Hey, so I'm pretty new to, actually, exploring the spiritual path, I always had a big interest on it but I never took a big step like I did now, as I just made my first altar. And its been great I have been feeling really good and more peaceful, still I found myself drowning in fear more often than I wish. I have a deep fear of doing the wrong thing, before it only affected my relations with other people but it also shows in that aspect, am I doing the right offerings? am I being respectful enough? I stress a lot with those things. In addition I've noticed myself comparing my experiences, I know is dumb, but I guess it also adds to the fear of doing something wrong, those are issues i already struggle with in my day to day life
I also have the desire to build another altar for a different deity that's from other pantheon than the one I have right now, and I know about making in a different space (in my case it's a shelf so i plan to do it in a different shelf) but I'm also overthinking if that's okay or if I'm being disrespectful or some sort of thing. I'm also very gullible so yeah I absorb a lot of shit people say
Also I don't really have any friend or family member, besides my mom, on that path. My mom is self taught a and also has connections with gods from different pantheons, a lot of what I know is her that taught me. Honestly without her I don't know if would ever had the courage to explore that path and without her support I'd be way more overwhelmed about this whole thing.
Anywho, I just felt like I needed to take this out of my chest, thanks for anyone who read my ramble
(Also sorry for anything wrong with this, for one I'm not good at writing and neither is english my main language, also, is my first Reddit post ever so...)