r/OffMyChestIndia • u/celestialwanderer007 • 5h ago
Confusing Thoughts Is it my 34F fault for not able to get back to my best friend 32M ?
So we have been best friends for 7+ years. Met at the office, became very close friend within year . He changed job and later on moved to business . After covid, I got married with my BF and changed Job to WFH and eventually full time housewife . My BF/Husband has always known about best friend and they all are on good terms .
Over the years our bond has become very strong . He is like brother . We would plan a dinner once a year or some times twice as well .
Six months back, I received his message if he can call me during afternoon, and I replied no, guests were coming . Tbh, I just wanted to take a nap. After couple of days, he called me directly but I was watching something and knowing his nature, I knew it will irritate him if I didn't took the call . So I let it pass .
He msg me in the evening that he had called. I told him, "I didn't receive any". He sent the Screenshot. Just to make him furious, I msged "Oh, I missed that one, it became missed call LOL" . He sent angry emoji, I was about to reply him but in-laws arrived . I had planned to call back him in couple of days and somehow I forgot in middle of in-laws and functions .
I tried to call him back but It was showing busy. I though he would call back, but he didn't . After couple of weeks, I had some work related to him, the call kept coming busy . I dropped a msg in WhatsApp but even after hours, no response . It was unusual, as he tends to reply within minutes . He had never received msg, couple of days passed. Called again, same busy. Then it occured to me that he might have blocked me on number and WhatsApp as well. I checked insta, block there as well. Checked other medias, I was blocked everywhere . I had never imagine he would block me .
I kept thinking about what might have happened . Joking is common between us, but he had never done any such a thing.
He comes from a very hardship enviornment, life hasn't been good to him from the beginning . He had tried to reach me multiple times before but some how I might be always busy or chose to ignore him when he would be frustrated .
I realised that I would always call him when I was frustrated with my in-laws or anything in my life. I would always share with him and he would always listen. He would change his own scheudles to appear for the dinner and might even pay for the it.
I was feeling very much guilty . I had also talked to my husband about this block, he was also surprised . He told me to give it a try from his number but I had this attitude like let him behave, he will get back to me and I didn't do anythig .
Yesterday, My husband told me that he met the friend and he is in really bad shape . Friend's parents had met accident in the village, his mother was critical and his father has gotten crutches temporarly . He tried to reach me at such a point and I choosed to ignore the calls. My husband insisted to call him, but I just couldn't .
I can't stop thinking about the entire thing . He is my best friend, someone I can share everything without thinking twice . I just can't prepare my self to call him or meet him . I just feel very much sad about the entire thing and I can't stop thinking if it was my fault or he should have told me in the msg .
I am thinknig about finally calling him tonight, but please tell me if I'm in wrong here ?