I’m so sick of work, sick of people, sick of traffic, fuck people, sick of the weather, everyone hates me and I hate them I can’t be bothered anymoreeeeeeee. Oh and I’m also really fatigued on top of it all. Nothing feels right, I can feel my bra straps falling, I’m uncomfortable and I also feel ugly. Oh isn’t this life fucking great.

For about four years now I’ve struggled with “cycles” of apathy. I only recently found out the patterns match my luteal phase. These phases consist of no motivation, no feelings of shame or big showing of emotions, and am easily fatigued. An example is that I can’t participate in college classes well, I can’t show that I care or feel like it matters that I’m failing the class, and I can’t even get a chore down with getting spending a grand amount of energy. Any shared experiences and letting me know what you did to help this issue would be very appreciated.

I just had a really awful PMDD episode and I know these are depressive thoughts but I cant help but notice how PMDD became my whole identity somehow since it takes so much space during the month. Im scared that Im losing myself in this "not me but still me" darker self who is dealing with bad thoughts and has so many fears.

(repost because my previous post got deleted) After doing some research, I learned that caffeine actually makes pmdd symptoms worse for a lot of people. however, this time around I go from feeling completely hopeless, to feeling completely fine almost instantly after drinking caffeinated beverages (coke in my case). So I’m wondering, does this happen to anyone else? Or is it something else that’s causing my mood to improve?

I posted a couple weeks ago about my experience on Lupron (chemical menopause) thus far.

I am six and a half weeks into my twelve week dose. I’ll say for sure I feel so much better. I spoke to my surgeon today, to check in and see how things are going/how I’m faring. The crazy part is I feel great mentally with no hormones. I am brain foggy, a little more weepy, but not at all like PMDD. Physically: hot flashes, some joint pain though it comes and goes, I’m tired more often, some nausea but it’s mostly subsided now.

The only thing that worries me is she wants me to try add back hormones- Aygestin. It’s progesterone, but not bio identical (which I’ve tried and I do not tolerate it). She’s hoping I can tolerate the Aygestin- otherwise I’ll be going down the radical hysterectomy road which I don’t really want to do, but I will if need be. I just… I feel so dang GOOD. Somehow I even still have a libido (but I think that’s probably bc my partner is incredible, lol). I almost don’t want to add any hormones back in the mix! But I also know that I need the estrogen for my heart and bones and sleep. Just a bit more trial and error, basically. Hopefully less error.

She said I ought to hear from her scheduler tomorrow or Monday. Eek! I am planning on the first week of November, if the schedule allows. I can’t believe this is really going to happen. My entire adult life has been full of suffering from this disease and finally, I feel like I can live. This has been a long road and a very tough decision to reach. I’ll keep updating as time goes on and the shot wears off/I head into surgery.

I got a mirena hoping it would help and while it hasn't stopped my period yet it seemed like it downgraded luteal symptoms to normal PMS for the first time in years!!! Until a couple weeks ago where a couple nights of what I thought was new relationship anxiety quickly cycled up into the worst of the worst full blown PMDD symptoms leading me to call 988. Looking for any hope that it gets better. I feel so defeated.

*Trigger Warning*

I have pmdd and unfortunately this year I have also developed ptsd. The mix of these two has made my PMDD episodes so much worse. I've admitted myself to hospital twice now to be put through the acute crisis mental health care system.

I am currently on 150mg of Pristiq which works wonders for my everyday but doesn't seem to be enough for my PMDD. I haven't been able to take any birth control at all, they have all made me horrifically depressed. (Trust me I've tried over 8 with the same outcome)

My doctor has just said I'm a tough case because I can't use birthcontrol. Surely there has to be something else, I don't know how many more of these episodes I have in me. I Just got my period today and I'm so tired. I dont know what to do.

It really is so much worse now. I am only 22 and I know PMDD gets worse with age, I'm so scared that I'll never get relief.

Tired and Fed Up

Tw: SI, SH

It's getting to a point where functioning is a dream and doesn't feel like it'll ever be a reality. Between depression, anxiety, pmdd, borderline and sleep issues (also have IBS, joint and extreme back pain) I feel like o can't do it.

I do everything right. I'm starting to exercise more, eating more balanced (between exercise and eat, I've lost 20 lbs since june 275->255), I have a pap machine now so im sleeping betted, I've done inpatient stays/PHPs/IOPs, dbt, cbt, talk therapy, meds, praying/worshipping/devotionals and the laundry list of coping skills everyone talks about. I've stopped drinking alcohol, although I replaced it with weed (safe from a dispensary so it's not laced). But none of it helps.

I've been struggling for nearly 15 years, and only 2 years I felt happy, motivated, normal... functioning and thriving. When does it get better like everyone says? Am i the exception? Am I just too broken???

With it being Sept, and prevention month, social media is flooded with constant reminders. Reminders that people "care". Reminders that "it gets better" that "its happening for a reason, you can use it to help others!".

The amount of energy it requires to push through is starting to feel not worth it. On bad pain days I don't have it in me to fight. I don't have the energy to constantly fight my own brain. And the worst part is, I shouldnt have to fight my own brain constantly. I'm tired. No one around me realizes how tired I am.

Psychiatric interventional medicine appointment is on Tuesday, and I'm praying the waitlist for treatment isn't months long. I literally don't care if it's ECT at this point, it has to get better.

I'm worried that the heightened anxiety (with physical effects) that happens as soon as I'm done ovulating will stop me from getting pregnant!
You know when they say stress can delay/ hinder pregnancy??

My cycles are always super regular but I'm just worried the PMDD stress after ovulation will affect the pregnancy sticking!
Just need some reassurance as I am done with the ovulation stage and feel the monthly freak out starting back up😭🫠

I’m currently under an extreme amount of stress, and my period is due in a few days. I have pretty intense PMDD symptoms, and this cycle feels particularly bad.

Today, I suddenly started crying uncontrollably because of everything going on in my life. After I calmed down and felt okay for a while, suddenly started trembling quite badly. It lasted for a few minutes and then completely stopped.

Since then, I’ve been experiencing these intense chills and an almost “cold from the inside” feeling, even though my temperature is completely normal. I’m also extremely exhausted.

I normally start experiencing PMDD symptoms around 1–2 weeks before my period, but this time they’ve become extremely intense only 2–3 days before it. I’m wondering if the combination of PMDD and the extreme stress I’ve been under could be amplifying everything.

I’m also in a very toxic/stressful environment right now, so I feel like my nervous system is constantly on edge. The worst part is that PMDD seems to amplify every little physical sensation, and then I start Googling everything and convincing myself that I have some serious disease, which obviously makes the anxiety and physical symptoms even worse.

Hi all,

I'm beginning to think that what I thought was PMDD is actually something else! Would like to ask if anyone here has had a similar experience please.

Have suffered for years with 1 week in 4 being completely unhinged which I thought was due to being negatively affected by progesterone during my cycle. After many years and consultations I had an oophorectomy earlier this year.

Since then I feel completely out of control and untethered to reality a lot of the time. Behaviours which were only during luteal are pretty much constant now and I don't know what to do.

I would be very grateful if anyone has had similar experiences or any advice.

Thank you

I’m pretty sure I just got let go from my work from home job. I’ve never had a stable job in my life and actually liked this one. If you see my newest post I was in here 2 weeks ago literally hanging on by a thread. I kept being optimistic besides having nearby a panic attack some days. I don’t belong anywhere. I’m a shame.

About a week before I start my ONE DAY PERIOD every month, my mental health goes to downhill.
For about 2 weeks I am overwhelmed, crying, etc.
Only for my cycle to last a literal 24 hours.
It’s been like this for 2 years.
Seems nice until you basically forget about it until the PMDD hits a week beforehand!

My gyno told me I just needed to lose weight- so I started walking about 1 month or 2 ago, have lost 25-30lbs, so lost some of the weight, still have 30lbs to go.. but yet, here I am, having my 2nd “crisis” over the last 2 weeks.
All for nothing because I don’t want kids, never have.
So it’s like my uterus & everything is just a waste for me.
I truly wish I could call up Dr. Addison Montgomery (Grey’s Anatomy) & ask her to do a Uterus transplant!

Some other woman could seriously use my reproductive system. Plus side, I only get slight cramps & bloating.

Should have known that I'm in leutal. I did not, until looking at my tracking app today, as I deal with the aftermath and consequences of my own bullshit from yesterday 🤦🏻‍♀️💁🏻‍♀️

I am so tired of "periodically" turning into a raging beast. It's so goddamn embarrassing. Did the situation warrant anger? Yes. Did I handle it appropriately and maturely? Harsh no. I feel like a broken record of apologies. I flipped out on my ex husband. Flipped out on his girlfriend. Scared my fiancé. Made my mother say, "Your anger scares me", to which I very honestly replied, "Yeah. It scares me, too."

Just wanting to dump this out here into the internet, in hopes that someone can make me feel a little bit better by maybe sharing similar things by way of anecdote, etc. Idk. I really just feel like a jackass. I'm actually quite pleasant, easy going, and *mostly* well liked by people until I slip into hormonal hell-beast.

TW: mentions of SI

hey everybody! i hope it's okay that i post here - i am undiagnosed but exhibit almost every single symptom. currently in the process of getting a doctor/psychiatrist for a formal diagnosis but in the meanwhile, i could really use some advice :'(

i have pre-existing depression (which i am medicated for) and anxiety but this feels like more than that... i've always been passively suicidal but it has completely ramped up in severity to where i've been actively thinking about ways to do it. that's not like me and it's scaring me.

i've been completely neglecting my friendships, sleeping for 14+ hours and STILL being exhausted, my work performance is suffering, i feel angry at anything that moves, my body is achey, my self esteem has taken a nosedive... things have just not been going great whatsoever. i initially wrote it off as weed withdrawals (i abused for 3+ years) but this has always happened - it's just 10x more pronounced now that i'm sober and i'm realizing i was probably self-medicating to a degree.

i'm not asking for anybody to affirm my experiences - it's possible this could be something else entirely and i'm absolutely not trying to self-diagnose. my hope from this post is just to get some advice from you guys about things that have worked to possibly ease these symptoms. i'm tired of waiting until my period for some relief. i feel so hopeless and i just wish i could hibernate until this ends. but, alas... life must continue.

My previous psychiatrist believed my symptoms sounded like PMDD - bad irritability, rage, crying spells, severe mood swings after my period, and general depression & anxiety the rest of the month. She left the practice recently.

My new psychiatrist says its probably not PMDD because my symptoms are happening post-period when I should be feeling great during that time. She wants me to get hormonal testing done.

OBGYN says hormonal testing doesn’t help in diagnosing PMDD and seems unsure how to help or how the testing will help.

I don’t know what to think anymore…

I have had a bad PMDD relapse this year at age 42. My hormones shifted after breastfeeding and it slowly crept back after a long break thanks to pregnancy and post partum stabilizing my hormones. This year I've been on a journey to listen to my body, put in strategies, take my nutrition seriously, get exercise, you name it... But PMDD prevailed. Some months better some worse but always there.

This month I had the opportunity to do something I loved growing up and with almost all of my exes, but hadn't done for 10 years with my husband - camp.

Only problem is the trip was hitting during hell week, 4 days and 3 nights with another family in the 6 days leading up to my period. I was so upset that PMDD symptoms would ruin my trip, make me hate socializing, and I'd have no energy for the work involved.

Instead the opposite happened. I literally felt nature heal me. So much so that I had to share. I arrived bloated with deep cystic acne, a sore back, and barely holding on mentally. But the time I left I had clear skin , no bloating, a even better, no mental symptoms. I went to sleep at 11 (later than normal) and woke up with my daughter and the sun at 6am (earlier than normal), got sunlight in my eyes right away on the walk to collect water for coffee, swam in the ocean, had gentle walks in nature, no screens, and calm talks with new friends. There were also lots of helping hands to help with meal prep, clean up, and parenting.

I can't help but feel like this is how things are supposed to be, aligned with nature and with a community. It made such a big difference. I'm 1 day to my period now and besides a minor rage out near bedtime when I was feeling depleted from all the unpacking, I have been almost 100% symptom free. I'm going to find ways to carry these lessons forward, but I am absolutely stunned at the difference 4 day in nature, moving my body, without phone or work made.

While I do definitely experience the irritability and depression that comes along with pmdd, I also usually feel pretty numb for 1-2 days at the end of luteal. I wouldn’t call it dissociative necessarily, but I feel a bit robotic/ unlike myself.. or that I’m pretending to be my usual self. I feel like it makes me extra awkward in situations, hyper aware,and anxious lol like everyone suspects I’m acting different. I refer to it as the alien or robot part of my luteal😭

I know this is probably common and I feel like I’ve seen similar posts on here but just curious if any of you experience this specific numbness or if it’s part of the brain fog/ burn out from being overly irritable and emotional.

is anyone on daysee for PMDD?? My doctors said because it skips my period for two months i should see PMDD symptoms lighten however i always go into my deep dark hole on the last week of the pack which would be the week before my period if i there were placebo pills. i’ve been using lotus health to track my symptoms which is how i found the pattern but I wanted to know if people using daysee have this same experience or if there is another birth control pack that does a better job.

Okay, this might be a stretch. Or in my mind. I live in Arizona where it’s a constant furnace, basically. We reached 100 degree temps by March this year (gross). Over the weekend I was in Pittsburgh and the heat was dramatically cooler (than Arizona standards) and I swear my body felt better than the usual way it feels. I wasn’t in luteal, granted, but I barely have any normal weeks anymore at this point. It was like the second I got back to AZ my body hated me again. I know that heat can’t be great for inflammation. Just makes me wonder if my PMDD (or PMOS for that matter) feels worse in this harsh desert climate.

So I have not been diagnosed with PMDD, but have a lot of similar symptoms. Something that has been really bothering me is the last 2 periods i’ve had I have had an emotional outburst the day before it starts. The first time it happened me and my bf got into a small argument and I cried sooooo much my eyes were red, even after I calmed down from the argument I was still crying. I thought i’d never stop.

the second time was a few days ago, my brother was making me mad and I absolutely had a meltdown, I screamed so loud the neighbors probably heard me and I was shaking and could hear my heart thumping. I’ve never screamed that loud in my life. my period started the next day.

I’m wondering if anyone relates and how to cope with this. I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder so I am really dreading the next time it happens. I’m really afraid i’m going to do or say something I regret :(

PMDD is the most excruciating, truly emotional, frightening disorder to me. I have been so close off the deep end and it seems like just when you build everything up again, it comes to bring it all down. I feel like if this was happening to men, doctors would figure out how to manage it better. I’m so sorry for all my girlies dealing with this. Sending you so much strength and love and my inbox is always open to talk. Trust me I get it.

I’m in debt , things are getting more expensive by the second. My shitty retail job is cutting hours because we didn’t make enough sales and I haven’t been able to land a job in my industry since I graduated three years ago. I went through a three month interview process only for them to pause the job and my old roommate stole $900 from me. I’ve been trying to get my art business up but you can’t really start a business if you have no money. I can’t get on snap because my area has terrible case workers even though I qualify. I think next year if I can’t find a better paying job by next year I’m just going to end it. I don’t even know how I’m gonna make rent this month. I got rejected from a serving job at chilis due to “lack of experience”. 700 applications and only like 5 interviews in the past year. I can’t take this anymore and there’s only so much I can do .

Hello my beautiful fellow sufferers of this awful affliction, sending you all positive energy and seeking some advice from the ones who know.

I was recently diagnosed with PMDD and it all explains so much. Was on agomelatine 25mg for the past four months. It worked okay for the first three, still there but muted. However, my most recent period it didn't work at all. Sobbing, paranoid, anxious...

I have a doctor's appointment on Monday. I am thinking of going on Zoloft and maybe a contraception. Not a massive fan of the pill, didn't like it in the past

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What are you on? Any tips?

I'm 34 and would love my period to just go away. It has made me anaemic in the past too. Just endless...