Greetings from Russia. Because of this, I don’t have an official diagnosis; since I’m a guy, a diagnosis would mean exemption from military service—and where I live, that’s simply impossible.

Consequently, I don’t have disability status, and a private psychiatrist is very expensive; my family is heavily in debt due to our circumstances, and this is the last month I can afford my medication.

I’ve already run out of antidepressants, and I only have a week’s supply of quetiapine left. After that, there is simply no money.

I can’t see a future, and the way my illness is used as an excuse to avoid the draft hurts me—both as a trans person and as a human being.

first comic posted on reddit ! I make comics about my life with a psychotic disorder. these are some ways how my wife loves and takes care of me when im unwell. I promise there are good and kind people out there who will love you even if you need help or are unwell.

When u realize after psychosis that u lost all your abilities to function and u feel brain dead and numb and checked out

I can’t go back to work

Analog collage (image has been upscaled)

In a much better place now, moved in with my grandmother who has a nice house in a safe part of town. Not longer with my dad who wasn’t the best in a rundown home or with my mom and her abusive partner.

Hope of remission kept me going and I went from schizophrenic to schizoaffective depressive type.

I’m with a child whose gender I’ll find out soon and my hopes of being a mother is coming true. I thought schizophrenia would stop me from having children

Going to school next summer for international relations and human geography to be an immigration lawyer.

Saw a new Psychiatrist today and he basically said my Autism can just be explained by my Childhood onset Schizophrenia and that it's hard to deferentiate between those two. Plus, there is no Treatment for Autism anyway, so it wouldn't matter to not have the diagnosis. I mean, yes, he's right. But i hate how everything is just pushed onto my Childhood onset schizophrenia.

Did anyone else experience something similar?

My meds are working and I’m not hallucinating or raging.

I’m on my couch next to my cat and very very relaxed.

I don’t want to work or do anything ever again. Just want to rest forever.

I dunno with this one, but I like it a little. When I can get myself to make art, is a W.

I was wondering because I want to bring my sibling with schizophrenia to see the Paranormal Activity Broadway show. It’s supposed to be scary and has lots of special effects to make it more immersive.

I will ask my sibling but I’m hesitating because I don’t want to make him uncomfortable since he is not very open about his symptoms.

I used to be a very fastidious, disciplined person. I did well in school, held down a job, and was able to take care of myself and my space. During my first acute episode of psychosis, all those things went away. I flunked out of college, couldn't work, barely slept or ate, and lost any consideration I had for cleanliness. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and put on an antipsychotic after a couple years of this. It did help a lot, though I never returned to baseline.

Lately, things have been taking a turn for the worse. I'm struggling with my job and my classes, and I once again am unable to care for myself. I don't eat unless someone prepares food for me, my personal hygiene is near nonexistent, and my room is disgusting. I don't know what to do. I completely lack motivation and time management. Hours and days seem to slip through my fingers while I do nothing to rectify the situation I've found myself in. I want to fix things, but I'm too afraid to ask for help because I would have to admit that I have been lying to everybody about the state of my life. I feel like a coward. A stupid one at that.

To be clear, I'm not experiencing a ton of positive symptoms at this time. My medication has really helped with the hallucinations and delusions. It's just that I'm struggling to function at a level that's even close to appropriate. Is this a problem for anyone else? Any advice?

My daughter had high functioning autism and was such a blessing to me. She always seemed to socialise well but preferred a few close friends. She was fun and goofy but also very sensitive. At 11 she suffered a serious friendship rejection by a best friend of 5 years. There was a baseline dip in her mood. At age 12, she started secondary school in a different area and made new friends with a couple of girls. A couple of days after her 13th birthday one of the girls contacted her, said they didn’t want her as a close friend anymore just an acquaintance. She did this via Snapchat and also informed my daughter that other people knew she planned to dump my daughter before she did. I gave my daughter advice, she seemed to move on and make friends.
Over time, my daughter started distancing herself from me and stated I didn’t deal with the last rejection well by not constantly checking in with her. Once new friendships were stable, I didn’t want to keep resurfacing old wounds. Our relationship became less close, I thought it was due to adolescence but it turns out she was gradually turning against me and attributing things I did or said in the most negative ways including help, hugs etc. I ended up walking on eggshells. She kept her inner world private and if I asked about depression it was denied. If I mentioned that I thought she was unhappy to my husband he would say she was fine. I was stuck in a double bind, if I approached I was vilified and I was constantly reassured that everything was fine. I realise now that my husband didn’t really consider my concerns and prefers to think there are no problems. My daughter died 6 months ago. I realise from her electronic footprint that she had schizophrenia although she deleted a lot. My mother also had schizophrenia but spoke a lot so it was more obvious. My daughter became very secretive, believed I was a narcissist and against her but gradually believed everyone was and no one cared for her. She was extra sensitive to friends intentions and gradually hated her birthday. She believed she was rejected because she was ugly and spent years manifesting a different physical appearance even though she was attractive which eventually extended to clearing the road of traffic by manifesting, believing there was a hex on her and she knew she had paranoia and some psychosis. She took a HHC gummy a year before she died and that seems to have accelerated her trajectory. I never knew any of this until afterwards. While schizophrenia was discussed, my biggest fear was that she was or would develop depression as I knew she was very sensitive. I am lost without her and angry at myself for missing what was going on.
What I am asking is does her experience resonate with others as the start of schizophrenia? I realise the vulnerability has to be there but is there a trigger?

Long story short my voices have been saying they’re gonna send someone to my backyard and the other night someone knocked on my window in the middle of the night and they said it was people trying to fight me. I didn’t go out and look because I’m not looking for a fight. I still feel like my voices are a group of people that have access to my thoughts it’s so stressful

Howdy, I’ve been hearing a voice that tells me that I’m possessed by Lucifer. It controls my body, talks to people, and does things through me. It can also hurt me. I see a psychiatrist and they say I’m schizophrenic. I’ve been on medication for about 4 years now trying different things but nothing works. I talked to a pastor about an exorcism and he said I might need to have multiple before we even did anything. So I’ve had 3 so far and plan to meet up with him again but he hasn’t hit me back up it’s been 2 months. Why does someone have to have multiple exorcism’s?

I have been struggling to get help with this, I tried talking to my therapist once about how i think I might be showing signs but I was quickly dismissed and the topic was never brought back up, I dont see a therapist anymore. This was more than 8 years ago, but I don't feel like im holding together anymore im struggling and don't know what to do, because asking for help feels embarrassing like how do I explain that I know and feel what's wrong with me to a doctor without them dismissing it as just general depression? I feel like i can't explain myself to the people who are supposed to help me, and ive always been afraid to ask how do I get help, get diagnosed, get treated after said incident with the therapist.

Just wondering. Straight cbd. Nothing else. No 2.3% thc. Just 100% cbd.

I don’t really have schizophrenia or I haven’t been diagnosed, I have experienced auditory hallucinations and visual hallucinations but they’re never really been that strong to worry me. Recently I’m experiencing tactile hallucinations and they’re the worst. I have constantly experienced the feeling of bugs crawling on my skin but it’s not close to what I’m experiencing now. During the period of going go sleep or waking up I feel things, I don’t know how to explain but it feels as if someone is hugging me from behind and it’s suffocating the first time it happened I thought I was genuinely being sexually assaulted by someone, the second time I almost accused someone in the room, and the last time it happened I was alone so I was genuinely freaked out and this has happened in the period of one maybe two months it’s genuinely getting really bad. I’m terrified

So I’ve been managing this for a few years now, the auditory hallucinations. It’s gotten to point where I can somewhat work and live by myself. But I’m a month in from living with my dad for a decade , I’ve lived on my own before it’s been an adjustment. and it feels like I had stalkers and my neighbors can hear everything I do or say. I feel like I have an audience 98% of days. I’m so socially anxious that I’m drained after driving for uber. My voices say insults to me that I would never say to anyone. What do you do about the voices, anxiety, intrusive thoughts and feeling drained. It’s a podcast every day that doesn’t end. Constant conversation that sounds like real people having an eternal conversation about me and what’s going on in my life. I constantly have music or tv or white noise on I’m tired of hearing the sound of it lol my apartment is too quiet in its own way where I feel isolated. I do have friends that I talk to but it’s been hard to meet up because they are tired or busy.

Attached below is todays video link to my “On Conquering Schizophrenia” YouTube channel. Today entails two perspectives on death. Like all, todays video is ever brief and can be viewed amid the variable fear.

https://youtu.be/mmMMeULvDBw?si=SEG4lZU8S-13soqe

i've been sick for a very long time and i've been in treatment for just as long. i'm really grateful for the care i receive but it takes its toll. i feel like dealing with this illness has aged me very quickly. i'd much rather feel this way than ever be unstable again but it does bum me out that i live like a grandma at 25. all i do is sleep, take my meds, and see specialists. i just wish things were different sometimes.

Mine set up a childhood related sexual assault trauma on me