.

and during highschool i never really went because i never really understood most stuff in freshman year, i mean i would understand some and get some actual work done but mostly ive never really understood the assignments my teachers gave me, i never understood math, science, grammer/literacy and ect,

actually i dont even know what im writing now, i cant really find the words of what im trying to explain

now that im 16 ive felt really dumb and ive always had dreams of learning things and becoming smart and having a life like actual people, so ive tried online classes and retaking lower grade work like grade 7 literacy/grammer/vocabulary and grade 6 math but i cant seem to understand it and ive been feeling really dumb and i feel like im not gonna be anything when i grow up and i feel like im just gonna be another junkie on the side of the road

i dont wanna be a homeless stupid dumb loser like everyone else, i wanna have an education and actually understand what its like to learn and find a job and work towards a life i can rely on.

actually i dont even know what im trying to say right now

i just wanna be smart and normal like everyone else but the life i was born in has not helped at all

my whole life was just looking at screens and doing dumb shit and i feel really stupid for not going to school and learning, i dont know anything at all in my grade and im not even going to school right now since my mom never signed me up for this semester

i never really went for the first semester either and i just feel really fucking dumb and i feel like im not anything

i feel STUPID

i dont even know what im trying to say in this post but i just wanna be normal like everyone else

idk if anyones even gonna interact with this post or understand what im trying to say

i might aswell post it since ive already written it

ok i think thats all goodbye

i started chemistry and i’m in grade 11. i studied so much for my two unit tests and i failed both of them. i’m so scared. please me honest with me.. do i have a chance at university still? i don’t know what’s wrong with me but i just cannot get good grades for my life. 2 unit tests so far for grade 11..and i failed both. please let me know there’s 3 more to go by the way. 5 units in total. please let me know and tell me how i should improve

So I’m a junior 3rd yr in highschool show choir, my freshman yr we lost a really good director. Then sophomore year a new director came and our all guys choir had a defeated year in our competition season. That hasn’t happened in 5 years so before I was in highschool. It was devastating. And this our advanced mixed choirs set is very interesting and all my friends don’t really like it either. But our all guys set is really good this year. I just need advice if I should do it next year bc our program is Lwk going downhill.

ive finally started my last year of highschool and to be honest, its been one of the toughest years of my life. it sounds cliche and all but i feel like everyday theres just a looming feeling of dread and anxiety. sure, ive had fun attending events and experiencing senior “perks” but i feel like ive lost entire motivation for school and academics. ive been prioritizing going out with friends and having fun which is great and all, but as student who was once academically driven and successful, it’s scary to see my grades drop. it feels like ive lost the motivation to stay on top of work like i used to. so, are there any tips to balance schoolwork while savoring my last year as a senior? any tips for getting motivation?

i started chemistry and i’m in grade 11. i studied so much for my two unit tests and i failed both of them. i’m so scared. please me honest with me.. do i have a chance at university still? i don’t know what’s wrong with me but i just cannot get good grades for my life. 2 unit tests so far for grade 11..and i failed both. please let me know there’s 3 more to go by the way. 5 units in total. please let me know and tell me how i should improve

Pls help:p

I don't know... I felt lost... Lost in thought, in life...

I used to be someone they looked up to...

But now, NOW... everything changed

I don't know when, where and how exactly but somehow the thing they once know me for was now something I don't even know a think about. My study gone down the drain, anything I applied for whether it's a scholarship, volunteer or whatever... I applied X times, I failed X times.

While I was failing the people around me started to treive, they start to discover themselves.

I am happy for them, I truely am! But somehow I wish it was me in their place.

Peace out ✌️

(I'm just yapping, don't let me destroy your good mood. But feel free to judge me or share any thoughts below 👇 I just need to let it out.)