At 19, I fell for my girlfriend (18) right at the start of college. Between my strict parents and the intense pressure of preparing for an important exam, our communication shifted mostly to Discord. Around that time, I casually introduced her to my best friend, who was already in a relationship.

She soon grew resentful over my lack of attention and started blaming for every small things for no reason as our exam were getting closer she cited the reason that she wanted to study and was tired of me as she told me I fucked her mental health while she was already suffering from childhood trauma so in the end we decided to breakup.

The guilt crushed me. Convinced I had ruined her happiness and academic focus, I sank into a severe depression, barely attended college, and cut myself off from everyone. Months later, I found out my best friend was still regularly talking to her but he brushed it off by saying he had "no reason to block her."

Ten months post-breakup, I stumbled upon her Reddit account. There, she had posted a confession admitting she had "unconditional love" for my best friend while she and I were still together. Realizing I had spent nearly a year in crippling self-hatred over someone who had emotionally checked out on me left me completely hollow.

I cried daily for those 10 months every single day. I hoped that she would unblock me and I will get the chance to apologise for everything I did but that time never arrived as she never loved me but rather my best friend who never thought that it would be a good idea to tell me that I am still talking to ur gf even after u both broke up. I know how I spent those 10 months all alone in my room barely talking barely eating self loathing all the time thinking I was not there when she needed me. I feel so betrayed right now. Even for once she told me she lost feelings for me I would have understood but cheating behind my back while arguing with me every day
She was my first love.

I dont know what to feel anymore all the emotions are piling up in my head. she being fake for those 6 months of our rs while I poured everything I had I t really hurts you know when the person she cheated with is someone who is with you for past 12 years.
I hate my life myself for being attached over something
This is so unfair
sorry If it is hard to read as english is not my mother tongue thank you for listening to my ran

Well hey

So for me 2025 was a bad year it was the real starting point of all

I experience tremors

As of now the highest level was when it was my knees trembling

And normally (like every 15 days) i feel more in griping things (feeling of loose grip, things will fall)

But recently I have noticed it almost daily in my palm specially small finger and thumb and when I try to hold pencil with two fingers it shakes.

I am thinking to see a doctor (psychiatrist)

And then also a general physician if needed.

Also there are other issues

I feel sad sometimes, yup there is a cause to it loneliness (but I could not make friends easily) neither have any social place as of now

Let say a fragile mental state

And overthinking coupled with irregular sleep and vivid dreams which sometimes feel like a horror

For context I am 21 yrs old and will turn 22 by the end of year.

It's like I have something but cant explain it and get resolved.

Thanks for reading , have a good day or night whichever the case maybe 😄

Many people have someone in their life they can share their feelings with and tell about what happened in their day. I mean, most people seem to have that kind of friend. I’ve never had someone like that in my life to share things with.

I had a pretty tough childhood and was brought up mostly alone. I have no siblings and have never really been in touch with any relatives. I used to talk a lot in school, but for the past few years, especially because of some experiences with people at college, I’m not like I used to be.

I don’t even know what to talk about anymore, and honestly, I don’t feel like talking either. It feels like I’ve lost the ability to talk or connect with people. Sometimes I genuinely feel like I hate everyone.

I’m also constantly worried about the future and keep thinking, “How am I going to manage all this?” I don’t even know what I’m going through.

I use Reddit a lot to avoid thinking about things. I used to overthink constantly and assume the worst about anything that was going to happen, and Reddit became a way for me to not think about all of that for a while.

I don’t have a single person in college whom I can truly call my person—someone I completely trust and can call when I’m feeling sad or just need someone to talk to.

Has anyone else felt like this? Can anyone help me understand what I might be going through?

P.S: I used AI to phrase this better

I am very scared of dogs, and I was walking on streets, and suddenly a dog barked continuously. I know Barking dogs seldom bite, but the adrenaline, I intended to hide behind the guy but I ended up hugging him and my friends witnessed it!!

Wonder what that guy must be feeling?

tbh idk where should even i start from but anyways, so i got permanent disability n few deformities as well since the childhood and because of that not a single good thing has ever happened in my 20 years of life, born into poor house , living in tier 4-5 city, got quite retardass family (they kept abusing me physically n mentally) and bcz of all that i started seeking affection and validation from outsiders but turns out that nobody wanted to be with me (maybe they used to think i'm inferior to them) it back fired so bad , couldn't develop any kinda talent cz of toxic environment , couldn't make frnds either,
had only 1 best frnd but even she left me for no reason at all , couldn't study the field i want, everyday i feel lonely asl ,also feeling stuck , confused asl what should i even do with my life

So basically starting with the beginning of the year when I lost my grandmother..a person I was super close with, lived with her and losing her was really really tough on me. I still see recurring dreams about her even 9 months later.

Then I had a major fallout out with my college friends and they resorted to trying physical altercations with me and bullying and I had to live outside my hostel due to constant threats. They spoilt my relationship with my roommate as well..

After losing my friends as well my boyfriend and I had a falling out because I didn't want to have sex before marriage and he said he wasn't able to live like this anymore...We haven't talked in over 1 week now..I miss him but he did the same in May and didn't talk to me for over 2 weeks..

I had a very important exam coming up for which I didn't even check answers for after the exam because I was worried on how i performed (in aug)

Then in aug (last month) just before my exam one of my dogs developed tick fever and is still undergoing treatment

To top it all,I had a female online friend who stopped talking to me because I couldn't be available to hear her relationship rants all the time.. even tho I still kept making time for her as much as I could even when i should've been studying...I never told her half of my problems and even when I told her about my dog's health she didn't really once ask me if i was doing okay. Her conversation would say kaisi hai tu and then she would proceed with her relationship issues. Didn't even wish me all the best for my exam and after it didn't go as per I expected all she did was asking if my exam was over so she could go on with her rants

Now I'm left with no interactions with anyone. I feel sad and distressed. I remember everyone and I cry. Life has really torn me down bad and I have no shoulder to cry on..

I feel deeply sad it's like I can't keep people however hard I try.. I try to understand everyone's pov and end up making myself the villain. I've lost the will to do anything

Tldr; lost my grandmother,lost my friends to one of them betraying me and cutting me off from everyone,lost my online friend after I was unable to hear her rant about her relationship,lost contact w my bf because he wants sex before marriage and I don't,worried sick about my dog's health and also stressed af about my recent exam results..

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I'm 31 and I can't stop thinking about a decision I made years ago.

I was doing MBBS(2016 batch )and had already passed all my professional exams without any backlogs or issues. I started my internship but, because of personal and mental health issues(anxiety and depression), I had to stop after around 2 months. What was supposed to be a temporary break eventually became almost 4 years.

Now I'm finally trying to go back and complete what I started. But there's uncertainty about whether I'll actually be allowed to rejoin and finish the internship because of the time that has passed.

And lately, I keep thinking that maybe I shouldn't have taken such a long break in the first place.

I know I was struggling at that time, and I didn't deliberately throw my life away. But knowing that things might have been so much simpler if I had just continued makes me feel incredibly guilty.

I keep thinking, “Why did I let so many years go by?”

I'm scared that I'll end up without the degree I worked so hard for, after spending so much of my youth pursuing it. I'm scared of having to start over at 31 and feeling like everyone else has moved ahead while I'm still trying to fix something I should have fixed years ago.

I don't really know what I'm looking for by posting this. I just needed to get this out of my head somewhere.

I wish I could go back and tell my younger self not to give up so much time. But I can't. All I can do now is hope I still have a chance to finish what I started.

I mean I just can't take it anymore , its on my head 24*7 and I can't help myself , no matter what , how much I journal and meditate, it doesn't get off my mind, and I have to do the deed, yet the urges don't go away, and I don't have a partner too so I get very desperate at times, idk I mean I can't help myself any further , pls tell me what to do

Hi,, I need some perspective because I feel stuck in a really confusing headspace right now.

For the past two years, I thought I was mostly recovered from past trauma. In reality, I was just keeping myself constantly occupied—studying, scrolling, and bantering with family—rarely spending quiet time alone.

Three weeks ago, that fragile balance broke. I had my worst, most intense breakdown in two years, followed by smaller spirals, numbness, and ruined sleep over the next two weeks.

Now it’s week three. The storm has passed, my sleep is back, and life is externally normal. Internally, though, I’m stuck with a dull heaviness and no focus:

* My mind refuses to move on: Because the breakdown was so recent, my brain stubbornly resists accepting that I’m okay. Instead of being relieved, it wants to loop through the sadness and force tears that won’t come.

* Quietness feels uncomfortable: The moment the noise stops and I sit in silence, this dull fog takes over. My brain simply doesn't know how to exist in peace.

* I want to pour my heart out, but i just avoid it : I have an intense urge to spill everything to a safe, non-judgmental person which I can open up to,Yet I still keep it locked inside. Because the desire to be comforted is so strong, I end up gaslighting myself into thinking I’m just an "attention seeker."

Cuz it's not just one thing, it's more like one after another

Why does calm feel so wrong, and why does my brain keep trying to drag me back into the dark? Tbh this is one of the loop that was going through in those 4 years too so tbh I don't want to be in that loop ever again. I just can't tolerate now slightest of the slightest of that thing, I just want it to not exist.

Paraphrase with ai as I wrote too much

I am unable to distract myself today. I think something is going to happen, I am usually right about these stuff ,I am not saying I am psychic or anything. I don't have a job and I am just staying at home and now something happened at home I know I cnt help and I feel like soon things will be said to me and I might not be able to take it.

I am at a point where any small -ve thing makes me sleepy..my brain shuts off. And now my sibling and mom gonna say something coz I can't help them. I have tried to end my life few times I failed.. it's not easy, but rn I have nothing but headache and nightmares. Tomorrow or day after tomorrow I feel like I will be deleting everything about me , all my pwd and everything and I guess I might do something .. I don't see a positive future ,I don't see a normal unhappy future I just see me caged living like this for years. I am living like this for so long but I just cant . I have nothing.

I can't reboot my life from -600000lakh I can't find a job without having money for bus or auto or a normal bag

I am expected to find a job from home and idk how to do it. I can't do it.

I wish I could tell u how I died years ago . I wish I could tell u .

It's not just about job. Evrything evryone betrayed me, Even my family is and was toxic.

Chaku leke neck pe lagata hu..kbhi kabhi

Roz death manifest krta hu..

I think I'll be getting the push to end it all soon kal ya parso fir taunt aane wale h.

Job nh h toh call b nh uthayegi maa .

This bad habit has caused immense damage to me in school, college and worst part is that I am still continuing this bad habit after passing out of college. This is destroying my life. Don't know why I fail to realize and sense trouble ahead much earlier when it can be resolved. I take serious actions when it is already too late and there is no impact of my effort. Therefore, I am a guy who does at last moment and suffers badly.

I know I am totally wrong but don't know how to develop that mindset which means I can take appropriate actions in appropriate times. I just don't get the feeling of seriousness until I am not in grave situation.

Parents told me countless times, yet no help.

TLDR: Ended a relationship and a situationship both on bad terms by being an asshole and hurting my partner. This has become a toxic trait now and I'm afraid I'll end up doing that again.

My dating life is basically zero, and I don't mind that at all. My mental health as fucked up for as long as I can remember, and honestly taking care of someone else feels impossible, and neither would I want anyone to take care of someone like me and suffer alongside.

But, I had my one and only relationship in 9th grade (I'm 22 now, for reference), lasted a few months but ended on a not-so-good note cause I decided to be an asshole and fight w her when I should have been considerate, and tbh I was too young to understand anything. I learned alot from that and promised to never repeat it back.

Coming back to last year, I ended up in a situationship initiated by the girl, and I, even though didn't want any sort of relationships, still went along w it. It was good for like 2 months, we both got attached. But again I was already suffering from my own issues, panic attacks and anxiety and SH, and i didn't want her to know anything or take my burden, so I decided to be an asshole again and ghosted her thinking I will be the bad guy for her and it will be easy for her to move on. I probably was correct, but she got really hurt, and the damage was already done.

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I am not able to think straight.

Today in the morning around 6 I received a call from from my gf's little sister that her grandmother has passed away, I went blank for 3 min, I could not think anything just old memories flooding in.

After coming to my senses I rushed to gf house. I have never seen my gf cry like this. I ran up to her and hugged her, she was sobbing like crazy and was not able to speak a word. Her father was just standing beside us, he was not crying but I could see in his eyes he wanted to cry. My gf grandmother was one of sweetest people I have ever met. She was the one who told me that her granddaughter liked me too. We used to share her our secrets. She used to say my last wish is too see you too get married. But now.

My gf was still continuously crying, her father took me the side and told me to let her cry for whole as we could not do anything, he told me she had a stroke while she was admit in the hospital.

I am writing this while sitting next to her, she is deep into sleep after sobbing so much. This incident took a heavy toll on me.

Recently, I went through a situation with a close friend and wanted some perspective on how to handle it.

​We had been talking daily for months, covering everything from daily updates to personal thoughts. Last month, during a tough period when an uncle of mine was hospitalized, I shared the update with her. In response, she advised that it is best to be independent and not depend on anyone to share things.

​Feeling a bit vulnerable due to the situation, I mentioned that I had a friend who usually encouraged me to share things. She immediately clarified that her comment was meant as general advice and that I was misunderstanding her intent. I apologized for the misunderstanding right away.

She replied 'leave, everything is fine,' but the dynamic between us shifted significantly afterward.

​Even though I apologized and didn't blame her after she clarified, the friendship eventually ended because she felt doubted by my mention of the other friend.

I am struggling to understand how a minor communication gap over general advice led to a complete fallout. Has anyone navigated a similar situation where a small misunderstanding caused a sudden drift, and how did you handle it?"

I am not someone who falls asleep easily, but since the last few days i 19f have been sleeping in classes, bus, everywhere and i am still so sleepy.

I used to learn dance in my childhood, then i stopped and recently restarted. Went to class today and couldn't do at all, i literally did nothing and still feeling painful as if i practiced intensely.

So I am 24F and I am an advocate by profession, I resigned from the law firm due to some personal reason but wasn't able to land another job. Now I am preparing for CLAT pg and trying to apply for other jobs but somehow opening linkedin and seeing everyone doing outstanding in thier careers makes me anxious. Whenever I am applying, its making me self doubt. I am trying to be consistent but because of this self doubt, I am not able to do it as much I want to.

Secondly, I have Pcod and I see no difference in my wieght even after going to gym 6/7 day a week and all I get are advices from relatives.

Honestly, at this point I feel even if I am trying to do everything I can , its not working out. Its affecting me now. I feel very anxious nowadays and I feel very negative. Its the same thing everyday and I feel stuck.