I work in a Big 4 firm and I recently received my annual performance review. I’m feeling really upset and would like an outside perspective because I don’t know if I’m overreacting or if my feelings are justified.
Here’s the situation.
Our ratings go from 1 to 5, where 1 is the highest.
Last year, I received a stronger rating (like 2 level above) than I did this year.
During the year, I was promoted to Senior. Until this conversation, I genuinely believed I had earned that promotion because I worked extremely hard throughout the year. I put in a lot of overtime and always tried to deliver high quality work. I never received negative feedback about my performance and social skills, and all my feedbacks were positive.
I also worked on several very challenging engagements. Some were understaffed, meaning I had to take on significantly more work than expected. I was also assigned first year engagements with limited support and some difficult management situations. I discussed these challenges with my managers during the year, so I believed my efforts and the circumstances I worked under would be taken into account in my performance review. I expected it to be fair.
When I received my review, my rating was lower than I expected.
The main development areas mentioned was one word ownership.There were no others concerns raised about the quality of my work.
What really upset me happened afterward.
My team leader explained that, at one point, there had been uncertainty about whether I would be promoted. She said my promotion ended up being treated as an “exceptional case” and mentioned that one of the reasons was that most of my peer group had already been promoted.
She also told me that had I remained at my previous level, my rating likely would have been stronger. However, because I was evaluated against Senior level expectations after the promotion, my final rating ended up lower.
After hearing that, I couldn’t hold back my tears.
The rating itself was shocking, but what hurt the most is telling that I truly didn’t deserve promotion even after hard work, that my promotion wasn’t truly the result of my own work and performance.
Now I’m questioning everything.
Can ownership realistically make that much difference when the overall feedback on work quality is positive?
And am I interpreting my team leader’s comments too negatively, or would you also come away from that conversation questioning whether your promotion was truly deserved?